I just want to start with congratulations to Sifu Sollinger and Sifu ward. I felt truly blessed yesterday, because not only did I get to see my best friend get his black belt, but I was Dan and Mels 5 technique partner for there banquet debut. These are my two closes friends and I have the honor to call them both my best friends. I also really enjoyed being apart of the drumming. I truly love drumming. I laughed a lot at this years lion dance it was just so well done.
This banquet was bitter sweet, because I was super happy for Dan, but I also knew he was leaving the I Ho Chuan for the first time since he joined this year. He is leaving for a noble reason. I know Dan will still be at kung fu all the time, it's just gonna be different this year, because Dan for me embodied what the I Ho Chaun program can do for someone, and what it looks like when someone gives their all to completing everything in the I Ho Chuan program. Dan truly does not have the spirit of "I will try" he has the "I will do and this is how, and now I will follow through"
With Dan gone from the I Ho Chaun team for me it leaves a big hole, but that's what so great about I Ho Chaun. New people will rise up to the challenge and become the new Dan. Dan inspired many and I know he will continue to do so.
Side note: I got to spend all day today with my girlfriend Cora Lea. With her 2 lovely kids Mia and Destiny. Today was a great day.
Sifu Langner
Sunday, 26 January 2020
Monday, 20 January 2020
Living and Learning
It seems weird to me right now. I am 30 soon to become 31 and I feel like I am starting my life right now. I been happy in life before, but I don't think I have ever been this happy. I feel overjoyed, excited, ecstatic, and can't wait for the next day. I went on quite the roller coaster of emotions last week. I lost a very important cousin, I got laid off, but I don't feel in despair.
I knew my cousin was the type of guy who lived life to the best of his capabilities and always tried his hardest to provide for his family. He was extraordinary person trying to live a normal life. I am certainly still sad about his passing, but he gave me a new way to look at life. Life can end at any moment and you may not know the reason why. So I must live to the fullest, and honor the memory's of people who were not afraid to live their life, but were cut short. I have always been scared to live mine. I want to continue to live my life to become a person of change and extraordinary experiences.
I believe so far in my life everything happens for a reason.When I had anger issues in school I Kung fu found me and unknowingly to me at the time, helped me control my anger. When I did not know what I wanted to do for a career I met Dan who inspired me to become an electrician. When I wanted to move out and lose weight again and learn Japanese, I found a landlord ( through the help of my friends) who helps people with weight loss and teaches Japanese. When I finally gave up on ever having hope of finding someone that would show genuine romantic interested in me I find her at work. She actually gave me great advice which lead me to asking her out. "A close mouth never gets fed". A passing cousin who I took for granted and thought would always be there. He showed me how important it is to really appreciate the time I have and those I share it with.
I will truly miss him. Thank you I will never forget you. I wish we had more time. I promise to live my life to the fullest I can.
Sifu Langner
I knew my cousin was the type of guy who lived life to the best of his capabilities and always tried his hardest to provide for his family. He was extraordinary person trying to live a normal life. I am certainly still sad about his passing, but he gave me a new way to look at life. Life can end at any moment and you may not know the reason why. So I must live to the fullest, and honor the memory's of people who were not afraid to live their life, but were cut short. I have always been scared to live mine. I want to continue to live my life to become a person of change and extraordinary experiences.
I believe so far in my life everything happens for a reason.When I had anger issues in school I Kung fu found me and unknowingly to me at the time, helped me control my anger. When I did not know what I wanted to do for a career I met Dan who inspired me to become an electrician. When I wanted to move out and lose weight again and learn Japanese, I found a landlord ( through the help of my friends) who helps people with weight loss and teaches Japanese. When I finally gave up on ever having hope of finding someone that would show genuine romantic interested in me I find her at work. She actually gave me great advice which lead me to asking her out. "A close mouth never gets fed". A passing cousin who I took for granted and thought would always be there. He showed me how important it is to really appreciate the time I have and those I share it with.
I will truly miss him. Thank you I will never forget you. I wish we had more time. I promise to live my life to the fullest I can.
Sifu Langner
Sunday, 12 January 2020
Small Acts
Small acts can have an immense impact on someone life; positive or negative. I have tried to live my life to be more wary of these small acts that I do; In hopes of making them be a positive one. I have few small gestures that effect me for the rest of my life.
One was when I was in high school I bumped into this girl and she fell. I was about to help her up until she looked up at me and uttered the word "eww" to me. I did not help her and continued on my way. That one small act had stayed with me since. I do have self image problems, I believe myself to be rather unsightly. All because of a small irresponsible gesture. I know that kids can be cruel, and that it is something that should not even be a worry in my life. I am not as effected by the comment as much as I used to be, but it is a deep wound that is still healing. It does certainly help that I have found someone who cares for me greatly.
The second one is more random chance. I had the choice of being in taekwondo or kung fu. Both me and my mom did not know which one my friend went to. (it was neither of them, he was completely somewhere else) I told my Mom let go to the left one. Honestly at the time it was white or black uniform to choose from. I based my decision that I like the black one better and I joined kung fu that day. Low and behold Kung fu has changed my life in such an amazing way. It helped me become social, it helped me build my self confidence, it helped me make friends, it helped me to go outside of my comfort zone. If not for kung fu I'm sure I would not be where I am today.
These small acts in my life have changed me for the better and worse. So now I am always on the lookout for the next small act to change my life. The only difference is now I am trying to be the change I want to see. I hope some day I will be responsible for the small act that helped them along the way. The coolest part is that the person themselves may never know, nor would I. That is just how powerful a small act can be achieved.
Sifu Langner
One was when I was in high school I bumped into this girl and she fell. I was about to help her up until she looked up at me and uttered the word "eww" to me. I did not help her and continued on my way. That one small act had stayed with me since. I do have self image problems, I believe myself to be rather unsightly. All because of a small irresponsible gesture. I know that kids can be cruel, and that it is something that should not even be a worry in my life. I am not as effected by the comment as much as I used to be, but it is a deep wound that is still healing. It does certainly help that I have found someone who cares for me greatly.
The second one is more random chance. I had the choice of being in taekwondo or kung fu. Both me and my mom did not know which one my friend went to. (it was neither of them, he was completely somewhere else) I told my Mom let go to the left one. Honestly at the time it was white or black uniform to choose from. I based my decision that I like the black one better and I joined kung fu that day. Low and behold Kung fu has changed my life in such an amazing way. It helped me become social, it helped me build my self confidence, it helped me make friends, it helped me to go outside of my comfort zone. If not for kung fu I'm sure I would not be where I am today.
These small acts in my life have changed me for the better and worse. So now I am always on the lookout for the next small act to change my life. The only difference is now I am trying to be the change I want to see. I hope some day I will be responsible for the small act that helped them along the way. The coolest part is that the person themselves may never know, nor would I. That is just how powerful a small act can be achieved.
Sifu Langner
Sunday, 29 December 2019
Test Subject
I have always really like being the test subject for doing techniques. I have always enjoyed it, because it gives a great insight in how someone might react after being hit a certain way. As the test subject you must think what will happen to you if you got hit, or applied the certain technique on you. If you get hit really hard in the stomach do you know what the real reaction would be? Would you think"HA did you break your finger when you hit me" or do you think " oof thats gonna keep me down for the count"
The cool thing is yes to both. It may affect you individually different but some will act the other. So when being the test subject you have to work with the person and react accordingly. The interesting thing too is some techniques actually finish off the opponent sooner rather then later. some might have five steps till you done with them, but in actuality you could of finished them off on the second step. They're reason to why there is extra steps, because you could be facing that first guy.There is the empathy that you have to develop to think how would you react when hit.
I really learn so much when I am the test subject. I learn more about myself and learn more about the certain techniques that are practiced.
Sifu Langner
The cool thing is yes to both. It may affect you individually different but some will act the other. So when being the test subject you have to work with the person and react accordingly. The interesting thing too is some techniques actually finish off the opponent sooner rather then later. some might have five steps till you done with them, but in actuality you could of finished them off on the second step. They're reason to why there is extra steps, because you could be facing that first guy.There is the empathy that you have to develop to think how would you react when hit.
I really learn so much when I am the test subject. I learn more about myself and learn more about the certain techniques that are practiced.
Sifu Langner
Sunday, 8 December 2019
Thinking of One Thing
I can't stop thinking of one thing right now. Some may know what that one thing is. I also feel it's not right to absolutely tell everyone yet. I may have inadvertently done it anyways. So I know this blog won't make any sense because I'm not revealing the subject of the matter.
What I can say is I'm super happy right now. I am experiencing new and wonderful things. I can't stop thinking of the one thing. Unfortunately because of the one thing I can't think of anything else to write about.All I want to do right now is talk about that one thing.
I feel like I did my best to mask it, but the same time not. You either figured it out, or you already know, or I did a good job.
I am absolutely in a good place right now.
Sifu Langner
Sunday, 24 November 2019
Expectations
I've been learning a lot about expectations lately. Having them and not having them.
If you have expectations they can lead to disappointment, being let down. People can meet or supersede your expectations or fall short. Your expectations can be for yourself which could drive you to greater things, or for the people around you hoping more for them, or simply having expectations of food being tasty. Having expectations can lead to being hurt, or onto great and wonderful things. It is simply having faith in yourself or others.
Not having expectations leads to great surprises, no pressure to please, no way of disappointment. If you don't expect someone to do something anyways. When they don't do it you won't be shocked by it. Oddly enough not having expectations of someone is exactly having expectations for them just your expectations are nothing.
In my own personal opinion I believe living with expectations will have better results. I do believe there's more pressure, and more responsibility when it comes to expectations. In the long run of things I believe if you can expect more of yourself you'll drive yourself to become better and do more things, if you expect more from your friends and family then maybe they will try more as well. Unfortunately it could lead to failure. Such as life. if our expectations are set too high and are unrealistic they are doomed to fail and you build resentment. If you build expectations that are achievable and attainable you can gain great achievements for yourself. If you build expectations within the realm of possibility for those around you they too can achieve greatness. I believe expectations can drive you to greater possibilities in life, but also hurt you. I've been hanging out with this person lately and they got hurt a lot by putting expectations on others then they failed them. The expectations they were expecting out of these people weren't that high, very doable, but the people felt such a simple task and it hurt them. Now I feel sad for them they don't want to live their life with any expectations, because you can't get hurt if you don't expect it. So when they do fail you saw it coming. I would like to change their mind about expectation someday, but that might take a bit of time.
Sifu Langner
If you have expectations they can lead to disappointment, being let down. People can meet or supersede your expectations or fall short. Your expectations can be for yourself which could drive you to greater things, or for the people around you hoping more for them, or simply having expectations of food being tasty. Having expectations can lead to being hurt, or onto great and wonderful things. It is simply having faith in yourself or others.
Not having expectations leads to great surprises, no pressure to please, no way of disappointment. If you don't expect someone to do something anyways. When they don't do it you won't be shocked by it. Oddly enough not having expectations of someone is exactly having expectations for them just your expectations are nothing.
In my own personal opinion I believe living with expectations will have better results. I do believe there's more pressure, and more responsibility when it comes to expectations. In the long run of things I believe if you can expect more of yourself you'll drive yourself to become better and do more things, if you expect more from your friends and family then maybe they will try more as well. Unfortunately it could lead to failure. Such as life. if our expectations are set too high and are unrealistic they are doomed to fail and you build resentment. If you build expectations that are achievable and attainable you can gain great achievements for yourself. If you build expectations within the realm of possibility for those around you they too can achieve greatness. I believe expectations can drive you to greater possibilities in life, but also hurt you. I've been hanging out with this person lately and they got hurt a lot by putting expectations on others then they failed them. The expectations they were expecting out of these people weren't that high, very doable, but the people felt such a simple task and it hurt them. Now I feel sad for them they don't want to live their life with any expectations, because you can't get hurt if you don't expect it. So when they do fail you saw it coming. I would like to change their mind about expectation someday, but that might take a bit of time.
Sifu Langner
Sunday, 3 November 2019
My Journey
My life has changed so much since I came back to Kung Fu. I used to be an anti social, social phobic, anti life, and 310 lbs. I also used to hate and resent Kung Fu. I thought everything they did was a hoop to jump through. Any changes they made I thought they were just trying to make becoming a black belt an impossibility. I quit for 3 years.
Later I realized any changes that were made in Kung Fu was to help and make a better black belts. I also realized I approached the whole situation incorrectly. I made getting the black belt a prize to be won. There goal was never to make it a prize to be had, but a journey to be on the path towards mastery. It was a journey towards becoming a better person, helping me get out of my comfort zone, pushing me to be better then the day before. Making me more self aware when mediocracy creeps in and how to expel it.
I now thankful and appreciate every day the miracle the fact I started Kung Fu at all. It has help me calm my anger. It has helped me become more social; finding new friends (great ones). I lost all my weight to now a comfortable 200. I do love life a more. Now I am learning Japanese. I have grown so much more this past year as well. Moving out on my own. It has changed both me and my parents for the better.
All this was possible because Kung Fu and the I ho chuan has taught me to become the extraordinary and to appreciate the little things. I have learned to become more empathetic to others and myself. It is ok to like yourself. It has helped me in trying to stay in shape. It has helped me into always pushing the limits. It has also let me meet some crazy cool people.
I thank you all for giving me the miracle of getting to know all of you, and for letting me grow into a better human being.
Sifu Langner
All this was possible because Kung Fu and the I ho chuan has taught me to become the extraordinary and to appreciate the little things. I have learned to become more empathetic to others and myself. It is ok to like yourself. It has helped me in trying to stay in shape. It has helped me into always pushing the limits. It has also let me meet some crazy cool people.
I thank you all for giving me the miracle of getting to know all of you, and for letting me grow into a better human being.
Sifu Langner
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