a confusing post

hello everyone i do not know what to say right now my mind is filled with so much right now. i think about school, i think about kung fu, and i think about how i live my life. i feel like i want to say something but i can't. i feel right now that my mind can't focus right now. i think that maybe i am approaching my situations all wrong, because i know i am not the first to feel the way i do or go through what i am going through. others have done just fine, but yet i struggle. it's probably my own fault, and i should just get over it. i realize i am being super vague about what i am going through, but it is the safest way i think. i am really sorry for making such a confusing blog right now, but that is basically how i feel right now. i guess all i can do for now is buck up and keep moving forward, until the next one guys, stay extraordinary.


233 lbs


Sihing Langner

maybe i am a little to worried

hello everyone i am feeling so sick right now. my head feels light and dizzy, and i feel thirsty, but when i drink i feel worse. i feel hungry, but when i eat i feel sick to my stomach. also i am getting a stuffy nose and a soar throat. i think i might of worried myself literally sick, or the weather did it. either way, i am still going for my black belt, no stupid sickness will stop me. now i am not super sick that i can't move. i am just feeling slightly sick and the those feeling i mention early, i can still function, just it is going to suck a little more. |So right now i am doing everything in my power to combat this little sickness of mine. I feel super overwhelmed right now with school and kung fu, but it is just something i have to deal with. also i know that i am defiantly not the first person to feel this way before a black belt testing. I just have to get my emotions under control, and start thinking about this more positively. I should be trying to look at this grading day a rare opportunity, because you have to do a lot of work just for them to even say yes you can grade for your black belt. i have to start looking at this as this is my epic journey, whatever happens, happens, but i know after that day i will come out of it a better martial artist and a person. So if i think about it that way it does not seem so bad after all. so remember stay extraordinary.


233 lbs


Sihing Langner

intense time

hello everyone well i guess you could say that writing this blog is kinda of a break for me right now from writing my essay and studying physics. the black belt grading is coming up, and i am also coming closer to the end of my first semester at university. off topic for a sec, i just want to explain that weird yell i made when i finally broke all my boards at once(for those who were there). Booyah. anyways it was me wanting to yell but at the same time i was trying to hold it in so it came out all weird like. anyways back on target, i always feel like i could do more and i know i could of and still can, but even when i do more i always feel like it was not enough. this generally goes for anything i do. whether it be for school or kung fu that is just how i always feel. If what i am writing here is hard to read i apologized explaining how i feel is still pretty hard to get across. Well time to get back to work so remember stay extraordinary.

234 lbs

Sihing Langner