Self Reflection

Hello everyone I just want to say I am sorry to you and myself for not making the effort to make it to classes. I have been making excuses and letting those excuses do the thinking for me. Some of the ones I have missed were legit ones, but that's like maybe one or two.  I have missed  going to kung fu and my classes. 
   I have gained weight, and I am not in the best of shape anymore, and I am doing nothing about it. For me I am letting these things control me to much. I personally feel ashamed that I have let myself get like this. 
    For some who may not know I used to be 310 lbs and then I lost 100 lbs, and now I am around 230lbs. So weight for me has always been a struggle. I worked hard last time to lose all of that weight, but last time I was not injured. so This time around should not be that hard since I know everything I need to do to accomplish it, but I don't do it.
  Because of all this I have been feeling a little down, and afraid to go back, becasue I am not as good as I used to be; but who is when they get older. Again these are all just excuses I have been hiding behind and need to stop. These excuses used to be where I was very comfortable for majority of my life.
  I know the easy solution is to just start going to kung fu and show up; which it is, but I still hesitate.
 I always assume the worst out of myself; I know I am a huge pessimist who is trying to become more optimistic. I realized I am a huge pessimist, when me, Dan, and, Mel were just playing some crib and Mel said "the way things are going we might all win one"(paraphrasing). I instantly said "no that makes us all losers, becasue we did not try and we let each other win one".  When that was not the way she met at all. I was being sarcastic, but still I went negative.
  I am a person who thinks harshly of himself, and highly of others, and it is a flaw of mine I need to change. I always see the amazing in others lives, and usually nothing in my own. It is not that I am not aware of the good things in my life; I just don't focus on them when I should be doing that.
  Anyways enough of my belly aching and I just want to let you all know I will change and this will happen. For one thing I know is that kung fu and the I Ho Chuan has changed my life for the better on more than one occasion and I have faith that it will do it again I just need to put in the effort.



Until next time remember everyone stay extraordinary, and I will take a little of my own quote too.






Sifu R. Langner

The Art of Balance

  Hello everyone I have been having a little issue with balance in my life right now. When I obtain a "balance" I function pretty well and things tend to go on the up and up for me. Sometimes though I upset the balance I achieved; to strive for the extraordinary. Once I have destroyed my balance I have a hard time getting it back and I start going into my old bad habits that I eliminated when I had balance.
   For example before I went to school to become an electrician I had pretty decent balance. I was engaged with my kung fu , I worked, had a good social life, and even some decent down time to rest. To me this was a nice balance. 
     Once I started school I made the conscious decision to throw off my balance and I stopped doing kung fu almost all together. I was not showing up for classes and not practicing at all. For this action I had done there were consequences. One I became the top student in my class and got 91% on my A.I.T exam. Which I am glad I did focus so much on, becasue this will be my future. Now I have a job working 5 days a week for Canadian power pac; I am pretty happy about this.
   But now I am done school and trying to revive my old balance I used to have, but because I upset my balance I awoke my own bad habits that I thought were gone. Procrastination, laziness, eating to much, nervousness, and scared.
   For me these things used to be the bread and butter of the type of person I used to be, and for me it took a long time to get rid of these bad traits of myself. Now I am not saying I am full blown like that now, but I saw everyone of these traits of mine creep back up on me.   
    I know how to get rid of these traits of mine, because I have done it before, but I am still a bit flustered of the situation.
   If anything I learned about balance is that it is hard to mastery, but not impossible, it's hard to maintain, but not impossible. Sometimes you have to break the balance to do something amazing, but all I really know is that balance will always be there if you want it to be, so you might not ever need to stop having a balanced life to achieve a goal, but for me I am still figuring it out. Most likely I will be trying to figure it out for the rest for my life and I am okay with that. It just means my life in the future will be hopefully exciting and fun.
   Anyways that's my view on the art of balance. So remember everyone stay extraordinary.


Sifu R. Langner

Finally

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Sifu R.Langner