Hey everyone I would just like to say firstly that I have been going through a lot of personal battles. I have been wishing bad things for myself and completely hiding behind a mask. It is really hard for me to type this up right now, but I feel like I need must.
Right now in life things for me seem to be going pretty good, I am making big discoveries in my own kung fu and my-self, yet I feel empty. I have never had a more exciting life right now and yet I feel timid. I feel like I am pushing people away unintentionally. I feel like I am super selfish when I think that I have issues when my life could not be any better. I just feel like when am I gonna grow up and get over my-self.
I have said this before, but I focus on the negative so easily, and always forget the positive.
Negatives: I am not happy. I feel like there is a void. I feel alone. I am a good liar. I hate that part the most. I am not actually ever telling lies verbally to or about someone, but I am very good at hiding my personal troubles, not all of them, but the ones I am ashamed of. That is what I lie about. I am my own worst enemy. I don't accept who I am today, and think it is all a farce.
Positives: I have amazing friends, I finally have a career that I enjoy. I have two parents that love me so much. I lost so much weight. I am a lot more healthier than I used to be. I am more of a social person now. I have never truly love my kung fu as much as I do now. The demo that I have made up has made really happy in what everyone did and accomplished in one go through. I know that the demo could still be axed or completely changed, but I at least feel proud about it; and would still like to continue spearheading the demo. I will always see the good in others and the greatest potential in others. I don't get mad at people when they clearly do something wrong to me, becasue I assume that either something is not right in there life right now, or their are just having a bad day.
See I know my positives yet I really have a hard time ignoring the negatives.
I am sorry for more negativity from me. I am pretty much just being a big baby, and I should start to realize just how good I really have it. You all have always help me change and grow as a better person. I don't know what my life would be like if I was not in kung fu or the I Ho Chuan team.
The true meaning of the I Ho Chuan for me is the people and the lives we change everyday. So I just want to thank all of you from the bottom of my heart. You all mean so much to me and I sincerely hope you all have great lives and continue on this amazing journey we all have embarked on.
Well hopefully in my next blog I won't be so gloomy, but I guess I will see you all next time.
Sifu. R Langner
Sunday, 26 June 2016
Sunday, 12 June 2016
Horse Lessons
Hello everyone I have gotten a little sick after yesterday at the horse seminar. It started to rain and hail and we all decided to stay and tough it out. It was a blast I would choose to be sick over an over again to have the experience we had that day.
We got to learn not just how to handle a horse, but how to handle ourselves. One of the biggest lessons I took was be conscious of our energy that we put out there, because the horse will pick up on whatever energy's you are giving and react to them. If you are nervous and panicked the horse will most likely feel uncomfortable around you. If you project confidence and leadership the horse was more likely to respond to you in a positive manner and easy to handle.
Now I know we were using very well trained horses, but I think it still applie's. I think I should also adapt this attitude for myself and start projecting confidence in what I am doing and hopefully project some leadership.
I would maybe talk more about this, but my head is just pounding right now. So I am going to take a little nap.
Remember every one stay extraordinary.
Sifu R. Langner
We got to learn not just how to handle a horse, but how to handle ourselves. One of the biggest lessons I took was be conscious of our energy that we put out there, because the horse will pick up on whatever energy's you are giving and react to them. If you are nervous and panicked the horse will most likely feel uncomfortable around you. If you project confidence and leadership the horse was more likely to respond to you in a positive manner and easy to handle.
Now I know we were using very well trained horses, but I think it still applie's. I think I should also adapt this attitude for myself and start projecting confidence in what I am doing and hopefully project some leadership.
I would maybe talk more about this, but my head is just pounding right now. So I am going to take a little nap.
Remember every one stay extraordinary.
Sifu R. Langner
Sunday, 5 June 2016
Energy Level
Hello everyone I just want to say real quick that the parade was a huge success and I am so happy to see everyone that participated. I think for me this was one of best parades to date. Mainly for me is not just the float, but how many people showed up and had a super fun day.
Ok now the blog I have missed a few, and that's what this blog is about; a little bit. Mainly my kung fu though. When I was younger I did not like kung fu and if anything I hated it. I would make up excuses on why not to go to kung fu. I usually felt pretty tired and just wanted to do nothing and not go to kung fu. Which eventually lead me to quitting kung fu; really bad decision for me there. I saw no value.
What I did not realize yet is all the opportunity's that our kung fu provided for me. Kung fu helped me develop self-confidence, social skills, leadership skills, new friends, and new and improved me. It was a program (if you chose to use it) to change the very way you live for the better.
Now recently my energy levels have been where they used to be when I hated kung fu, but this time I am not in the spot of hating kung fu, but right now I know the value, but still make the same decision way back then. It kinda scares me knowing I can so easily slip back into bad habits.
I guess it is so easy to slip back into it, because it goes down hill and when you have worked your way to the top it sometimes easier to roll back down a bit; wrong choice.
I have been working on becoming more involved with my kung fu again, becasue I am still learning and making leaps and bounds in my life thanks to kung fu. The ironic thing for me aboout the low energy is before kung fu I feel no motivation, but when I go to kung fu I become full of energy and excited for what the future holds for me in my kung fu life.
Well that my rant for now so remember everyone stay extraordinary.
Sifu R. Langner
Ok now the blog I have missed a few, and that's what this blog is about; a little bit. Mainly my kung fu though. When I was younger I did not like kung fu and if anything I hated it. I would make up excuses on why not to go to kung fu. I usually felt pretty tired and just wanted to do nothing and not go to kung fu. Which eventually lead me to quitting kung fu; really bad decision for me there. I saw no value.
What I did not realize yet is all the opportunity's that our kung fu provided for me. Kung fu helped me develop self-confidence, social skills, leadership skills, new friends, and new and improved me. It was a program (if you chose to use it) to change the very way you live for the better.
Now recently my energy levels have been where they used to be when I hated kung fu, but this time I am not in the spot of hating kung fu, but right now I know the value, but still make the same decision way back then. It kinda scares me knowing I can so easily slip back into bad habits.
I guess it is so easy to slip back into it, because it goes down hill and when you have worked your way to the top it sometimes easier to roll back down a bit; wrong choice.
I have been working on becoming more involved with my kung fu again, becasue I am still learning and making leaps and bounds in my life thanks to kung fu. The ironic thing for me aboout the low energy is before kung fu I feel no motivation, but when I go to kung fu I become full of energy and excited for what the future holds for me in my kung fu life.
Well that my rant for now so remember everyone stay extraordinary.
Sifu R. Langner
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