Before I start I just want to say how much fun I had at the Onaway parade. It was fun like always and we got to win 1st place back to back. Which is pretty cool.
Now in my life I have have become accustom to not smiling a lot. Now I know what you might think, but Randy I have seen you smile a lot before. Well yes and no. When I am with friends it is easy to smile, when I am with family it is easy to smile, but when I am by myself I don't smile at all. I spend a lot of time by myself. I could watch something hilarious, but won't find the need to laugh or smile. I have had friends in my past and all the way to the present, but I did not hang out with them all the time maybe once or twice a week, and on good months multiple times in a week. Growing up my parent worked a lot to help give me the future I have now and I am grateful for that, but I was alone for a good portion of my life. I do not blame my parents for any of my alone time, but I did nothing to stop it either.
What I have difficultly in doing is smiling when it is called for. For example being friendly to someone, or someone smiles at you and normally you smile back. What happens for me is I either don't smile at all so I kinda look like a jerk, or I think I am smiling, but in reality I am barely smirking. I used to not smile a lot as a kid either, but I have definitely improved since then.
When I have successfully smiled at others when appropriate I found the action difficult and embarrassing. My cheeks always feel so heavy whenever I try to smile. Then one day I was told it is like any other muscle you have, if you never practice you never get any better at it and won't build muscle. So I guess you could say I kinda practice smiling now; not always in public, but mostly at home. It still feels weird to do, but I guess it is better then walking with a depressed or doom and gloom look on my face all day. Also I am not trying to fake it, I just want to be more approachable, if someone were to need help or if they wanted to become friends. It is kinda difficult to explain my goal, because I do have realistic expectation from what I am just having a hard time explaining it.
I would definitely say most of my smiling happens at kung fu. It is the one place where I am the happiest. Mainly because of the people in Kung fu that make me happy. This might be one of my more weirder blogs I have written, but I guess this helps me writing all this down for me to see.
I will end it here so remember everyone ordinary people extraordinary actions.
Sifu. R. Langner
Sunday, 11 June 2017
Sunday, 4 June 2017
Pandamodium 24 Hours of Greatness
Firsts things first I am sorry for not blogging regularly. Also I am sorry I could not make some classes and parades. I am sure you all had a blast. I have just being going to appointments for my mental health and I did not inform you all. So once again I am sorry for not being as vocal as to why I have been missing some events. But I am glad I did not have to miss one event, and that was panadmodium.
Every year it comes new and cherished memory's are made for everyone. Awareness it raised and new and old friendships are made or strengthen. I decided this year to do the all 24 hours challenge again; it's my third time. Which by the way I got to enjoy with my good buddy Dan. All 24 hours is a task that ask a lot from you, but you never regret it by the time your done the day. You get to see people you never meet at kung fu normally, and you get to practice a whole lot of kung fu, and see people you have not seen for a long time. You also get to experience new and wonderful moment in that time your there.
Probably the most favorite thing I did at the Pandamodium was getting to practice drumming. I have always wanted to learn more on drumming and that is exactly what I got. If I had to relive a moment in my life I would choose the time I was drumming that day. It filled me with such joy.
I would say every hour of the Panadamodium has it's unique experience and not everybody get to enjoy it do to some circumstances. I will say this year was a little more quieter then others, but the energy and people that attended made it feel like a success. I believe there is always room for doing better, but when action still take place in my books something has been achieved and now we look towards the future to make things greater.
I would highly recommend more people trying to attend the full 24 hours of the pandamodium. Even if it is only once. We all have a whole year to plan for the next one and I hope to see ton's of people try all 24 hours. Like I said it does take a toll on the body, but I can assure anyone, you might get addicted to it and try a few more times. Doing all 24 hours requires some planning and discipline. In the end you will get something out of it and you will remember it for a very long time.
Well I have blogged enough for now so remember everyone ordinary people extraordinary action.
Sifu R. Langner
Every year it comes new and cherished memory's are made for everyone. Awareness it raised and new and old friendships are made or strengthen. I decided this year to do the all 24 hours challenge again; it's my third time. Which by the way I got to enjoy with my good buddy Dan. All 24 hours is a task that ask a lot from you, but you never regret it by the time your done the day. You get to see people you never meet at kung fu normally, and you get to practice a whole lot of kung fu, and see people you have not seen for a long time. You also get to experience new and wonderful moment in that time your there.
Probably the most favorite thing I did at the Pandamodium was getting to practice drumming. I have always wanted to learn more on drumming and that is exactly what I got. If I had to relive a moment in my life I would choose the time I was drumming that day. It filled me with such joy.
I would say every hour of the Panadamodium has it's unique experience and not everybody get to enjoy it do to some circumstances. I will say this year was a little more quieter then others, but the energy and people that attended made it feel like a success. I believe there is always room for doing better, but when action still take place in my books something has been achieved and now we look towards the future to make things greater.
I would highly recommend more people trying to attend the full 24 hours of the pandamodium. Even if it is only once. We all have a whole year to plan for the next one and I hope to see ton's of people try all 24 hours. Like I said it does take a toll on the body, but I can assure anyone, you might get addicted to it and try a few more times. Doing all 24 hours requires some planning and discipline. In the end you will get something out of it and you will remember it for a very long time.
Well I have blogged enough for now so remember everyone ordinary people extraordinary action.
Sifu R. Langner
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