Hey everyone I guess you could say I started a new job. I now work at the stantec tower. It seems so far pretty interesting, but I think I either worried myself to get sick, or got sick naturally. Either way I feel pretty bad. Working there I do feel intimated, because I don't know how to do some of the task they are asking of me and I worry of losing my job. I feel I could lose this opportunity at any second, because I learn things differently from everyone. I need to see how it is done first then I can get better at it then maybe improve upon it. When they talk to me about how to get the job done I draw a blank, because I cannot imagine what they are trying to tell me. I am the only one who does not understand on what or how we will accomplish the goal. I get flustered, because I feel useless and feel like they see that too. Then I hear some of these apprentices have been doing the trade since they were like 16, while I just started 2 years ago. I know I still have a lot to learn and in time I hope to be able to be just as knowledgeable.
I know I should just focus on putting one foot forward at a time and continue to keep trying to do my best, but I don't feel my best is good enough for them.
Sifu R. Langner
