Hello I have been struggling a lot lately ever since I lost the ability to do push ups and sit ups. ON top of these things I have a soar throat that makes it hurt to talk and breath. I feel as though I was on a high of being able to do push ups and sit ups again, and participating in kung fu again, yet most of it all got taken away in a blink of an eye(physically). Mentally kung fu has never left my side.
It's certainly frustrating I have been through this song and dance before and it is no less frustrating now then when I first went through something like this. The only big difference this time is I know what to do and what to expect. I have a plan and I am executing it. I have been giving the go ahead to do these push ups called shoulder tap. It's where I go into a push up position and use one hand to touch one shoulder then switch. I can currently do 10 right now. I will be doing proper push ups again someday, just need to be smart about how I treat my shoulders and do my physio exercises to the best of my ability.
It kinda feel like right now I ran a 100 km marathon to better shoulders and health, and as I was about to finish that run I was told there will be another 100 kms added here so deal with it. I know life will happen again it is just I was hoping to feel good physically longer then a short burst. But I could wish all I want it won't change the state I am in now. What I can do and I am doing is changing my attitude of how to deal with this situation. Writing and talking about what I am doing and what I am going to do and achieve helps me a lot in the keeping optimistic apartment.
I will get through this again and this time enjoy the journey to get there. My life is going through major changes right now. I have my very first girlfriend and she makes me so happy, and starting next week I will become a journeyman electrician. I have a lot more responsibilities in life now and I am nervous, but at the same time enjoying the experience.
Sifu Langner
