Moving Forwards

   This week I would say has been my best week yet for kung fu. Not because I did lots of training, but I did do some though, but because I made the best choice and that is going to my classes. These classes have always been a place where I get to learn and grow and experience new events that make me greater everytime.

  I still had very high anxiety before going, but that’s just me being my own worst enemy. I have been this year the biggest obstacle to over come; myself. I have been making my own life harder and making the bad choices in my life always the first choice. 

  All these hurdles I am experiencing in my life right now are put there by me. I accept the words like “tomorrow”, or “eventually”, or “maybe” instead of “yes”, “I can”, “I will”, “for sure”.  I chose the words of no responsibility. The words that promote excellence and progress have a responsibility to them.

  The more positive words drive home a sense of commitment and to honor your word to others and yourself that it will become something amazing. I will always understand about how life can throw a wrench into any well set plans, but it does not mean I can’t react better to it for when the wrench inevitably gets thrown in.

  I made a promise when I joined I Ho Chaun. I promised to do the physical and mental aspect and to hold myself accountable for completing all the life changing goals that the I ho Chaun provides. I promised to try my best and never give up, but I certainly have not been trying my best. I have only not giving up. 

 I will struggle more in this year and possibly more to come, but I will not give up and I will start trying again and show up to my classes again. I have 2 under my belt again so at least I’m moving forwards. I will always try and move forwards, and when I go backwards I will call myself out again and you all can call me out as well to set me straight.

 I have a belief that most things in life are not an absolute, but I can always do better for when said event happens. I can make bad choices, but I can learn from the mistakes and bounce back faster. 

  Even hardships and failures in life can be a blessing, but sometimes it could takes years to find the positive or a good lesson to be taught in those harsh times. All I know for the most part there will be an eventual positive; even if it is a small one. Where there is negativity positivity will be born.

 The one I let thrive is the way my life goes. If negativity is my choice then I suffer the consequences, but same for positivity. 

  Now that the words are good, time for consistently taking positive actions. The mental is a huge part of this thing called life, but so is the physical.

 Anyways long blog today so thanks again for reading this blog of mine. The people who read all these blogs and mine are truly inspiring in my opinion. Not only did you decide to read my blog, but you decided to read others as well. Bravo 🙌 

Here are some numbers:

Acts of kindness: 1300

Km: 1230

Sit ups: 6950

Push ups: 6950

Da mu hsing: 130

Drum stick form: 180

Spar: 108

Right Direction

 You know I never really realized how crazy it is to see when I look at all my blogs that I have and almost all of them say zero comments, but seeing there are comments to go back and read feels really good. Powerful stuff.

 I read the comments on the app as well, but it does disappear forever and I will never remember the possibly good advice that was given to me. Super side tracked for what I wanted to talk about I just wanted to say commenting  on someone’s blog carries heavier in a good way. 

  Ok on task here. I had a not bad kung fu week for practicing. It easily could have been better, but doing zero is way worse. I am always trying to take the more positive approach about my progress. I know I would cycle down into some harsh depression if I go with what I know best; negativity.

 I am trying to keep what little I do accomplished as a positive, rather than focus on how more of could have done. I am not ignoring that I could have been better, but I am also not drowning myself in self loathing, or at least attempting. 

  Being positive is a muscle I am super weak in mentally. It can be easy to be positive for others, but harder than Mount Everest for me. I don’t like looking at what little I did as a good thing, because I can twist it. I wrote a lot of negative things after twist it, but I deleted it. 

  I know I can be better while not being ignorant of my short comings. How I word it and present it matters to me. Repeating lots of negative aspects of me, gets me no where. I know them already, so I don’t have to keep focusing on it. I strive for the positive, so I can start feeling and acting positive in my life.

   I’m still working on my aspect of being more social. It has not been successful as well, but I get close sometimes on almost leaving my hobbit hole. I don’t count visiting my parents, because they are well within my comfort zone. 

 For everything that has happened even if it was just a little bit. It was moving forwards in the right directions. 

  Anyways thanks for reading my blogs and commenting. It definitely has an amazing impact. Here are some numbers:

Acts of kindness: 1200

Km: 1210

Sit ups: 6850

Push ups: 6850

Da mu hsing: 123

Drum stick form: 170

Spar: 108

Family

  I have had lots of ups and downs with my family before. Sometimes they are bad and sometimes they are really good. What I care about so much for my family is that I have them in my life and how much I care for them and them for me. I make mistakes and so do they and we are there for each other in those tough times and there for the good times. 

 I had to really help my parents recently and we stayed up for a very long time talking. I’m not going into any details, just that it was a very long night. We became closer as a family and moving forward always striving to be better.

 The next day my Dad made his first brisket on the smoker BBQ. I went over and played a card game with my Mother and spent more time with my Father with the Brisket. It was 2 polarizing days, but worth every second.

 The game we played was amazing and the brisket even better. The brisket was on sale so that is why we got the opportunity to attempt it.

  I used to say I’m not talking right now about any kung fu, but in reality everything I did and talked about was kung fu. Kung fu way of life and how to train and always strive for the betterment of one’s self. Most of these skills and values I use in life come came from my time I spent in Kung fu.

 The people that I have had the pleasure of talking to since I have been at Silent River have all help shape me into the person I am today. I know I am struggling with my kung fu right now, but the core value of it has never left me.

   Anyways as far as me physically practicing this week 0 is my number I am adding. All I know is I don’t like being over weight and out of shape and I continue to not do anything. I cannot give you an answer for why I week after week make that choice, other than laziness. Just because I call myself out does not mean since I told on myself I’m good for another week.  It means I need to start taking action. It’s good to acknowledge, but meaningless if nothing changes.

I remember when I was a teenager I was always told someday a doctor is going to tell you if you don’t change your lifestyle you will not have long to live .( I was pretty overweight as a teenager as well). I have not seen a doctor, nor have been told that, but I feel that’s the direction my life’s going at the moment as far as health and fitness goes.

 Thanks for reading my blogs and going on this journey with me. 

 

Shia LaBeouf

   So I have been thinking a lot about a short motivational video that Shia LaBeouf did about 10 years ago. He received some negative criticism for the video and was used for many memes when the video was first created. He did give a good positive message, but how it was delivered the message was what was criticized. 

  Pretty much everyone focused on how weird the video was, rather than the very powerful message that he deliverers. I don’t blame them for that, because he does do a lot of weird movements, but he sounds like he is coming from a place of frustration of dealing with people who are always putting off or afraid to take a chance and he bluntly yells “Just Do It”.

 It is a short 1 minute-ish video. He also says “if you’re tired of starting over then stop giving up”. The video is just super inspiring to me when I think about it. A lot of my problems are solved by simply follow such easy advice. I think the reason why it resonates a lot with me is because there is no 300 self help book, or huge seminar about how to be a better human, but just a simple truth that solves my problems.

  I have no issues if others use those other resources, I believe they are still very useful. I just really like how the video is short and sweet and it’s  up to the viewer to do what you like with the info you just got. It feels as though he is giving me the keys to success for free. Now I just have to use that mindset and “Just Do It”, “stop giving up”. He says so much a such a short amount of time.

   He say a little more then the 2 points I put in here, but I highly recommend watching the video. I put the link in here and if you had time to read my blog (thank you for that) then I really encourage you to watch the 1 minute video. Even if you have already watched it before; a refresher never hurt nobody.

 I resonate so well with this video because it also reminds me of Mastery by Stuart Emery( just really really condensed). Definitely not a word for word, but a lot of what Mastery is. You don’t wake up to mastery you work at it. You only fail if you give up. You can only obtain it by consistently going towards your goals. Taking action. “Just Do It”.

 I would like to add mindfully to the possibly trying to achieve something. Because hitting my head against a 30 inch steel wall is not going to eventually break even if I’m really motivated, but not giving up on trying to figure how to get though that wall is a different story.

  I won’t say I’m completely and mentally all better now, but I have been very active with thinking positively and even did some kung fu. I did not make all good choices, but I at least started to make some better decisions. Even going in person to the meeting for me was hard. I really just wanted to be online. 

  I truly don’t like being in the public. They are all related to my silly way of thinking some times, but I know I can eventually get better. I have to. Also the honey was delicious. (Thank you)

Anyways I do have some numbers to put down this time and the link that I highly recommend. Thanks again for giving me your time.

 https://youtu.be/ZXsQAXx_ao0?si=dIwK1qI7bleB2v0d

Acts of kindness: 1100

Km: 1200

Sit ups: 6800

Push ups: 6800

Da mu hsing: 122

Drum stick form: 165

Spar: 108

Game Night and Maintenance

 Every Friday and sometimes Saturday and on a rare occasion Sunday I go to my parents house to play board games. It is a lot of fun and time gets away from me every time we play.

  I get to strategize how to beat them or work with them depending on the game. We are currently doing a co-op time card building game. I really enjoy those nights. It’s like all my worries and issues disappear and I get lost in the gameplay. It feels normal for me.

  Going to the maintenance week turns out to be good for me. I had fun learning and helping others at the maintenance. I really enjoyed the electrical part of it. It was fun learning other tools I never knew ever existed that makes life so easy. 

 I was definitely reserved while there, but I was out instead of lying in my bed and doing nothing. So I made some better choices this past week. Not completely for all good choices but at least in the right direction. 

  I did not do any kung fu. I have no new numbers to add on this blog. This one is a short and sweet blog, because I am excessively tired and having a hard time to think right now. I almost forgot to do a blog do to me thinking it was a Saturday. All time and days blend together when I’m not doing a whole lot. 

 I am not engaged in life and kung fu enough right now to put my best foot forward, but I did make better choices. I have to celebrate the small good ones and keep striving to make more good choices.

Thank you for reading my blip of a blog.