so tired

Hey everybody i am just so darn tired. my job requires me to get up around six in the morning, and  know other people can do it just fine, but i am not a morning person. I try every time to go to bed early, but i always have troubles sleeping so i always end up with about five hours of sleep or less. There is something i have always said that i know that i am my parents kid for sure. My dad when he goes to sleep he has a hard time fallen asleep just like i do, but when he finally falls asleep he can be woken up by a pin dropping in someone else home. My mom on the other hand can fall asleep on a dime, she could just start thinking about going to sleep and she could. My mom works night and work mornings, i could head off to bed and my mom who has to go to work could still fall asleep ten time faster than me, and my dad and she is the big coffee drinker. But my mom once she is asleep loud noises are not an issue, we have a dog that always sleeps with her, and a lot of the time he will bark and random noises and she will not hear a thing, she may as well be dead to the world. I am the exact same way once i fall asleep i sleep super heavy, the only thing that wakes me up is a well hidden alarm clock that eventually wakes me, sometimes it will wake my dad up before it wakes me and he is on the opposite side of the house. Anyways i fall asleep like my dad it takes a few hours, but i sleep like my mom where i will hear nothing. well that is my sleep story, and if your not already sleeping by now, then welcome to the club :)

Sihing Langner

A wierd new year

This year feels weird to me i am going from lots of school and homework to none. I guess i am one of those people who like school, because when i am at school i know i am trying to better myself and trying to get a career that i want, but now that i am done upgrading i miss it. Now i go to a job where i do mindless work or so i believe. My job is easy enough i go to store to store and fill up the shelves with pop and condense the pallets. But as in any job their is always people who find it hard, and are lazy,  and making a bigger mess for me to clean up. This job i have really puts me in a down mood, just because it is a job full of people who have settled for this for the rest of their life and want to make other peoples life worse. I do not care if someone want's to or has to work at a job like mine. I have a friend who has already decided that this will be his first and last job, but it works for him. At my job i tend to go to stores where the managers of the store are not happy with what is happening and they are mad at me as if it was my fault, when it is the first time i work the store. I know why i get sent to these store, because i am the one who does all the hard work and makes them happy again. I hate my job, but  at least i know i will not be their for the rest of my life. If anything the silver lining about all of this, is it drives me harder wanting to escape this type of world; making me push myself to become a better person, knowing i never want my life to ever be dull and you know what as i am writing this blog right now i just realize why i am at a job like this, it is because it make me strive for something better. To tell you the truth it is hard to find the benefit of a bad situation, but blogging about it right now just made me realize it. Their is a technique i would like to perfect, finding that small little tiny silver line that does surround most bad things. Funny i learned a lesson blogging never saw that one coming. Well see ya and have a good day.



Sihing Langner

My I Ho Chuan Year

Hello everyone what a year this was. My year in the i ho chuan for me was quite a rocky ride. I started the year so great then somewhere along the road i fell off the wagon a bit, but it was not all bad.

My accomplishment is that i have completed the acts of kindness, the 1609 kms, the sparring, my sai form, and a few of my upgrading personal goals, I got 80's or higher in almost all my courses, Math 31, Phys 30, Math 30 Pure, Bio 30, the only two i did not get higher than 80 , and that was English 30-1, and chem 30. they were below 80, but not by much, only by 1 or 2 percent. Those were the toughest course for me and i study and did so much tutoring for those two course and i still did not get over 80. I also blogged one healthy recipe every month, and i was able to  keep up with my blogging. For the mending the relationship part I do not know if this count's but it was all that was in my life. I became closer with my Dad, and i confronted a friend about an issue that was making him angry and resolved it. The biggest thing is that i have conquered a lot of my fears of performing in public, and socializing with others. I still have a long way to go, because i feel awkward and shy and anti social just when i go see my family. It is not because they are horrible people it  is because i have never know how to socialized with my own family that sometimes i do not feel like i belong. I feel more comfortable at my job or Kung Fu compared to my family. When i say family i mean uncles aunts and grandparents, an cousins, not my parents i get along with them just find.

Where i failed was the little thing the most important thing, Push ups  and sit ups. This was the most single thing that was the most important, not because you had to do 50,000 in one year, but because this is one of the more important tools that keeps you engaged in kung fu and what put you in the right mind set for the rest of the day. I started to miss one day then two then it got bigger and bigger until i just stop doing them and that was the biggest mistake i did in the UBBT program. Also i was unable to complete my Lao gar 1000 times, i kept putting it off when i should  of took it on, just like i did my sai's. But i stop the push up and sit ups which made me less engaged. I also did not lose any weight i wanted to lose 40 lbs, and i did not. I have no excuses, i just did not put my mind to lose the weight i have done it before, yet i have failed.

What i have learned is that i should never stop the little things, even when i get sick, just reduce the numbers. And this year i will accomplish my goals this year all of them. Also i will put the mind set of losing weight it will be hard, but i believe i can do it. And if any of you out there had some of the same problems or just joining, If i can do it so can you. You just got to remember never stop the little things which would include, acts of kindness, push ups, sit ups, 1609km, and of course blogging, because it is what sets your mind set if you do not of it then you become ordinary, but if you do all of it you become a little bit more extraordinary.


Sihing Langner

Healthy Meal #12

so this will be my last healthy meal for 2012 so enjoy :)

Salmon with Mushrooms and Red Pepper Sauce
2 large red bell peppers
3 tablespoons fresh lemon juice
½ teaspoon sea salt
2 tablespoons extr virgin olive oil
1 small onion, diced
6 ounces shiitake mushrooms, sliced ( If an not find regular mushrooms will do)
4 salmon fillets, 6 ounces each

Pepper Puree

1. Place peppers in a baking dish in the oven at 350°
2. Roast for 10-20 minutes, until skin begins to shrivel
3. Allow peppers to cool, remove stems, then slit open and remove seeds
4. Place peppers, lemon juice and puree until smooth
5. Transfer pepper mixture to a small sauce pan and warm slightly

Really good so enjoy and happy new year!!!



Sihing Langner

Once.. Twice.. Three Christmases

Hello everyone, you know i never thought i would be sick of eating sweets i never want to see another one again. It is not that i ate so many it is a mixture of the smell in the air as well. I swear i feel my teeth tingle just thinking about all those sweets. I also like to say i got 85% on my bio and Math 31 finals; I am very proud of that. I did not do as well in chem 30 though but i was still able to acquire a desired mark. This Sunday i will be visiting my relatives in Saskatchewan; I have not seen them in five years it will be good to see them. I guess i have run out of things to say other than i hope everybody is having a wonderful holiday and happy new year.


Sihing Langner

my mind's just buzzin

Hello everyone i have two more days of exams then i will officially be done upgrading. I have all of bio to study and math 31 to do then that is it. You ever actually feel your brain go numb not metaphorically but literally, because i have experience this before. It is the weirdest feeling in the world. Something was happening in front of me that was just so stupid and not brain stimulating at all my brain actually went numb. When i hear the term mind numbing work or something like that i can actually say i know what that feels like. I am not bragging that is for sure. But for 10 second i felt like i was actually becoming dumber. Anyways enough of that i need full brain power coming this Tuesday and Wednesday. I guess i have nothing else to say today so merry Christmas or what ever you celebrate and a happy new year.


Sihing Langner

Near the end

   Hello everybody i can't believe this year is almost over, it feels like it was yesterday i missed our first meeting and feeling horrible about it. But also at the same time really exciting because i am really excited about next year and see what new challenges that will face me that year. Hopefully one of them will be university. It is amazing how our I Ho Chuan team started, we started out with so many people in the office that there was no were to sit, to just a bit smaller group near this end of ours, but this smaller group we have has made me a stronger and better person. I no longer feel like in the I Ho Chuan that i am being cruelly judged for any little mistake i do, but actually i am  fully supported in anything i try to do. (By the way that cruelly judged thing is just how i felt when i was full blown socially shy and even scared of the group).
     And now something totally unrelated I find it funny that everybody has this urge to hit Sihing Robinson when he is lying down, even i find the urge, not a hard hit of course. But it is like we are moths, then he lies down, it is like a light was just turned on and now everybody must hit him. This is all in good fun though everyone laughs when it happens even Sihing Robinson.
    Anyways back to what i was writing about, so i guess i say "goodbye this year and thanks for showing me what i was capable of and introducing to me new friends" and "BRING IT!!  next year i am not facing you alone, because i have a Kung Fu Team that will help me conquer you".


Sihing Langner