moment of happiness

hello everyone right now i feel really happy. I am do not full understand why but i do. I am going to university, going to lots of kung fu, and doing lots of training, trying to collect donations for my mustard seed charity. All this and i just feel happy. I must say i really am enjoying everything right now. I am always surrounded by such positive people and everyone is always having a such good time. For some strange reason i am happy but it feels foreign, like is this allowed for me? is this okay? to tell you the truth i don't know why this happiness i am feeling right now feels good, but at the same time guilty. I don't know why i would second guest being happy right now. but i guess i will enjoy it right now for the most of it, and hope i can continue the great feeling. Anyways i know what i write sometime makes no sense whatsoever, but maybe through writing this i can maybe figure it out. well remember to stay extraordinary.


230lbs


Sihing Langner

sick, vent, calm, happy

hello everyone i am having a feeling right now that i haven't felt since my first year in I Ho Chuan. I feel sick, i am not actually sick, but in my own mind i become my own worse enemy. with the banquet coming up my social phobia is kicking into overdrive. I know i can't succumb back to who i used to be. i did not like who that person was, that person was always scared and super shy. i am no longer like that. i know i still have some way to go, but i can't be like that anymore. it's not me anymore. i now actively try and create conversations, i now try to be more open, and now i try to actually make myself a better person. and i have all of you to thank for that you all inspired me to try and make myself a better person, you have all have made me so happy, without I Ho Chuan or kung fu, i would be no where right now. Also i would like to say one of my personal requirements i have for myself next year. i say this one before this year end because i owe all my courage to you guy, and i thought just in case some might not be returning i thought i say it now. i have always been to shy and too hesitant to ever actually ask out a girl and henceforth i have never had a girlfriend. but this year my personal requirement, my personal goal is to get myself my first girlfriend. I always feel a lot more calmer after i write a blog, reveling my stress to the world. remember everyone stay extraordinary.  



229lbs



Sihing Langner

a little something

hello everyone i been having a nice relaxing time so these past few days. its been nice to see family and just do nothing for a few days. I guess i did not do absolutely nothing i have been doing my forms, and that was fun too. this was a super high and intense, and emotional year for me. from my school to my I Ho Chuan and going for my black belt. i have had so much fun this year and an experience i am sure to never forget. i am at a loss for words right now, but i know you guys will always stay extraordinary.


231 lbs


Sihing Langner

extraordinary days

hello everyone i am almost done my first semester and right now for me this is exam week, and after that i will be all done until next semester in January. i must say with the black belt grading and the exams it sure has been pretty crazy for me. both are not done yet, but this for me is the most intense and crazy experience of my life. and its all awesome, I've already learned so much about myself and grown so much from this whole thing. this year so much has happened to me i have had highs and i have had lows, but through all of this i have had the support of my I Ho Chuan team. I will always remember my this year with this extraordinary I Ho Chuan team. Now we all practice for the big day to show off what we have accomplished. also i can't wait for next year and what extraordinary things that will happen. As usual stay extraordinary.   



232 lb


Sihing Langner

a confusing post

hello everyone i do not know what to say right now my mind is filled with so much right now. i think about school, i think about kung fu, and i think about how i live my life. i feel like i want to say something but i can't. i feel right now that my mind can't focus right now. i think that maybe i am approaching my situations all wrong, because i know i am not the first to feel the way i do or go through what i am going through. others have done just fine, but yet i struggle. it's probably my own fault, and i should just get over it. i realize i am being super vague about what i am going through, but it is the safest way i think. i am really sorry for making such a confusing blog right now, but that is basically how i feel right now. i guess all i can do for now is buck up and keep moving forward, until the next one guys, stay extraordinary.


233 lbs


Sihing Langner

maybe i am a little to worried

hello everyone i am feeling so sick right now. my head feels light and dizzy, and i feel thirsty, but when i drink i feel worse. i feel hungry, but when i eat i feel sick to my stomach. also i am getting a stuffy nose and a soar throat. i think i might of worried myself literally sick, or the weather did it. either way, i am still going for my black belt, no stupid sickness will stop me. now i am not super sick that i can't move. i am just feeling slightly sick and the those feeling i mention early, i can still function, just it is going to suck a little more. |So right now i am doing everything in my power to combat this little sickness of mine. I feel super overwhelmed right now with school and kung fu, but it is just something i have to deal with. also i know that i am defiantly not the first person to feel this way before a black belt testing. I just have to get my emotions under control, and start thinking about this more positively. I should be trying to look at this grading day a rare opportunity, because you have to do a lot of work just for them to even say yes you can grade for your black belt. i have to start looking at this as this is my epic journey, whatever happens, happens, but i know after that day i will come out of it a better martial artist and a person. So if i think about it that way it does not seem so bad after all. so remember stay extraordinary.


233 lbs


Sihing Langner

intense time

hello everyone well i guess you could say that writing this blog is kinda of a break for me right now from writing my essay and studying physics. the black belt grading is coming up, and i am also coming closer to the end of my first semester at university. off topic for a sec, i just want to explain that weird yell i made when i finally broke all my boards at once(for those who were there). Booyah. anyways it was me wanting to yell but at the same time i was trying to hold it in so it came out all weird like. anyways back on target, i always feel like i could do more and i know i could of and still can, but even when i do more i always feel like it was not enough. this generally goes for anything i do. whether it be for school or kung fu that is just how i always feel. If what i am writing here is hard to read i apologized explaining how i feel is still pretty hard to get across. Well time to get back to work so remember stay extraordinary.

234 lbs

Sihing Langner