Animal sitter

I don't know when but I guess I am a pet sitter now. I have taking care of Dan and Mels dog, then my Parents dog, now I am taking care of my aunt's pet. All 16 of them and they all get homemade food. 8 dogs, 7 cats, and 1 lizard. Also I will be taking care of my old land lords dog next, after this. 

 I just cant seem to say no. I say yes, because I know they don't have to many options, and it's the right thing to do. Also I usually never have any plans anyways, so I am usually free.  Now I am not advertising here haha. I am just realizing that majority of the time when someone ask me for help I will do it. So long as I have not already made a promise to someone else. 

 I realize being an animal owner people normally can't go for trip, because who will watch the pets? It has to be someone you can trust and know they will take care of your baby, or babies. I will say taking care of this many animals is a bit strenuous at times, but that just mainly the cooking. 

Right now I am staying on an acre of land so plenty of room to do kung fu when the dogs and cats are on their bathroom break.

  I really feel grateful that my friends and family trust me this much with their animals. My aunts animals are the small kind. So sometimes I will have like 4 dogs on me and 2 next to me and 1 or 2 cats on me as well. Quite the load, but pretty cool to.

 

Sifu Langner

Work and Questions

I have been working like crazy lately. All in the name of finishing on time. I feel really lucky in my career right now. I have a job, and I have been trusted with more and more responsibility. I am always nervous when I have to work on something new,  but I ask questions to things I don't know and figure things out on my own that I can. 

I would say I have kung fu to thank on how I approach and learn my trade. I am willing to learn and not afraid to ask questions if needed, but it's not just random questions. They are quality questions that helped me better understand what I was doing. 

I do run into some people who will be condescending to me because of my question, but then they said sorry when they heard the whole context. I am showed to that listening to someones question is just as important as asking. Asking the right question could help me figure it out without them ever saying a thing, or saying the question in the right way to convey what I am trying to figure out and learn. Interestingly enough sometimes I still get to learn something new even knowing they did not answer my question yet. So of course I ask it again with better wording, but I still got valuable information; that I did not even know that I wanted.

Sifu Langner

 

Rain

Whenever it rains for me in the beginning I get to have fun and think of where those rain droplets go. I envision them starting high in the sky then falling down as fast as you can. Then hits the side of a building and explores all the unique curves and edges; Cleaning in its path to ground.  Eventually leading to the ground and being soak up buy nearby plants.  Cleaning and providing life all in a fall. 

 Those are my stop to appreciate moments. 

Sifu Langner

Diet

 Diets are a interesting thing. They can be helpful or harmful, if used improperly.  There is diets that I personally would consider a more dangerous way of trying to become healthier and safer ways as well. For me diets were always about losing weight. 

The first time I did it I would not say I learned a lot other than portion control. The second time I lost the weight and it stayed off, but I learned a lot more ways to approach food. First time I was just doing what had to be done and nothing more. it worked, but it did not stick. I gained 40 lbs back. On the second time I learned hope to cope with eating some bad foods, and eating healthier, and working on my will power to not want to eat bad food. The Second time around I learned to make the diet apart of my life. I was not eating so little that I would be always hungry, but I eat with knowing what I am putting in me and fully in control of what I eat. I also developed eating plans to eat food I knew was not good for me. I made the second diet no long a diet but a way of living.

This is where I see what kung fu is and this is what I was thinking about when we were talking about making kung fu apart of your life, and not just a small mission to complete some goals then move on.  The most successful diets I have ever seen were the ones where people assimilated the diet into there lives. It changed the way they lived and I changed too. People who make that diet no longer a diet and a way of a new and healthier lifestyle majority of the time never gained the weight back and continued thriving. I believe Kung fu is the same thing some of the best martial artist I have seen have made kung fu apart of there lives. not just the physical aspects of it, but a lot of the mental and philosophical ways of kung fu as well.

 I have gained some weight, but I was unprepared for the mental strain I was going through, if anything eating was becoming my distraction from what was happening to me. I plan to get both my weight and kung fu back on track. I never thought life could suck so much, but I thank all of you that I talked with. I truly don't know what would have happened if I never did. Thank you

Sifu Langner

Time

Time is a tricky thing. Its one of the constants in life. Time will always move on, and change is always guaranteed; whether we want it or not. Time gets out of hand, there is not enough time, time is moving to slowly, time went by in a blink on an eye, I have all the time in the world, where did the time go? Time can heal all wounds.
      I have been learning to heal right now I have new physical injury in my right arm, and a mental one I am getting over. I Still require more time to heal both, but I am no longer in extreme mental pain.
    I wish right now that time could fly by to the point where I was no longer in mental or physical pain, but then I would miss out on the lesson that this pain has provided me. These are unfortunate lessons for me to learn, but very important lessons for me to learn and will help me shape me into something better and stronger.
  It does not feel like that now, but I know the path I need to take and right now it's time. Time is my enemy and my friend. Only thing that time cant stop me from doing is what I choose to do in my time.
   I choose that things will get better so long as there is effort made. I have that choice.

Sifu Langner 

Covid

I would say my minds a jumble right now. I am having a hard time putting thoughts into words and what to write. I know the cause of this though. It is my lack of engagement in blogging and kung fu. How do I become more engaged? It is not a question I don't know the answer to, but the follow through and consistent action I lack. i have been giving a lot of opportunities to act and better myself in my kung fu, but have not utilized to the best of my ability.
 I keep thinking this will all end soon enough and things will be back to normal, but it never will be and I am accepting of that now.
  Some people will now live with a new fear they were not aware of until covid came. I would say I am not afraid of it, but still understand it is not what it could do to me, but what it could do the people I care about the most. To me this concept has always been true. I may be more aware of it now, but does  not change the fact that disease and viruses still exist. Me possibly infecting the people i most care about has always been in my life, just now it is more feared.
  I should feel okay saying my opinion on this, but I don't. I am unsure on whether or not people will think I'm ignorant or right. I don't judge other for when they tell me they are full lockdown and not going to risk no matter what, or the other side where the still act like nothing has changed and they live there lives as usual. I am not talking about the extremes either, because I don't support the extreme measures some people might take. From buying 25 packages of toilet paper to coughing in your hands then just touching everything in the store.
 I have changed in my personal hygiene and trying to respect everyone's wishes of 6 feet.
  You know I was told how careless of me when I went to Jasper with my girlfriend and 6 kids. I took them out to see mountains then we drove home. I enjoyed this trip and so did the kids, because most of them never seen a mountain in person before. I ask how is this careless? I was around literally no one. But it is okay to go to walmart where you easily run into way more people than I encountered on my trip. So at the time the wide open spaces were irresponsible, but a walmart where you don't know if everyone is taking the clean your hands after you sneeze or cough seriously is responsible? I know people still need food and essentials to survive, but how was being easily 30km from anyone else considered irresponsible?
I am not looking for answers, because I know my stance, and I don't look to change anyone elses. This whole covid thing has been everyone own personal responsibility to act accordingly. Now what that may Intel might differ to one another, but the most important thing it what you did to react, for your loved ones, what you thought was best.
 On our trip we brought hand sanitizer, and gloves for me when I needed to fill up on gas. From what I have been reading about covid it seems like to stop from contracting it is to practice regular cleaning.
   I have read a lot about the covid and read a lot of stories. To me this seems more deadly, because it is being documented more and everyone right now could tell you how many have died and survived and are infected right now.
 For me I am still doing my part to respect everyone elses way of reacting to covid, but there is very little respect for what I am doing. It is not like I am going out and coughing on other, and trying to spread germs. I am simply adjusting to this new world where others are filled with fear. I am not filled with fear, but with what our alberta chief medical officer has said and the WHO organization. They say pretty much practice basic sanitary practices stay home whenever you can, and social distancing. I know I don't really do the last two all that much, but I practice the first one that will help prevent it. I try to do the 6 feet at grocery store, as best I can, not always possible.
  I was lucky that I was able to keep going to work, so staying home was not an option. I am not sure how this blog will do. I am sorry if this has upset anyone. Not my intent or goal. The only people I see are my girlfriend, my roommates, and my parents in person. Everyone that is in contact with me, we have already discussed the risks and what we do differently. I have some other friends as well I have not seen for awhile either because of there wish to not visit during theses times. I respect that. I am personally glad that they are re opening and maybe there could be a second wave, and maybe there could be a meteor to hit us tomorrow. I won't play the what may or may not happen game, because I could play that game with everything and apply the same rules. I could die driving to work tomorrow and kill a family and it was my fault because I was tired. It could happen, I can't predicted the future so I won't let that possible scenario tell me not to go to work and just go and hope for the best and do everything in my power to make sure that does not happen. I will control what I can do in my environment so that it does not infringe on other, but serves me and my loved ones.
   
Sifu Langner
 

Foggy Will

Hello it's been awhile since I have blogged. I also realized that I missed to write it yesterday; when I said I would. I am sorry for that. I have had great life accomplishments in my life as of this month. I have become officially a journeyman electrician and also have been getting closer to my girlfriend.
   I find myself right now with a foggy mind. A state of limbo. I find myself a bit lost with my kung fu this year. I really wanted a great year this year and it all came to a screeching halt when some random person wanted to fight me. I was making an attempt to not let my bad shoulders control me again, not let my attitude degrade again. I wanted to change.
  I believe this time I am better than last time and that I have been able to keep my very negative attitude down.
  I know for a fact I will still have an amazing year because I have to believe that I can achieve this. It really helps that my relationship is going good and that, my job is going very good, and I am not in a deep depression.
  I have always had an easy time believing in others and wanting them to succeed, but believing in myself was probably the hardest thing I have ever tried to achieve. It is easy to say I will try, because now I have gave myself a possible future excuse to fail. It is harder to say I will do, because now I have made a promise and breaking that promise carries a heavy weight; depending how much you value your word.
  I for one value my word quite highly and feel really bad when I don't come through with it. I have learned it is always easy to say I will or I can, but there must absolutely be a follow through with action. Not only do I have to believe in what I say, but follow through with what I say.
   It can get dangerous if I start saying I will do, but not following through, because now I won't be valuing my word and disregarding my life, and the feelings of others. I know I have faltered om my word sometimes, but I don't want that to be me I want to be the person who can say I will do and follow through. I will become that person. I will have a great kung fu year.

Sifu Langner