Tasty Food

I have been having some tasty food lately. One is a cauliflower "steak" and the other broccoli tots.

 You take a whole cauliflower  and make some long cuts, about 3/4 cuts. Put it on a lightly buttered pan, and add salt, pepper, ground coriander, Paprika, and garlic. Add a sprinkle of olive oil 2 tsp. Cook in oven at 425 f for 30 mins or until tender(poke with fork). Tastes like French fries to me.

For the broccoli (340g) Blanche for 2 mins, the chop it into small pieces. A food processor works better, but I don't have one so I chopped chopped. Add 1/4 cup green onion, 2 garlic cloves chopped. 2/3 cups of preferred cheese( i used parmesan) 1 egg, 2/3 bread crumbs( I did not do this step, but it sounds like it would work). salt and pepper. Optional add a hot sauce you like, I did and enjoyed it 2 teaspoons. mix it well then put in fridge for 15 to 20 min. Because I had no bread crumb the making into tots did not really work out for me, so I made it cover the whole pan, like a sheet. Cook in oven at 400 f for 18 mins, or until golden brown. I broiled a little bit at the end to give it a bit more crispiness. 

 I personally made a much larger portion, but it turned out pretty tasty.  

I do feel bad for just talking about food in my blog, because currently I don't have to much of my personal kung fu to talk about right now, and my recover has not changed all to much. I just know I am making progress. I still get a lot of dizziness spells, after physio, but they are hitting less hard every time. So I am happy about that. I have a bit of a mantra right now. 

One step at a time. So long as I am willing to take that one step I will become successful. No matter how big or small that step may be, it is always better to take that one step then none at all.

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Progress

I have been making really good progress with my physio. I was able to do heel raises with little issue. Before when I started physio I lost my balance a lot and had a hard time doing them; I shook a lot. Now I can do 10 with relatively little to no issues. I have learned better where my limits are. Every time I go beyond my limits I get a dizzy feeling and have to rest for the rest of the day. The room is not spinning, but I lose balance and, my memory gets foggy during these moments.

 I used to do to much physio, but now I have them spaced out better through out the day. I do notice I get the dizzy feeling after a thought provoking conversation, where I do a lot of the talking. I am still learning me again, but I feel I am doing better for sure now. I know slow and steady is the way to do it. I will become a better me. No matter what I go through I know I will become a better me. It is inevitable, because I will always strive for the best me I can be.

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Involuntary Swaying

Hello so I have been still having some issues with memory, and dizziness. I Actually thought March 3, but It is March 17. I keep thinking I just did my blog, but now realizing I have not. I have some memory games that they gave me. They are all apps on the phone. I will say I know I am still making improvements. My memory is getting better just slowly.

    I still get a very unbalance feeling after doing my physio exercises. Also I can do 30 mins of an elliptical machine, but if I do 31 mins I get unbalanced feeling again. It is so weird to experience all over again how to keep my balance. When I had my balance I would take it for granted that I had practice for so long to achieve it that I forgot just how much mechanics go into balancing. I have to try and find my center then fight against my own brain that throws me off. It feels like I am trying to balance on a ship sometimes. My body will naturally sway when I stand on two feet and close my eyes. Nothing crazy, but it is involuntary swaying hahaha. (I just thought it was funny and wanted you all to know I laughed at that sentence). Both of my ankles still feel pain when doing the balance exercises. More in the left than the right. 

  I would say a lot of things went bad for me, but right now I feel as though a lot of things have been going really good for me.

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Ups and Downs then Up again

Hello. Finally going through some proper physio it's started to take it's toll. After some sessions I feel very unbalanced, and sore. Which is a common outcome. I feel like I worked out really hard at the gym, but all I did was some stretches and butt lifts, and my legs are killing me.

 I do worry a lot. I mainly worry about whether I can go back to work, or if work will even higher me back and accommodate me. I am in a weird position right now. They have no obligation to take me back, other then the fact that the foreman said he would. He said that to me when I was in the hospital still, but now that I am thinking more clearly. I am officially not an employee; so they have every right to not hire me back. My only hope to go back is that he keeps his word. Then the other thing I worry is can I physically and mentally do it. I feel after a physio that if I have this much trouble in 40 mins how would I last in 8 hours.

  I would say I am still in the head space of I will not give up and I will eventually be working again. I know that the only thing I can control is me. I know I developed the bad habit of worrying about the what ifs? but I know they lead most of the time to no where. Thinking about the possibilities is not a bad skill to have, but sometimes why worry about how will I solve all of the worlds problems when I just need to focus on how am I gonna walk today. I need to live in the now and what is available and the actions I do now will help me for the future and maybe even those around me.

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I Ho Chuan on Thursday 7:30

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Memory

 Hello I have been having some short term memory issues. I thought nothing of it, because I forget stuff all the time. I just went through a whole problem solving and memory testing. I did really good at the problem solving, but worse at some other things. One of them was I did not to good on the memory test. They read me a short story or 2 and i had a hard time remembering it. I could be in a conversation where we could be talking about tanks; then 2 seconds later completely not know what we were even talking about. 

 It is not something that happens all the time, but I thought forgetting things sometime was just a normal everyday occurrence. After the test apparently I should not be forgetting as much as I am. I feel I am in a state sometimes where I am fully in control and remember everything that is important to me. Then I end up forgetting important things I want to do, or events I am suppose to attend. 

  It also seems to me sometimes time skips for me. Here I think it is feb 3 when it was actually feb 20. I feel frustration that sometimes I can't remember recent events. I remember that the banquet went really good and congratulations to everyone for doing an amazing job.    

I don't know if this will help, but I am going to write in my blog the things I want to and need to do for kung fu. Maybe if I write it down whenever I want to try and remember things this will help. I already write stuff now, but I forget that I wrote them.

  Kung fu at 7:30 black belt class tuesday 

( I have my Mothers Birthday/Anniversary Feb 23 7:00)

I Ho Chaun at 7:30 Thursday

Blog on Sunday 9:00 Pm

There is few other things I want to add here for kung fu, but I can't remember right now. I just have a strong feeling. Hopefully I will write it in my next blog.

Sifu Langner

Question Power

 Hello so I have had a fairly good day today. I had being talking with a lot of people via phone. I am currently feeling really happy, and nervous right now. I have a big assessment happening tomorrow and I think this will a determining factor of whether I can go back to work or not. I am unsure of what will be happening. Also I am only guessing what this day might be. Since I have not been informed to well about what this day is about, but I am hopeful.

  I had a really good conversation with my good friend Dan. We talked about a lot of stuff, but what was really interesting, was my full realization about questions. We both work in a trade and were taught that some of the best journeyman always asked a lot of questions. Quality and some that may seem dumb, but better to ask then to assume. I always knew asking questions was a good way to help me learn and prevent possible mistakes, or even help others realize there was more to a situation. I know people who have become very good in there field of work, but they never claimed to know everything. 

 Then I thought about it. Asking question helped me figure out some tougher problems in my life, and in work. Sometimes I was able to answer my own problem just because I ask the question to my self and it help me compartmentalize the problem. I thought whenever I see people do not ask questions it gives me the impression; they either have a good handle on what they are doing or they are slowly trying to figure something out on there own, or worst case they don't care, or unaware a question needs to be asked. I have been all of these. 

  Then it really hit me, this is why Sifu Brinker is always asking us if we have any questions about the class. It is a great indicator of how engaged you can be, and also a great indicator of where our minds are at. Dan and me started thinking that good apprentice are the ones that ask lots of questions, rather than an apprentice that never asks none. We have both come across where the one that was not ever asking questions made more mistakes. Now in both scenarios I have ran into where they don't ask, but are great apprentice, or they do ask but they got worse.

  When I am truly engaged into something like my work I always have question, but I realize I have not been the same for kung fu. I realized I had become less engaged with my own kung fu. I have learned a lot about kung fu, but I just have the tip of the ice berg of what what else Kung fu can offer me. So I am going to start thinking more question that cloud help me and maybe even other in Kung fu.    

Why do we throw punches in Kung fu?

  I have heard a few times about why, but once i start thinking about it It makes me try and find the reason for the exists of this punch. I think of the  physical mechanics that make the punch work, then I think of the mental mechanics for it to work. Then I realize the mental and physical mechanics have purpose to show how flow, and power  and intent become one entity. everything that the punches can teach us I believe to be very valuable. 

Simple, good, extreme question majority of the improve someone. That is to me super powerful thing that all have and can do whenever we want. For the most part. 

Sifu Langner

   

No Sleep January

 Hello I am sorry for not posting for awhile or attending meetings, or class. I should of at least sent a message. I was having a really rough January. In the sense of I had no clue of what time of day, or what day I was even on. I was getting very little sleep. The most sleep I got was 4 hours. For me I don't even remember to much happening in January. I was experiencing bad headaches, neck pain, and facial pain. The face one was because whenever I yawn it hurts a lot. So with me being tired it happened a lot. Oddly enough during those times when I tried to sleep, I was not tired at all.

  I have improved, and I no longer have sleep issues, and my neck and face is a bit sore, but I don't yawn as much anymore. That month for me was actually harder for me then when I spent time in the hospital. 

  Good news though I have been working on my balance I have 2 exercises. One is heel to toe, and I have to hold it for 30 secs. The other one is I have to hold one foot up for 30 secs. I have not accomplished these yet, but My best is 18 sec for first one and 13 for the second. My body just loses balance and it feels like I cant stop it, but that is why I practice. I know my balance in getting better, because I don't need a cane anymore when I walk. I never really needed it badly, but when I used to get headaches and dizzy, and would need something to lean on so I did not fall.

 I used to hold the cane most of the time floating. I would swing it where the cane would be if I needed it. I remember in the beginning that I could not walk even half way across the lagoon, without then needing my dad to help me back home. Now I am up to 4 full laps. Ironically enough more times I ever walked around that lagoon even when I was not injure.

 I may have hiccups in my never ending journey, but one thing for sure is that I refuse to give up. I know I will have more lows in my future and I cannot stop it, but I do know is that I can always learn and grow. 

One thing I have learned about life is that there is always opportunitys made available to me. I just need to create, accept, or look for them.

 Sifu Langner