trying to remain positive

Hello everyone you know always keeping a positive attitude gets hard some times. I always try, but some times things will just throw you down over and over again and you get tired of it. Also being positive for all of it just to have the same thing happen again. Mainly my job gets my positivity down i work super hard  and always thinking of the best for my day. then something always happens to me i go to a store and the last person who was there did a horrible job, and now i have to spend extra time to clean it up, just so they can mess it up the next day. To tell you the truth i would probably be really be depressed if it wasn't for kung fu. For me it is like a gas station for positivity. once i start to run low i go to kung fu to filler back up. if anything i know i will not have to work this dead end job for to much longer, but for now i guess i have to suck it up, and keep going to my kung fu, because kung fu and the people there is what inspires me to try better in life.



228 lbs



Sihing Langner

long weekend

hello everyone what a awesome long weekend i had, my dad was home for two days and he smoked some mouthwatering burgers and some delectable pork loin wrapped in bacon with three different rubs, and of course sihing donnuhues (sorry for misspell) fight to the death fudge. Also i had my friends come over and we played two epic game nights, its just a long game. I even got started on my speech it still needs a lot of work, but it is a least started. The only sucky thing is on Saturday i landed on my knee wrong when i was doing flying kicks. It feels pretty good now but u have not been using it for anything for three days now, so i will still try to take it easy on the knee but i feel like i am making a fast recover. I guess this is all i have to say for now so stay extraordinary.


234lbs


Sihing Langner  

Writing

hello everyone my mind draws a blank when it comes to writing stuff. for example i have the valedictorian speech i have to write and say in front of people on may 24th. They basically told me to right something inspirational and a minimum of 2 mins. I always have writers block almost every time i have to write something; on top of this i also have to speak in front of people are you kidding me. When i went through English and i had to write an essay i would always just put whatever blibbty blop that came to mind and i tried making correct sentences. Which i relied heavily on the word program to correct my spelling or make the capitals for me; as you have obviously seen through my blogs. The hard part for this though is all they said was make it inspiring and maybe a little funny as well. I have never written something like this before. I can't just write whatever blibbty blop that comes to mind, because when i wrote that for essays i never believed in it, but i wrote what i knew what the teachers wanted to see. In order to be inspiring you must believe in it too, not just write it down for the sake of writing and of course lets not forget about the public speaking my stomach  crinch every time i think about it. anyways i have to go to bed now so i will finish it here so stay inspiring.


237 lbs


Sihing Langner       

Pandamodium

hello everyone pandamodium was crazy good. i was able to stay for the full 24 hrs and even two days later i am so sore and working right now hurts so bad. lucky though i did not have to do the full 24 without help sihing chelsal did the 24 hrs as well and i have to again thank his mom for driving me home that night because i did not think about who was going to drive me after a crazy day like that. I personally thought there was going to be a little more participation in the pandamodium, because there was a few time where we had lots of people but only four people were inside doing the actual contentious motion. Or maybe that is how it usually is, because i have only been to one other, and it was later in the day. Don't get me wrong i know there had to be people outside to help with the set up and doing all the cooking that is reasonable. it was more when nothing had to be done accept continuous motion and quit a few time for 10 mins here and there it was just me practicing my stick because i was do much in pain to really do anything else. if it sound like i am resenting or anything like that im really not trying to be; i still think that the day was an awesome day and  a lot got done and  a lot was accomplished and awareness for our charity's was raised. So you just can't go wrong with that. Also a quick note i am not trying to call anyone out, maybe on that day it was just the way it worked out that day everybody has there own reason why, maybe work or supporting someone or something whatever it was it does not matter all that matters that even if you there for an hour or less or even more you helped with doing the 24 hr pandamodium. every time i re read my blog it always looks like it is coming out negative or resentful, but that is not the case at all it was merely just an observation. I had a good day and fun with all the people that showed up.

 
233lbs



Sihing Langner

injury's

Hello everyone sorry for the late post, anyways i am beginning to wonder if we are supposed to get injury's as a part of kung fu, because every time i here some one getting injured they need to refocus on every thing because it hurts to much if you do it the wrong way which ends up helping  you in the long run. I think injury's help because it is a time when you must truly focus your mind on the six harmony's if you don't you will hurt. Now i am not saying go get yourself hurt or anything, or that all injury's actually help you get better, it is just that your so used to using that one part of body for so long then one injury takes it away and now you must re invent your way of moving and thinking or basically your going to be poked with a red hot poker. You fix it right away because nobody want to intentionally inflict pain on themselves unless they are doing bone density stuff or other things. A very good example of someone who got an injury and improved upon it, was my mom sifu Langner she was driving a pallet jack when all of  a sudden she lost control and smashed her knee into the wall. Just the slightest of movements made her cry out in pain. As she got better and was able to got back to kung fu she said all of her stances and kicks felt different, because when she would throw a kick that was slightly off or go into any stance just a little wrong her knee told her right away noo that is wrong it should be exactly like this. which would suck, but she had to really focus on how her body moved to prevent it from happening again. Now i would definitely not want to go through what my mom had to go through, but the injury in the long run ended helping her out. i never really know how to end theses thing probaly so for now have a good day or a good night for whenever your reading this.


231 Lbs


Sihing Langner

my weight

hello everyone i was thinking about what some people were saying about my scale, that maybe i should throw it out, or switch to measuring or just use the mirror only to see how my progress is going. To tell you the truth they all sound like great ideas and i think i will use all of them except throw out my scale. I may not be able to tell weather i am gaining weight because of fat or because of muscle, but i can tell you i will not give power to the number i post on here anymore. I will still post them the only difference would be is that i will take measurements as well, and judge myself in the mirror, does it look like i got smaller or do the numbers reflect. I am still going to try and lose weight of course i just won't be as bummed anymore if it goes slightly up or down then back up again, because i know i will eventually get to my goal.


236 lbs



Sihing Langner

Breathing

hello everyone i have recently found out that i pulled my lower abdomen from the doctor. It turns out that when i did 50 lengths of swimming it really worked my breathing muscles and because i did not know i worked them out so hard that day i did no stretches that could of probably prevented me from pulling my lower abdomen muscle. Since i did not the next day i was going through say chein (sorry for not able to spell that correct for now) I went for a backward shoulder roll and that is when i first felt the excruciating pain in my stomach. Everybody knows if you really work  out your muscles you should always do a lot of stretching to prevent what happen to me, but in my case i did not even know that just breathing could be such a work out.


237 Lbs

Sihing Langner