Apologies

Hello everyone this blog is to simply say that i am sorry for what my last blog caused. I am sorry that some people misinterpreted what i was trying to say, which was none of there faults, but mine alone. I was unable to clearly express and communicate myself properly. I was just trying to express how i was feeling, but i clearly failed to do so. I do not have any doubts about anybody nor anyone, i will try and make this perfectly clear as possible i am very happy and proud of this team we have, I am also ecstatic about the accomplishment we have succeeded in and i would not change a thing about our team. I will take it upon myself to improve my verbal an writing communication skills so this never happens again. As soon as i found out about what i had caused i immediately regretted it. At the time i was merely trying to say how i personally feel and not call anyone out, but i know in my blog now how it might have been seen that way, and i am truly sorry for that. I will again make sure that i do a better job of saying how i feel in a more private manner if need be or better explaining myself next time. I assure you i will never sound that negative again, because all it got me was more negativity. If anything I Ho Chuan is the best thing that has every happened to me. Before I Ho Chuan i had little to no friends at kung fu, because i was shy and distant, but I Ho Chuan helped me make  a lot more friends and come out of my shell. So i will always try to remember that the next time i ever feel negative again.  


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Crazy week and demo stuff

I did a lot this week but nothing to out of the ordinary, other than getting my first aid and taking care of the house for a week while my parents were gone and helping my aunt debbie. I had to take care of a dog who refused to eat and drink, and never asked to be let out; i had to let him out on purpose just to make sure he never had an accident in the house, but he did of course. My dog always asks my parent to go outside but never me, even if i am the only one. Also i have had to help my aunt twice this week. First was transporting a bbq from my place to her place; then i had to help transport a fridge onto her place, which was all good. The neat part of my week was learning first aid with two of my fellow classmates from kung fu. I got to learn a little bit more about them and felt like it bonded us a little bit closer together, which was neat. out of the three of us i got the lowest score it was 100% , 90 something%, and me 90%. I felt like i could of done better, but it was my first time ever learning that stuff. i just want to mention that this year for demo practice and putting together a demo for a function seems a little more forced and a little unnatural. so instead of people doing it because they want to, and of course because we have to do a least 3 of them. It feels like people might be doing it because they are being forced to or guilted into doing it rather then being inspired to to it and maybe change themselves in the process. I am not saying this is everyone, but rather some. I understand that sometimes to get stuff done or to push someone beyond there limits, some of this tough love has to be done. but is there another way to do it?...... I personally don't know. I know we have to cram into a demo really quick right now because we have a very limited time before the demo actually has to be done an it has to look good. But for maybe afterwards or next time, is there a better way to put a demo together? Is it time? Is it leadership? Or is it the people themselves? I know last year felt very natural and even not so forced. Maybe we had the leadership? the time? and the people in the right frame of mind, but that was last year, and we even started it late. So we must focus on this year, I think we are doing amazing this year to build demos in as little time as we are doing, is amazing, but it just feel like we are missing something and i can honestly say that i can't tell what that is. The people are still awesome, the people are dedicated, the only difference is that we are doing it on so short of time, but should that really effect the atmosphere of the demo? I don't know, i am just asking. this is only my second year in doing this but i still truly believe that i will get that feeling back, maybe it is the time or whatever else it might be, because if there is a least one thing that the I ho Chuan has taught me from last year is to keep being perseveres. Even knowing when times feel tough it always gets better without the bad there would be no good. So i guess that is my little rant for now and sorry if it is a little hard to understand what i wrote here, i really suck at where to put the proper punctuations and all that.


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Sihing Langner  

Small Recap

hello everyone i am just going to do a quick recap on what has happened to me and some of you. I started the year with lots of optimism and ambition. they was a calm period for a little while, but then we needed demos and someone who surprised me, took control of forming up a demo, who took leadership, because they push themselves out of there comfort level. This person of course was Miss. Gibbons she inspires me to want to break out of my shell even more, not just at kung fu but outside of it as well. Also she helped me try and go for my breaking boards, i was probably going to try and avoid it this year and try and do something private, which obviously would not of cut it, but miss Gibbons help me do it. She did not help me in training or in practicing, but she helped me through her courage's spirit, by going out of her comfort level, i was able to try and go out of mine. Also i failed at breaking the boards twice, i can easily break three boards no problem, but i am still learning my errors and trying not to condemn myself for them. Before this year started i was actually afraid of not breaking boards, now that fear is completely gone, now i just worry if i am going to break all of them, which i think i will, i know i will, i just have to keep at it. My forms for my twin hooks this year started out pretty well, but now that i have finished my twin hook form i like it a little less as if there were to many errors and i am having a hard time in trying to fix them. Now the errors i speak of are not crazy bad they just annoy me, like my form goes in a straight line, and whenever i try to change direction if feels forced and not meant to be there. But i continue working on it still learning something different about them which is always fun. Now lets talk about push ups, at the begging of the year i was doing pretty good, but then i sorta stopped doing them for a little bit, and every day that i skip the worse i felt, but i constantly came up with an excuse for myself to justify what i was doing. Then i started to realize there are no excuse the greatest enemy to accomplishing my goals is me, i am holding myself back. So i started doing them again and no excuse, i never had any the first time. So right now i am still a little bit behind, but not for long with the extra push ups i have been doing i have been catching up day by day. I started the year with lots of optimism and ambition and i am darn well going to keep it that way, because only good can come out of it. So remember guys stay extraordinary.



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Sihing Langner

good night

hello everyone i had a great class and dragon practice. In san sao we practice inside fighting which i know is a little bit of a weaker area for me, but actually so much fun. Also the dragon practice was awesome and lots of people showed up. It was a great night. I can now say that i have officially been in every position on the dragon 1 through 9. I tend to like the front a bit more ,but the back is definitely  a whole new experience; it is a whole new way of moving and thinking back there in the front not so bad, but in the back any little mess up in front of you and you see it automatically. sorry this is a little short but this is all i have for now.Now i am going to have some fish, hash browns and brussel sprouts with my dad so remember stay extraordinary.



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Sihing Langner

trying to remain positive

Hello everyone you know always keeping a positive attitude gets hard some times. I always try, but some times things will just throw you down over and over again and you get tired of it. Also being positive for all of it just to have the same thing happen again. Mainly my job gets my positivity down i work super hard  and always thinking of the best for my day. then something always happens to me i go to a store and the last person who was there did a horrible job, and now i have to spend extra time to clean it up, just so they can mess it up the next day. To tell you the truth i would probably be really be depressed if it wasn't for kung fu. For me it is like a gas station for positivity. once i start to run low i go to kung fu to filler back up. if anything i know i will not have to work this dead end job for to much longer, but for now i guess i have to suck it up, and keep going to my kung fu, because kung fu and the people there is what inspires me to try better in life.



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Sihing Langner

long weekend

hello everyone what a awesome long weekend i had, my dad was home for two days and he smoked some mouthwatering burgers and some delectable pork loin wrapped in bacon with three different rubs, and of course sihing donnuhues (sorry for misspell) fight to the death fudge. Also i had my friends come over and we played two epic game nights, its just a long game. I even got started on my speech it still needs a lot of work, but it is a least started. The only sucky thing is on Saturday i landed on my knee wrong when i was doing flying kicks. It feels pretty good now but u have not been using it for anything for three days now, so i will still try to take it easy on the knee but i feel like i am making a fast recover. I guess this is all i have to say for now so stay extraordinary.


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Sihing Langner  

Writing

hello everyone my mind draws a blank when it comes to writing stuff. for example i have the valedictorian speech i have to write and say in front of people on may 24th. They basically told me to right something inspirational and a minimum of 2 mins. I always have writers block almost every time i have to write something; on top of this i also have to speak in front of people are you kidding me. When i went through English and i had to write an essay i would always just put whatever blibbty blop that came to mind and i tried making correct sentences. Which i relied heavily on the word program to correct my spelling or make the capitals for me; as you have obviously seen through my blogs. The hard part for this though is all they said was make it inspiring and maybe a little funny as well. I have never written something like this before. I can't just write whatever blibbty blop that comes to mind, because when i wrote that for essays i never believed in it, but i wrote what i knew what the teachers wanted to see. In order to be inspiring you must believe in it too, not just write it down for the sake of writing and of course lets not forget about the public speaking my stomach  crinch every time i think about it. anyways i have to go to bed now so i will finish it here so stay inspiring.


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Sihing Langner