dealing with it

hello everyone i have been doing a little better with my schooling i have been managing my stress better. i have two midterms coming up and i am not super stressed about it. i have been studying a lot and keeping a more positive attitude about things. what helped me a bit was finally breaking all four boards. i know i could possibly might have to do them again, but for now it is done and i feel good about it. The thinking i went through that day when i broke my boards, was i have practice technique, and they are just pieces of wood nothing more. I constantly reminded myself that i can do this and i have nothing to fear, i can do this. that day i started to say to myself if i can do that for board breaking why not school, and as soon as i started to do that i became less stressed and more calm about it. Anyways i have not much else to say right now so remember stay extraordinary.



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sihing Langner

shout out

hello everyone i would just like to take this blogging time to give a big THANK YOU to all of the active blog reader who also comment on other peoples blog. Reading those comments really helps me sometimes and let me know that i am not alone. Some comments sympathize, relate, calm down, another perspective, support, but most of all help. I know those comment do more than what i have listed; i just could not not think of more words. Most of the time when i see any comment on my blog i just become so happy that someone took the time out of there day and read my blog. I know i don't post as much as i should on other peoples blogs, but maybe i should because if it makes me feel this god when other people comment on my blogs. Then it would make sense that other people will feel the same joy as i do if i made more of an effort to post on other peoples blogs.
      on a side note i made a personal requirement to myself to post my weight on here so i always keep myself in check. right now i feel horrible that this happen to me again, but i gained weight again and i can only blame myself. it is not that i am eating a lot of food or bad food, i am just not eating 3 times a day, with little snacks in between. With school and kung fu i have had poor time management skills with all the stress i have been going through. during a chem quiz i was having a hard time writing it because i was shaking so bad. but then after it i felt better and i did not do the best in my quiz, but rather i learned a lot about what they look for in a test. and i only got some of the questions wrong do to grammar and adding mistake. if i had those nailed down for the test i would of done really well. I am kicking myself right now to get back on the band wagon of success. All i have to do is try harder and make a new structure for myself. i have done it before i can do it again. also clearly you are all staying extraordinary; now its my turn to take my own advice.


234 lbs



sihing Langner 
    

stress

hello every one i am sorry for not posting my blog last week. i have been having a lot of trouble with balancing university work. I feel like i am always just barely making my deadlines and for my homework. also i have not been going to kung fu lately and i miss it so much. But i have Saturday kung fu; that is all mine and i trade nothing for it. so i guess i will enjoy Saturday, but i am still struggling with school work right now. I feel like i am trying as hard as i can but getting nowhere sometimes. I have to try remain as positive as i can because right now this is all i have to keep me going knowing eventually this will start making sense to me and i will get it . That is all i have to say for now. So remember stat extraordinary.


228 lbs


Sihing Langner

balancing act

hello every one  i have really learned a lot about how to balance your life these past couple of days. it turns out it takes a lot of effort to do such a thing. some people have organized chaos and mine where i run better if everything is in order i know i will be doing something at this certain time. I finally had 1 good day at school where for once i did not feel  like i was lost, i was able to participate in class and get my homework done on time. on top of all that the balancing of kung fu i can't forget right i have been able to work in more time where i can just focus on kung fu. I always thought that doing exercise to help you do school work seemed insane to me. actually for me it really works i did not have a good day at university until i went to my san sao class and after that i felt so good. The final thing i can't forget is spending time with my family on top of all of this. it may be the lowest thing on my list of things to do right now, but i love my folks and i actually have fun when i spend time with them. so yeah that is me this week. remember every one stay extraordinary.


228 lbs


sihing langner

Crazy days

hello everyone i had quite a few crazy days here and i don't see that slowing down anytime soon. i have to be honest my push ups and sit ups have been put slightly on the side right now. mainly because i hurt my back. it has been getting better and i already feel stronger to start doing push ups and sit ups again. university is exactly what everyone has been telling me it was going to be like. They have high standards and like to overwhelm you with lots of stuff to do. i am still trying to adjust my life to this right now, but i get there eventually. my weight seems to be not going up or down at the moment. i assume it is because right now my life is out of balance right now.  Before all i had was work and kung fu; now i have kung fu and university. my balanced scales are all over the place right now, but i am slowly trying to get everything organized and back in balance. also i have not been eating that well either. when i say that i mean i have not been eating three meals a day and that  is throwing me off. anyways i hope all of you have a great day and remember stay extraordinary.


228 lbs


Sihing Langner
 

breakthrough

hello everyone i am having a pretty breakthrough week. In our requirements we are supposed to mend a relationship. Boy did i ever it was an emotionally exhausting night. I feel so much better now and we have become so much closer because of it. i was not looking for a relationship mend at that moment in my life, if anything it found me. right now i feel like this huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders.  also right now i am becoming more and more nervous as my university start date approaches, this will be the biggest thing i have ever done and i am scared of failing. but i know you only fail if you don't try and exhaust every possible option of outside help. i guess i am afraid of walking into a class day and being the only person who is lost. anyways i guess that is all i have for now so see you guys for now and remember stay extraordinary.


228 lbs


sihing Langner

fun weekend

hello everyone what a great weekend for me this week. I got to go to form seminar and learned a lot about myself and about a form i have been doing for awhile. I think that is one of the things that is so cool about martial art is that no matter how many time you can do a particular form you can always learn something new from it and about yourself. This time at the end when we all had to perform in front of everyone i felt like i was able to calm myself down way faster than before. i was still scared of doing, but i felt like  i was more in control than usual. Also i saw some other people do there forms in front of others for the first time. For me it was thinking how far i have come since i used to be like that, but at the same time giving me the inspiration to continue to moving forward and excited that there are people like me trying to conquer the same fear i have. And they have started there journey to more confidence. for me that is so awesome.

   The next day i just spent the whole day with my family and how good that was. we did not do much but we had fun together, and i would not trade that for anything in the world. anyways remember stay extraordinary.


228 Lbs


Sihing Langner