a confusing post

hello everyone i do not know what to say right now my mind is filled with so much right now. i think about school, i think about kung fu, and i think about how i live my life. i feel like i want to say something but i can't. i feel right now that my mind can't focus right now. i think that maybe i am approaching my situations all wrong, because i know i am not the first to feel the way i do or go through what i am going through. others have done just fine, but yet i struggle. it's probably my own fault, and i should just get over it. i realize i am being super vague about what i am going through, but it is the safest way i think. i am really sorry for making such a confusing blog right now, but that is basically how i feel right now. i guess all i can do for now is buck up and keep moving forward, until the next one guys, stay extraordinary.


233 lbs


Sihing Langner

maybe i am a little to worried

hello everyone i am feeling so sick right now. my head feels light and dizzy, and i feel thirsty, but when i drink i feel worse. i feel hungry, but when i eat i feel sick to my stomach. also i am getting a stuffy nose and a soar throat. i think i might of worried myself literally sick, or the weather did it. either way, i am still going for my black belt, no stupid sickness will stop me. now i am not super sick that i can't move. i am just feeling slightly sick and the those feeling i mention early, i can still function, just it is going to suck a little more. |So right now i am doing everything in my power to combat this little sickness of mine. I feel super overwhelmed right now with school and kung fu, but it is just something i have to deal with. also i know that i am defiantly not the first person to feel this way before a black belt testing. I just have to get my emotions under control, and start thinking about this more positively. I should be trying to look at this grading day a rare opportunity, because you have to do a lot of work just for them to even say yes you can grade for your black belt. i have to start looking at this as this is my epic journey, whatever happens, happens, but i know after that day i will come out of it a better martial artist and a person. So if i think about it that way it does not seem so bad after all. so remember stay extraordinary.


233 lbs


Sihing Langner

intense time

hello everyone well i guess you could say that writing this blog is kinda of a break for me right now from writing my essay and studying physics. the black belt grading is coming up, and i am also coming closer to the end of my first semester at university. off topic for a sec, i just want to explain that weird yell i made when i finally broke all my boards at once(for those who were there). Booyah. anyways it was me wanting to yell but at the same time i was trying to hold it in so it came out all weird like. anyways back on target, i always feel like i could do more and i know i could of and still can, but even when i do more i always feel like it was not enough. this generally goes for anything i do. whether it be for school or kung fu that is just how i always feel. If what i am writing here is hard to read i apologized explaining how i feel is still pretty hard to get across. Well time to get back to work so remember stay extraordinary.

234 lbs

Sihing Langner

dealing with it

hello everyone i have been doing a little better with my schooling i have been managing my stress better. i have two midterms coming up and i am not super stressed about it. i have been studying a lot and keeping a more positive attitude about things. what helped me a bit was finally breaking all four boards. i know i could possibly might have to do them again, but for now it is done and i feel good about it. The thinking i went through that day when i broke my boards, was i have practice technique, and they are just pieces of wood nothing more. I constantly reminded myself that i can do this and i have nothing to fear, i can do this. that day i started to say to myself if i can do that for board breaking why not school, and as soon as i started to do that i became less stressed and more calm about it. Anyways i have not much else to say right now so remember stay extraordinary.



232 lbs


sihing Langner

shout out

hello everyone i would just like to take this blogging time to give a big THANK YOU to all of the active blog reader who also comment on other peoples blog. Reading those comments really helps me sometimes and let me know that i am not alone. Some comments sympathize, relate, calm down, another perspective, support, but most of all help. I know those comment do more than what i have listed; i just could not not think of more words. Most of the time when i see any comment on my blog i just become so happy that someone took the time out of there day and read my blog. I know i don't post as much as i should on other peoples blogs, but maybe i should because if it makes me feel this god when other people comment on my blogs. Then it would make sense that other people will feel the same joy as i do if i made more of an effort to post on other peoples blogs.
      on a side note i made a personal requirement to myself to post my weight on here so i always keep myself in check. right now i feel horrible that this happen to me again, but i gained weight again and i can only blame myself. it is not that i am eating a lot of food or bad food, i am just not eating 3 times a day, with little snacks in between. With school and kung fu i have had poor time management skills with all the stress i have been going through. during a chem quiz i was having a hard time writing it because i was shaking so bad. but then after it i felt better and i did not do the best in my quiz, but rather i learned a lot about what they look for in a test. and i only got some of the questions wrong do to grammar and adding mistake. if i had those nailed down for the test i would of done really well. I am kicking myself right now to get back on the band wagon of success. All i have to do is try harder and make a new structure for myself. i have done it before i can do it again. also clearly you are all staying extraordinary; now its my turn to take my own advice.


234 lbs



sihing Langner 
    

stress

hello every one i am sorry for not posting my blog last week. i have been having a lot of trouble with balancing university work. I feel like i am always just barely making my deadlines and for my homework. also i have not been going to kung fu lately and i miss it so much. But i have Saturday kung fu; that is all mine and i trade nothing for it. so i guess i will enjoy Saturday, but i am still struggling with school work right now. I feel like i am trying as hard as i can but getting nowhere sometimes. I have to try remain as positive as i can because right now this is all i have to keep me going knowing eventually this will start making sense to me and i will get it . That is all i have to say for now. So remember stat extraordinary.


228 lbs


Sihing Langner

balancing act

hello every one  i have really learned a lot about how to balance your life these past couple of days. it turns out it takes a lot of effort to do such a thing. some people have organized chaos and mine where i run better if everything is in order i know i will be doing something at this certain time. I finally had 1 good day at school where for once i did not feel  like i was lost, i was able to participate in class and get my homework done on time. on top of all that the balancing of kung fu i can't forget right i have been able to work in more time where i can just focus on kung fu. I always thought that doing exercise to help you do school work seemed insane to me. actually for me it really works i did not have a good day at university until i went to my san sao class and after that i felt so good. The final thing i can't forget is spending time with my family on top of all of this. it may be the lowest thing on my list of things to do right now, but i love my folks and i actually have fun when i spend time with them. so yeah that is me this week. remember every one stay extraordinary.


228 lbs


sihing langner