Topsy Turvy

Hello everyone my life right now has been so topsy turvy. A lot of things have been happening to me, but the one thing that remains a constant for me is kung fu. Sometime I don't appreciate as much as I should, but for the most part I'm grateful for it most of the time. I'm still enjoying kung fu that's for sure and that for me will never change. By what I mean I don't always appreciate it is that sometimes I take it for granted that I have this huge opportunity for kung fu everyday of my life, yet I don't take it all the time. Maybe right now my life is getting in the way a bit, but kung fu is a opportunity for me to re focus my mind and body. Going to kung fu is the one place I feel for sure I'm doing something right in my life. Also doing kung fu makes me feel the same way. I have some pretty big decision I have to make in my life right now mainly cause there is a huge wrench in in right now (nothing kung fu related). I admit sometime my life come into my kung fu and I really feel it in my forms. For me when I'm not doing well in life my forms tell everyone(to me it feels this way), but when my life is going well my forms tell everyone that things are going good. My emotions are directly connected to my forms, because for me forms are a way of showing who you are and what type of person you are (to a certain extent) forms are a sign of your own progress in life and your martial arts. Now of course as I say all this, this is just how forms feel for me, if anyone else feel the same then great if not then great. This is just how kung fu works for me =). Kung fu will always be my rock, because it is the one constant I have, and even and I say it the one constant I have it is also always changing for me. Kung fu for me right now is this whole new world to explore and I have yet to even touch the surface of what everything it has to offer. The biggest thing also the people that do kung fu as well. I see some of the more experienced black belts and they have so much that they have gained from kung fu, but at the same time are only a little deeper into the mystery's of kung fu then I am and they are still discovering so many things about it. Of course that little bit ahead of me is still a whole heck of  a lot, but it makes me happy knowing when I am there in kung fu for longer period I will still have the same look of amazement on my face that a white belt might have when first starting kung fu. It may be more advance by then but I know it will still be there. You know even as I typed this all out I smiled. Well that's all I have for now remember stay extraordinary.



Sifu R Langner

Camping with some fun meditation

Camping yay I'm going camping in a few days and really looking forward to it. My goal for the trip is to do push ups in awesome looking places also doing my forms. I'm also gonna do a mediation I'm actually looking forward to it. For me mediation is where the intensity starts. First you clear your mind then slowly count to ten(or down) each with a big breath and as you get closer to the end of counting I can start to control my heart beat. It's the weirdest thing but I will consciously slow my heart down and feel every beat. Then I start feeling everything that my body is doing. My blood being pumped to every limb, the sensation of my lungs moving my body. After all this then I start to move out of my body and then i feel what my skin feels warm , cold, wet, windy, hot and all this information is going to my brain telling me how I feel. Also I feel the hairs on my arms and legs and head how all of them are growing just a little bit( that one make me feel itchy). Then the next part for me is hearing everything that is happening around me, the birds, the rustle of the forest, my breathing, sound of a thunder storm, a gentle breeze of gust of wind, insects flying moving around, and if I'm lucky a running river and water fall. All of these noise come rushing into my mind and I create my own world from it. Finally I decide sometimes to open my eyes and see everything all these feelings and sound now come together and pop. I see the luscious green leaves and then the cool blue water and the birds( if there was any) the moist soil beneath my feet, tall strong trees everywhere. Everything around me exist the leaves photosynthesize, the birds collecting food, the insects surviving, and the earth moving. In the end I count down from ten (or up) and come back to myself a let nature and myself go back to it all. To tell you the truth I maybe only explained 2 mins or less worth of mediation; just as you start. I do longer ones then that for sure, but to explain absolutely everything would be way longer. Meditation is like a grand adventure yet you moved no where. How many times can you say you experienced everything in your environment once? most likely we haven't cause it takes awhile to do it. To absorb everything in what your environment offered you is pretty intense especially if you think about how every little thing was made to be possible for you to see, hear or feel it. Well that's ll for now and remember stay extraordinary.


Sifu R Langner

Making a comeback

Hello it's been awhile I have been neglecting my blogging again. I guess more apology's from me are useless now. What will say more for me now is action. What I mean by that is writing my blogs again, there was never a good excuse to why I have not been blogging, it was simply laziness. I actually enjoy blogging, it lets me refresh my head. Well now that's said let get to my blog.

I have been having an awesome time lately with the parades we been having. Both of those parades made me smile and grow closer to more of my friends at kung fu. I really wish we had more there and I missed the dragon, but all in all it was a great time. This I Ho Chuan year for me seems to be another special one for me. I seem to grow and change and learn new things about myself every year. The way I think also seems to change from year to year. This is why I should blog more often I have so much in my mind I want to say but can't translate everything I want to say. My mind just goes fuzzy on me when I try to think about how to write it all down.(lol) Anyways in our I Ho Chuan team this year I saw a lot of people do amazing forms and I am seeing how there weapon forms are changing them as well. It is just so amazing. Also I will give an update on the girlfriend thing I'm doing, still no luck all the woman I seem to find all have boyfriends. I'm starting to think that no one left is single but me (lol)I'm obviously still trying. Well I will leave this for now so remember everyone stay extraordinary.

Sifu R Langner

Broadsword

Hello everyone it's been awhile. I would have to say right now I'm struggling with my broad sword form. I have to say when I picked the form I was not expecting it to be so difficult, but I did not realize I pick a form that was almost polar opposite of me. The form has so much flow and goes a lot slower than what I'm used to. I guess a easy way to say it, this form has everything I need. I was ok with flow, but now I see it is a super difficult form that challenges for me everything you have. It may be a slow form, but it is defensively the hardest form I have ever done. I pick this form also because I wanted a safer weapon that could not injury me. So far ever year I have be injured by every weapon, so this weapon slower and duller, but the most difficult. I happy I have such a hard form for me I am learning so much about myself. remember stay extraordinary.

Sifu R. Langner

Shame

hello everyone i have not been blogging as much as i should be and i am truly sorry for this I've let you down and myself down. my excuses i could easily say is i been involved so much lately with school and everything i have been pushing other things aside. but in reality this blog takes me 5- 10 mins to write an no excuse why i haven't been blogging. i can and i will write more often, because i when i first started writing blogs i hated and had nothing to say, but the longer i have done this the more value i have seen in it. i always feel lighter or better after blogging now. it is now a stress relief for me. so when i was not doing it because of school; it was a poor excuse.if anything it most likely would have helped me more if i blogged more. Blogging for me it like having some time to just think abut yourself and everything your feeling at that moment. And i deprived myself of that extraordinary opportunity that i love most. a chance to just let it all go. im sorry for not blogging my best but i will turn that around now. i have been doing I Ho Chuan for awhile, i may have failed some things, and i have passed quite a bit of things, but blogging for me is key an one part of an essential tool for keeping me engaged in life and things around me. i always try to strive for extraordinary and blogging is the most easiest ways to do so if  you let it. so remember guys stay extraordinary.




Sifu R Langner

Forms

hello everyone another blog for me, actually lately I've been really enjoying doing forms. most likely because im learning a lot of new forms, but in the same time these new forms im learning are making me appreciate my older forms that i know now. the amount of work and sweat i had to put into learning a new form is huge. when i finally learned the whole tai chi broad sword form, i immediately wanted to improve it and change little things here and there.  i remember when i first learned Da Ma Sing i thought to myself well this is fun and easy, but now that i've been doing kung fu so long i sorta stopped seeing it in that way, but now i realize when i first learned it i did not respect it. there was so much that da ma sing could teach me so many opportunities that da ma sing provide for me. i got to work on my basics, my centering, and my flow, and so much more. Doing the tai chi broad sword has made me realize this forms are these huge chances of extraordinary little experiences. all by having a different attitude and putting more passion into my forms. i want them to be awesome, but never perfect for if my forms were perfect it would mean i have nothing more to gain from them. remember everyone stay extraordinary.


Sifu R Langner

effort, trying, priorities

hello this recent meeting that the i ho chuan had got me thinking about if you don't try or put in the effort you will be guaranteed nothing, and also about what is your priority which ranks higher in your life.
  for the trying and putting in effort one i started to think about what do i do that try and put effort in? i figured i put effort in my kung fu and my school. i really want to succeed in both so i put effort into it. and for trying things i found out that i dont really ask out to many girls mainly because i think that im scared of not being accepted for who i am and for what i look like. but after hearing myself say this i realize that i wont get anywhere with women if i dont put some effort into it. so i got to thinking if you don;t try you gain nothing but if you try and put in some effort in it you will always get a result weather it be positive or negative, at least your doing something, which is better then nothing. i have to realize that doing nothing will give me nothing, but do something will give me something. this sound simple enough, but this is for sure a lot harder to do. its easy to say but to actually do it in real life is two different things. im defiantly going to try harder and put more effort into finding a girlfriend, but not saying that it will be easy, but i am more aware of how hard im trying now.
    for where are my priorities i would have to say right now my university is top priority for me right now. i still keep kung fu up there, but i have already not attended some classes due to school, they were not my actual classes, but i see all the classes i can attend as my classes, because i always see and learn new things about myself or about other people.whenever i start thinking about priority i start thinking about balance. it good to have a top priority, but no one every has one priority. to tell you the truth i have yet to figure out how to perfectly balance all my priorities, but i'm pretty sure im not to bad at doing it. i dont think actually that someone could ever be perfectly balance in there priorities. i think that we just try to do our best and sometimes we exclude one, but then others might tell you your off balanced or you figure it out for yourself and then you adjust. this recent meeting has really got me thinking, i've heard these things before, but i never really applied it to myself and what i was doing in life.
    well if you read this far in my blog thanks for reading and remember stay extraordinary.



Sifu R Langner