Hello everyone I just thouhgt I would give you my thoughts on what I Ho Chuan is for me. I Ho Chuan for me is an event that gives you the chance to grow, a chance to improve yourself, a chance to change your environment and the people around you, a chance for failure, a chance for sucess, a chacne to get an opportunity, achance to make an opportunity, a chance to become extraordinary, a chance to witness the extraordinary, a chance to build new relationships, a chance to mend old ones, a chance to become more mindful of your actions and of those around you, a chance to make a difference.
These are all things that I belive I Ho Chuan to be and there is most likely more to add, but for now this is all I can think of right now; if you have your own you would like to add feel free to add in the comments.
I Ho Chuan for me is always the most craziest ride I have ever been on, ever year that I have been apart of this amazing opprotunity, I have experienced all of the things I listed above. Every year the list to what I Ho Chuan is to me grows bigger. Although I have experienced all of these things, I remind myself that none of this was possible if I did not apply myself, or jump on the opprotunity that I Ho Chaun offers me. No ones forces you to do anything, but the amount of opprotunitys given are amazing. I know that it is up to me to take the opprotunitys given to me and try and use it to the best of my abilities. This part is what I would call individual growth.
Some of my best memories in I Ho Chuan is when I have been apart of the demos and the dragon, and a new one for me this year the lion. Doing the lion this year has been a humbling experience. I have always had great respect for lion dancers, and now it has grown immensely. I used to think lion dancers just did whatever they wanted and the drummer was at the mercy at what the lion did, but it is so much more than that. Being a lion dancer is all about communication between you the audience and the drummer. There is a way the lion moves and dances that tells a story to everyone wacthing you. The loin lets you know how it is doing, when it is excited, when it is curious, when it is aggressive, and so much more. I Ho Chuan gave me this opportunity to experience such an amazing adventure. This part I would call social growth.
I Ho Chuan is always amazing for me and I don't know how my life would be like now without it. I really don't know how I lived my life pre I Ho Chuan. Well that is everything I have to say for now so remember stay extraordinary.
Also I was asked to repost this for when the new I Ho Chuan year started so here it is http://randylangner789.blogspot.ca/2014/11/hello-numbers.html all about those numbers.
Sifu R. Langner
Thursday, 19 February 2015
Thursday, 8 January 2015
Strength and Stamina
Hello everyone I have been training a lot lately. I have been running and going to the gym working out with my Dad. I have been learning a lot about myself doing this. For one I am not the type of person who enjoys doing any of this stuff; I find it boring. Then you ask me then why are you working out and running then? To tell you the truth I know all the standard reason on why working out is good for you like it will make you healthier, improve your cardio, and build some muscle, and lose weight. Oddly enough I don't do it for any of those reasons. I do want to be like that, but it is not my motivation. I am trying to become a cop so you have to be fit, but even then I don't think that is my motivation. I think my motivtion could be my Dad.
When I first started running I ran 3.2 kms non- stop and I was dead. My legs felt like jelly and I did not want to do it anymore, but then my Dad said you have to keep up with it or else you will see no progress. So I did it a second day same 3.2 kms, but I still did not see any improvement. Which is ridiculous for me to expect results that fast. Then by the time it was my 5th day of running my Dad said today we will be going 5 kms. I began to stress out, he told me to not to worry about it and just focus on my breathing. Which I did after the run I was dead again, and complaining to my father I am still out of breath and not getting any better. I took a day off then my Dad said let go to spruce and run in the parks. So we did. He told me we are going to run today 10 kms i looked at him like he was crazy, but we ended up starting anyways. Now I started to complain a lot around the 5 km mark and I told him I wanted to give up, but he just said keep going and breath. So eventually we actually complete the 10 kms and I was dead once again and feeling bad about myself still being out of breath and jelly legs. I felt like I should of done better I should be better. He just told me will do this again tomorrow. I was doubtful, but we did it again anyways. Each time we did it I was not happy and thought I was not seeing any results and I still was not enjoying running. Then he told me you acutally have improved a lot you are now running 10 kms in 1 hour and you are no longer breathing hard and you still have energy. In actuality I imporved a lot greatly in a short amout of time, but he pushed me every time we ran, becasue I was getting better. I can't belive I have been doing kung fu for this long and I never once thought of putting the same rules of getting better in kung fu as for getting better at running. I was not thinking cleary, because I was doing something I did not enjoy. In kung fu you do not get better, by just assuming you show up and do it two times and now you are a master.
You have to push yourself harder and continuously keep trying and showing up to improve upon yourself. If you don't do anything you will never see any improvement, if you try don't expect improvement to happen in 2 seconds. I know you have to work at it for a long time to get better at anything, and I have to open my eyes more when I actually do get better, because if I don't i won't be progressing wisely, I will be progressing recklessly. I know my blog kinda wonder a bit, but it just seems to be the way I write. As for why I do run and work out; it is definetly because of my Dad I enjoy doing stuff with him I want to become better so he can be proud of me and my accomplishments. I have learned that as a black belt I have so much more to learn, but I have to acknowledge my accomplishments and not be to hard on myself. It is good to have high standards, but I have to recognize too when I have met them. I will burn out if I don't. Everything I just put here are things I already knew, but some where I forgot about them. Anyways I hope what I wrote here makes sense and I would liked to say to everyone remember stay extraordinary (and recognize when you are extraordinary).
Sifu R. Langner
When I first started running I ran 3.2 kms non- stop and I was dead. My legs felt like jelly and I did not want to do it anymore, but then my Dad said you have to keep up with it or else you will see no progress. So I did it a second day same 3.2 kms, but I still did not see any improvement. Which is ridiculous for me to expect results that fast. Then by the time it was my 5th day of running my Dad said today we will be going 5 kms. I began to stress out, he told me to not to worry about it and just focus on my breathing. Which I did after the run I was dead again, and complaining to my father I am still out of breath and not getting any better. I took a day off then my Dad said let go to spruce and run in the parks. So we did. He told me we are going to run today 10 kms i looked at him like he was crazy, but we ended up starting anyways. Now I started to complain a lot around the 5 km mark and I told him I wanted to give up, but he just said keep going and breath. So eventually we actually complete the 10 kms and I was dead once again and feeling bad about myself still being out of breath and jelly legs. I felt like I should of done better I should be better. He just told me will do this again tomorrow. I was doubtful, but we did it again anyways. Each time we did it I was not happy and thought I was not seeing any results and I still was not enjoying running. Then he told me you acutally have improved a lot you are now running 10 kms in 1 hour and you are no longer breathing hard and you still have energy. In actuality I imporved a lot greatly in a short amout of time, but he pushed me every time we ran, becasue I was getting better. I can't belive I have been doing kung fu for this long and I never once thought of putting the same rules of getting better in kung fu as for getting better at running. I was not thinking cleary, because I was doing something I did not enjoy. In kung fu you do not get better, by just assuming you show up and do it two times and now you are a master.
You have to push yourself harder and continuously keep trying and showing up to improve upon yourself. If you don't do anything you will never see any improvement, if you try don't expect improvement to happen in 2 seconds. I know you have to work at it for a long time to get better at anything, and I have to open my eyes more when I actually do get better, because if I don't i won't be progressing wisely, I will be progressing recklessly. I know my blog kinda wonder a bit, but it just seems to be the way I write. As for why I do run and work out; it is definetly because of my Dad I enjoy doing stuff with him I want to become better so he can be proud of me and my accomplishments. I have learned that as a black belt I have so much more to learn, but I have to acknowledge my accomplishments and not be to hard on myself. It is good to have high standards, but I have to recognize too when I have met them. I will burn out if I don't. Everything I just put here are things I already knew, but some where I forgot about them. Anyways I hope what I wrote here makes sense and I would liked to say to everyone remember stay extraordinary (and recognize when you are extraordinary).
Sifu R. Langner
Sunday, 16 November 2014
What are blogs?
Hello once again, so where are you? and what are you doing?
ha ha made you stop and think, which is not a bad thing, obviously you are reading my blog and possibly just killing time. But what are you really doing when you read blogs? Do you become a better person for reading them? or do you comment to see if you can help, or just liked there blog? What does reading other people's blogs actually do? Well it can do a number of things, but it is up to you what those things are. Does a blog make you happy, sad, angry, inspired, what do they do for you? What I think for me reading someone elses blog is an opprotunity for me to grow as a person and do better understand someone emotionally sometimes. So what blogs, that you read and write are just a giant bag of opprotunity for you to take advantage of. Whether you dip your hand into that bag of opprotunity is up to you, and up to you how to use it. hmm this awfully sounds familar in what kung fu seems to offer, I wonder if they have a big bag of opprotunity as well?( by the way yes they do) Reading and writing blogs is a small way of letting you figure out the small opprotunity you get to have that can benifit you. Then eventually you can learn that you are surrounded by opprotunity, and now there seem like there so much for you to take now. But as I have learn its is the smallest opprotunitys that can change your life forever. Like how my friends grandparent messed up the name of the martial arts my friend was actually taking. Kung fu or Taekwondo. Such a small thing changed my life forever. So next time you read a blog stop and think what is actually happening to you at that very moment as you read the blog or write it, and take in that opprotunity you have just taken and possibly make it great. So remember everyone stay extrodinary.
Sifu R. Langner
ha ha made you stop and think, which is not a bad thing, obviously you are reading my blog and possibly just killing time. But what are you really doing when you read blogs? Do you become a better person for reading them? or do you comment to see if you can help, or just liked there blog? What does reading other people's blogs actually do? Well it can do a number of things, but it is up to you what those things are. Does a blog make you happy, sad, angry, inspired, what do they do for you? What I think for me reading someone elses blog is an opprotunity for me to grow as a person and do better understand someone emotionally sometimes. So what blogs, that you read and write are just a giant bag of opprotunity for you to take advantage of. Whether you dip your hand into that bag of opprotunity is up to you, and up to you how to use it. hmm this awfully sounds familar in what kung fu seems to offer, I wonder if they have a big bag of opprotunity as well?( by the way yes they do) Reading and writing blogs is a small way of letting you figure out the small opprotunity you get to have that can benifit you. Then eventually you can learn that you are surrounded by opprotunity, and now there seem like there so much for you to take now. But as I have learn its is the smallest opprotunitys that can change your life forever. Like how my friends grandparent messed up the name of the martial arts my friend was actually taking. Kung fu or Taekwondo. Such a small thing changed my life forever. So next time you read a blog stop and think what is actually happening to you at that very moment as you read the blog or write it, and take in that opprotunity you have just taken and possibly make it great. So remember everyone stay extrodinary.
Sifu R. Langner
Tuesday, 11 November 2014
Hello numbers
Hello everyone, I have really dropped the ball on journalling,but I am journalling now so here we go. What I am about to share is something that first made me appericate the mircale of the small things. When I was in high school a teacher challeged our class to write to a million. Our teacher bet his house, his car, and everything he had in his bank. If we could write to one million in 6 months. We all thought "what ane asy challege easy money here we come". The rules were that we had to hand write the number down and they had to be put in this form "1,2,3,4....ect." Well we all started to write to a million that day. Much to our surprise in about a week we did not have that much done yet, I think we got to around 3200. Everyone else in the class ended up giving up and decided that it was impossible. I was the only one left to keep going. I still belived that I could do it I just had to increase the amout of number I wrote a day. I just thought they had no ambition. I ended up writing 2000 numbers a day. I was doing this during school hour; not my smartest move, but I was determined. eventually I got to 10,000 and I was thinking off giving up, but then my teacher unintentionally challeged me again. He said the last time he asked his class to do this a kid wrote up to 23,000. I was now on a mission to destroy that kids accomplishment and do it better. So I continued to write the number. As I got higher in the number it was harder to keep my 2000 a day quota; also my hand was beginning to hurt. I eventually matched the prevouis kids number, now I wanted to destroy them and make sure no one else would ever try and beat my number. So I ended up writing 10,000 more than the previous person. Now about now it has been 6 months since I started writing to a million.I decided for sure now to throw in the towel, my hand was cramping a lot, and I was not paying attention in class. So I went up to my teacher and asked him if he would make a deal with me, since no other of his students ever got as high as me ( which I think was around 33,320) I offered to give him my binder of number for $50, He thought about it, then he said ok I will give you $50. It was a bitter sweet moment for me, because I was giving away 6 months of my time that I spent on these numbers for $50. Also I had all these numbers in a 2" binder with it decently full of paper with numbers on them. That day I learned just how big a million really was and I made $50. So when I Ho Chaun said lets do 50,000 push ups and sit ups I proably had a better understanding in what I was getting myself into. And the messed up part about this the 50,000 push ups and sit ups are easier to achieve then when I wrote to 33,320. mainly because no repeating yourself. example . 31,111 , 31,112, 31,113... etc. I got so sick of rewriting the same number, but in the end I learned a vauble lesson, and if I could go back, I would probaly still do it again. Anyways I guess that's my spiel so remmber stay extrodinary.
Sifu R. Langner
Sifu R. Langner
Saturday, 23 August 2014
Learning about Chi and my Kung Fu
Hello everyone in my black belt class I've been learning so many new things every time I go there. Sifu Brinker once said that he was jealous of white belts because everything they learn is all new to them and exciting and once you become a black belt that tends to almost completely be gone by then. For me it does not end there in black belt class it's like all the forms I ever did and all the techniques I ever did have become new again. I feel like a white belt at a black belt level thing seem new and exciting, yet I've done all these forms and techniques thousands of times already. The most recent thing were learning in Black belt class is feeling your chi in your forms. I have to tell you when I first focus on my chi while doing forms was crazy. After each form he made us to over again I felt very cold after finishing a form, but I would warm up later.
I Also found a technique in kempo 3 that for me uses chi to great lengths. Two moves before the three deep breaths near the end of kempo 3. I feel all my chi in my stomach then I blast it out in one direction (with the double fist) then the other, and in that moment I feel really cold, but then the next step is to take those three big breaths and for me that is where I take back some of the chi I have just released. So how can I not be really excited about kung fu when I'm still learning more about myself and about kung fu. Even as I talk now I am feeling more pumped up right now like I got to get up and do it right now.
Also another thing about chi, Sifu Brinker said before that when he does opening bow(past master east) he is already warmed up and ready to go and his blood is pumping. I thought I try and use my chi in the opening bow, and holy cow I finally felt what he was talking about I was ready to go I was pumped; it was so awesome. Now I have not been able to do this repeatably yet, mainly because for me I have to really focus to do it. It gets me to thinking that to truly be in that moment of the opening bow you have commit everything to it and when you do you get the feeling Sifu Brinker has talked about. It's no easy task, but so amazing at the same time.
Side note: I have yet to have a black belt class where I was not having my mind blown or mesmerized by something.
Well that's all for now so remember stay extraordinary. (side note 2: I just realized to spell extraordinary you need ordinary lol)
Sifu R. Langner
I Also found a technique in kempo 3 that for me uses chi to great lengths. Two moves before the three deep breaths near the end of kempo 3. I feel all my chi in my stomach then I blast it out in one direction (with the double fist) then the other, and in that moment I feel really cold, but then the next step is to take those three big breaths and for me that is where I take back some of the chi I have just released. So how can I not be really excited about kung fu when I'm still learning more about myself and about kung fu. Even as I talk now I am feeling more pumped up right now like I got to get up and do it right now.
Also another thing about chi, Sifu Brinker said before that when he does opening bow(past master east) he is already warmed up and ready to go and his blood is pumping. I thought I try and use my chi in the opening bow, and holy cow I finally felt what he was talking about I was ready to go I was pumped; it was so awesome. Now I have not been able to do this repeatably yet, mainly because for me I have to really focus to do it. It gets me to thinking that to truly be in that moment of the opening bow you have commit everything to it and when you do you get the feeling Sifu Brinker has talked about. It's no easy task, but so amazing at the same time.
Side note: I have yet to have a black belt class where I was not having my mind blown or mesmerized by something.
Well that's all for now so remember stay extraordinary. (side note 2: I just realized to spell extraordinary you need ordinary lol)
Sifu R. Langner
The Good, the Bad and the Ugly Part 3
Hello well this is the final installment to this blog series.
The Good
Well now that your all caught up with what has been happening to me it's about time to hear what I'm doing now. I had a long talk with my aunt, my Dad, my mom, Sharida Csillag, and most recently Jeff Brinker. They all had some great words to say to me and I thank all the people that took the time to talk to me. During all that depressed time the one thing that kept me going was my Friday night kung fu sessions. My black belt class, Sihing class, I Ho Chuan, and even San Sao; this day was my only anchor in life at the moment.
I had some talks that gave me a kick in the butt and others that got me to start thinking differently. I am no longer consumed by wanting a girlfriend; I still want one but it will happen when it happens. I still feel a little bad about what happened with my university, but I can move passed it now. Now thanks to my Dad I'm considering becoming a cop; so I have a goal in life again. Also I'm beginning to live life again it's no longer passing me by anymore. To be completely honest I'm still working through this depression of mine, but I'm no where near where I was a week ago; I'm definitely in a better mental state right now. Also I know my family would ever judge me harshly, because that is not the type of people you all are. It was just me overreacting and over thinking.
Also now I know that all depression has merit to everyone own problems, and should be treated seriously. Seeking help and dealing with it is better then saying that your depression is not as important as others; as I did. When I first got really depressed I was silent for far to long, but as soon as I started to talk with others I was becoming mentally and emotionally healed. Again I thank those that lent a listening ear and some encouraging advice.
My aunt is doing well my life seem to be getting back on track again. I'm no longer have the feelings I described in part 2. I have been planning over a week on how to write this blog and now that I have, I feel even lighter. With ever talk I went through I have been feeling lighter and lighter and with this blog series even lighter now. I only have up to go from here now. I thank all of you who took the time to read this little series and if there is one thing that I have learned in this month is that talking about it truly is the best way to get better. You might not feel the need to go public like I did, but for me this was the best way to let everyone know what is happening with me. I started with the private talks first and now this blog. I can tell you for sure a month ago I would not even been able to write any of this down. So with everything said this is the end of "The Good, the Bad and the Ugly" blog series and I hope we can all stay extraordinary.
Sifu R. Langner
The Good, the Bad and the Ugly Part 2
Hello well here is the next installment.
The Ugly
Well after all that happened and now becoming consumed by wanted a girlfriend so bad I began to become very much so mentally unstable, and very depressed. I also became very ashamed for being kicked out of university. I started to think that I had disappointed my family and everyone at kung fu and scared to tell anyone what happen; in fear of being judged harshly. At the same time when I found out I was kicked out of university I thought to myself I'm not completely upset that I got kicked out, because I was not happy in university and that made me feel worse.
Now that I was being consumed by wanting a girlfriend so bad, that I would feel my heart hurt so bad (literally) whenever I thought about not having a girlfriend. Then it got worse I began to feel ashamed for being as depressed as I was. I thought to myself I have so much positivity in my life and at my disposal; while others only wish they were in my situation. I have a loving family, great friends at kung fu, and of course kung fu itself. I started to think how selfish of me to be depressed over getting kicked out of university, almost losing my aunt, and not having a girl friend when I have so much else going in my life.
I guess you can say I was on a downward spiral in life it just got worse and worse. I started to not enjoy having game night with my mom and friends. I only did it because I was just keeping up appearances. I began to live life as nothing but an empty shell; life began to pass me by I was no longer apart of it I became an inconvenience to life. This is how I was thinking about myself I had so much hatred and depression for myself I shut down.
I will be ending this one here the last one The Good will be the next and again please leave any comment you might want to make till the last one.
Sifu R. Langner
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)