Hey everyone. There has been a lot happen in my life lately. Right now I'm writing my last blog and having my last night living with my parents. I have found a new place for myself to live in and I will finally be on my own. I should be feeling excited, but I couldn't be feeling further away from it. I feel scared, sad, worried, and I'm gonna miss living with my parents a lot. I'm mainly sad right now. I know moving out for me will have a lot of benefits and it is something that I know I need, but there is a part of me that wants to just call it off. I'm not, because it would cost me a lot of money to do so. I mainly sad about leaving my parents and just being by myself. I can take care of myself, I'm just worried mentally how I will deal with it and also I don't want to fail. It seems like I am moving so far away to the point that I will never see them again, but in reality I'm gonna be a simple 10 min drive from them. I know I will still see them on Fridays at least, or whenever I want, but I'm just feel hesitant.
Right now I am starting a new journey into my life and I'm freaked out. It is a necessary journey though and I know I will grow from it. Just need a bit of time.
Sifu R. Langner
Saturday, 29 September 2018
Sunday, 9 September 2018
I'M BACK!
Hello long time no see. So today for me was a pretty great day. I got to see and participate in the rotary run lion dance; which was amazing. Also I got to experience my first ever hunting for a place for myself today, and oh boy what a rush it was for me. I swear it was like I just jumped out of a plane. Just talking to this person and finally seriously I might be able to live on my own for once. I love my parents for everything they have done for me, and appreciate them for the best life they could give me. I know I will definitely miss having amazing tasty food to eat all the time. I just know right now that I need to be on my own and start developing my own life right now. I feel like I have been stalling for so long now because I always thought I would save up enough money to put a nice down payment onto a house someday, but life keeps happening and I am tired of waiting for life to work out. I am going to make it work for me. .
Thats all for now I am super tired and have to go to bed. Hopefully to see you all next week.
Sifu R. Langner
Thats all for now I am super tired and have to go to bed. Hopefully to see you all next week.
Sifu R. Langner
Sunday, 24 June 2018
Fights
So this blog will just be about my experience in fights and what I think in my opinion is best for if you have no other choice but to fight. Now I know in kung fu we do teach some nasty ways to take your opponent down, and other times to incapacitate them, but fights are never so logical. Mainly because of a few reasons. For one what if you panic and forget what to do, what if your opponent is a really good fighter, or what are you fighting for? Your life? your Family? or just a scuffle?
I have been in a lot of fights growing up; not because I wanted to, but I had no other choice. In my case I was just fighting bullies; so nothing life threatening. Once I had to start fighting; my adrenaline spiked really high and the whole fight became like slow motion for me. I was actually calm and went into the mind set of "they might be stronger then me, a better fighter then me, but I can guarantee you I am gonna win" Right off the hop I already through out the window of what most people make a mistake in and that is underestimating your opponent. If you do that your morale will go down if you find out they are stronger or better. All that matters is that you come out on top.
Now another thing I did was not hold back in a fight. That to me was another mistake a lot of people make when in a fight. You hold back your power, because you think you have delivered enough damage, but then they get back up seemingly unscathed and then your morale will go down and you might have already of lost the will to fight and then you lose. Never hold back I know this might be more situational, but I believe this to be the better of the two(holding back vs not holding back)
The last thing I did was I also had the mind set of not wanting to hurt my opponent. This sounds contradictory to everything I have said. Even knowing these people who made my life hell for years. I still did not want to hurt them, nor did I want to fight them. My goal and intent was to win as fast as possible and report to the right people to stop this madness and to cause minimal damage. I never punch anyone in the face, though many have tried on me. I Mainly hit them in the stomach whether they were standing or after I through them on the ground. After a few good kicks or punches to the stomach without holding back made them stay down and afforded me time to escape the fight. All my fights probably lasted no more than 30 to 45 seconds, but felt a lot longer than that. I never lost a fight, but I wish I never had to win one. There is a limit to how much damage you deal out, but that also depends on the thereat level. We have to use our best judgement on how to deal with an opponent. In my case these were just bullies. I can't help but to all ways think of what the other person might be going through.
I hope my insight to fighting might help someone if they ever have to fight, but honestly I hope no one ever has to. I hope that none of us is ever put into a situation where they might have to fight for their lives, or family's. I know I have the resolve to take a fight to the next level dependent on the situation, but as a last resort, no other option, it is me or them. I choose me.
You know being a fighter or a warrior sounds so simple. There are a few rules to follow and done, but to live and great and happy life is much harder to do. I believe our school helps you to be able to defend yourself, but most importantly helps us to understand the best way to live.
Sifu R. Langner
I have been in a lot of fights growing up; not because I wanted to, but I had no other choice. In my case I was just fighting bullies; so nothing life threatening. Once I had to start fighting; my adrenaline spiked really high and the whole fight became like slow motion for me. I was actually calm and went into the mind set of "they might be stronger then me, a better fighter then me, but I can guarantee you I am gonna win" Right off the hop I already through out the window of what most people make a mistake in and that is underestimating your opponent. If you do that your morale will go down if you find out they are stronger or better. All that matters is that you come out on top.
Now another thing I did was not hold back in a fight. That to me was another mistake a lot of people make when in a fight. You hold back your power, because you think you have delivered enough damage, but then they get back up seemingly unscathed and then your morale will go down and you might have already of lost the will to fight and then you lose. Never hold back I know this might be more situational, but I believe this to be the better of the two(holding back vs not holding back)
The last thing I did was I also had the mind set of not wanting to hurt my opponent. This sounds contradictory to everything I have said. Even knowing these people who made my life hell for years. I still did not want to hurt them, nor did I want to fight them. My goal and intent was to win as fast as possible and report to the right people to stop this madness and to cause minimal damage. I never punch anyone in the face, though many have tried on me. I Mainly hit them in the stomach whether they were standing or after I through them on the ground. After a few good kicks or punches to the stomach without holding back made them stay down and afforded me time to escape the fight. All my fights probably lasted no more than 30 to 45 seconds, but felt a lot longer than that. I never lost a fight, but I wish I never had to win one. There is a limit to how much damage you deal out, but that also depends on the thereat level. We have to use our best judgement on how to deal with an opponent. In my case these were just bullies. I can't help but to all ways think of what the other person might be going through.
I hope my insight to fighting might help someone if they ever have to fight, but honestly I hope no one ever has to. I hope that none of us is ever put into a situation where they might have to fight for their lives, or family's. I know I have the resolve to take a fight to the next level dependent on the situation, but as a last resort, no other option, it is me or them. I choose me.
You know being a fighter or a warrior sounds so simple. There are a few rules to follow and done, but to live and great and happy life is much harder to do. I believe our school helps you to be able to defend yourself, but most importantly helps us to understand the best way to live.
Sifu R. Langner
Sunday, 10 June 2018
Family talks
Hello so my family went through a bit of a rough patch this Saturday. Some things were said and some things were put into motion to heal. I am sorry for the not being specific, but this is not just my problem. I know I am talking about it sort of on here, but I just need to release a little but. So I blog. I can say right now that we are all doing good right now and we are slowly moving forwards onto the next step. I will say my Saturday was a long one, but we are a closer family because of it.
Well that's all I really can write about that. I'm sorry for missing the demo, I thought it was next week; I should of double checked. For the meeting well that was the whole family thing; so sorry for missing that as well, but we had to figure things out and could not just up and leave. I hope the demo was amazing and everyone had a great time.
You know I did get to learn a lot this weekend. I learned what my parents go through and what I am capable of accomplishing through calm speech and logical thinking. I think the whole remain calm when there is panic has a lot of merit to it. Now maybe some say well yeah of course remain calm, easy answer, but how many have to put it into practice. Instead of stressing over a job remain calm and figure out if you can do better, or do you need to move on, or come up with a way to cope with it better. It is really hard to figure stuff out when you are stressed. Again sounds like common sense, but how many people put it to practice.
Kung fu teaches us about having the ability to stay calm and to have patience, because through hard work and progressing wisely we will get to our goals eventually. We all have the potential to become what ever we want and do great and immeasurable things. From becoming a kung fu master, or just being a good person, or being a great doctor, or being the best parent. These to me are just some things we all have the potential to become and all of these things are amazing achievements. I believe I have the potential one day to become the best electrician out there. I wish I could say parent too, but kinda need to start with a girlfriend first. I want to be a really good martial artist.
So that's the rant for now have a good one.
Sifu R. Langner
Well that's all I really can write about that. I'm sorry for missing the demo, I thought it was next week; I should of double checked. For the meeting well that was the whole family thing; so sorry for missing that as well, but we had to figure things out and could not just up and leave. I hope the demo was amazing and everyone had a great time.
You know I did get to learn a lot this weekend. I learned what my parents go through and what I am capable of accomplishing through calm speech and logical thinking. I think the whole remain calm when there is panic has a lot of merit to it. Now maybe some say well yeah of course remain calm, easy answer, but how many have to put it into practice. Instead of stressing over a job remain calm and figure out if you can do better, or do you need to move on, or come up with a way to cope with it better. It is really hard to figure stuff out when you are stressed. Again sounds like common sense, but how many people put it to practice.
Kung fu teaches us about having the ability to stay calm and to have patience, because through hard work and progressing wisely we will get to our goals eventually. We all have the potential to become what ever we want and do great and immeasurable things. From becoming a kung fu master, or just being a good person, or being a great doctor, or being the best parent. These to me are just some things we all have the potential to become and all of these things are amazing achievements. I believe I have the potential one day to become the best electrician out there. I wish I could say parent too, but kinda need to start with a girlfriend first. I want to be a really good martial artist.
So that's the rant for now have a good one.
Sifu R. Langner
Sunday, 3 June 2018
Cracks
So I had an amazing day once again this Saturday. Our parade went amazing and oh boy did I get some drumming practice in. I really enjoyed seeing all the floats and the competition. There was this one float that had a similar theme to our float. I had to go check this float out. So me and kevin walk over and checked out "the competition" I will admit they looked pretty cool, but what I loved about checking them out was just before I went to check them out I had asked Jeff if he ever been challenged for his school. Now I have seen a few movies, and tv shows where some random person challenges the head master of the school and if they beat them they get to take there school. He told me back in the day there would be some groups of other schools waiting just outside the front doors so you had to sneak in and out in the back. I don't think he meant our school I am thinking it was even before that, but I could be wrong.
Anyways back on topic so after me and Kevin check out this group that is doing a Mulan theme float and they all look like martial artists. I turn around and see a group of martial artist(I Ho Chuan) approaching "the competition" I thought to myself "it's happening, it's on" Now I know nothing happened and we were all curious, but the whole setup for me was perfect.
Okay now to get to the reason why I named this one cracks. It is because of my drumsticks. Playing so much that day had cause my drumsticks to crack and start to splinter. Now this might sound bad and it is not like I want it to break. I would love if it was strong the whole time and never cracked or showed wear and tear, but then you would not be able to see the progress you have been making. If you ever used something over and over again and it keeps wearing down to the point of not working properly anymore. To me all these cracks, rips, tears are all signs of a person training hard in doing something they love. I have torn many uniforms at kung fu, just because they have been used and abused for so long that the fabric could no longer take it. There is a few different way to look at things being worn down, but right now this is how I am looking at it. All my practice on the drum, in, my car, on our chairs at home, on my chest are finally showing some progress. I am one step closer to becoming a better drummer, or I hit to hard, BUT for now assume the first. I look forward to becoming better and learning more about drumming. I will conquer you someday thunder drumming.
After the parade I had a bbq with dan and mel, then we went to go see DP 2 (Deadpool 2) It was super fun and DP 2 was just as good as the first one. I know I sort of took a sharp turn at the end of the blog, but I had to mention that because I just had a blast, and DP 2 was awesome.
Sifu R. Langner
Anyways back on topic so after me and Kevin check out this group that is doing a Mulan theme float and they all look like martial artists. I turn around and see a group of martial artist(I Ho Chuan) approaching "the competition" I thought to myself "it's happening, it's on" Now I know nothing happened and we were all curious, but the whole setup for me was perfect.
Okay now to get to the reason why I named this one cracks. It is because of my drumsticks. Playing so much that day had cause my drumsticks to crack and start to splinter. Now this might sound bad and it is not like I want it to break. I would love if it was strong the whole time and never cracked or showed wear and tear, but then you would not be able to see the progress you have been making. If you ever used something over and over again and it keeps wearing down to the point of not working properly anymore. To me all these cracks, rips, tears are all signs of a person training hard in doing something they love. I have torn many uniforms at kung fu, just because they have been used and abused for so long that the fabric could no longer take it. There is a few different way to look at things being worn down, but right now this is how I am looking at it. All my practice on the drum, in, my car, on our chairs at home, on my chest are finally showing some progress. I am one step closer to becoming a better drummer, or I hit to hard, BUT for now assume the first. I look forward to becoming better and learning more about drumming. I will conquer you someday thunder drumming.
After the parade I had a bbq with dan and mel, then we went to go see DP 2 (Deadpool 2) It was super fun and DP 2 was just as good as the first one. I know I sort of took a sharp turn at the end of the blog, but I had to mention that because I just had a blast, and DP 2 was awesome.
Sifu R. Langner
Sunday, 27 May 2018
Learning
Hello. So this pandamodium was a great success; of making people more aware of our five charity's. This was our first year without doing 24 hours of kung fu, but this also might be the first time it really felt all about the charity's. They were the star and shined like one. Not saying every other year was not about them, just this year seemed more focused.
I enjoyed teaching other about whats so cool about northern lights wolf center. I loved the idea of people getting to know more about the charity's. Then you ask then what they think, and if they did not say a lot, I really enjoyed letting them know more. Also got to enjoy talking and setting up the day with my fellow I ho chaun members and kung fu class mates.
I really enjoyed my first ever lion dance drumming. I learned a lot about my self and those around me. I learned I get really tense when I am nervous and makes drumming a lot harder, but still fun. I also learned that a few people are going through the stage fright I used to when ever we performed a demo. I was so bad that I would black out during my performance and not even remember what I just did. I don't fear demos like I used to. I would not say I'm not nervous about doing a good job, but I can handle it a lot better and I know I can do any demo we do now with no fear.
I am no longer Randy Langner the shy, fearful, self-loathing, feel really sick at any social event(still kinda if it is really social stuff, but way better now). I'm Randy Langner the wears costumes, plays drums,want to help out, not fearful, some what confident( still working on this one:) ) self believing, wants to make myself and those around me better then they already are, person.
I May not be in the best of shape now but I know I will accomplish this goal of mine to become fit again. It will take time, but not impossible. I have lost weight once before I can do it again.
I also learned to appreciate the smallest of gestures, like having getting "1000" high fives, or simply getting someone water, or showing of a smile to brighten ones day. It was truly a great day. Hope everyone ahas a great day.
Sifu R. Langner
I enjoyed teaching other about whats so cool about northern lights wolf center. I loved the idea of people getting to know more about the charity's. Then you ask then what they think, and if they did not say a lot, I really enjoyed letting them know more. Also got to enjoy talking and setting up the day with my fellow I ho chaun members and kung fu class mates.
I really enjoyed my first ever lion dance drumming. I learned a lot about my self and those around me. I learned I get really tense when I am nervous and makes drumming a lot harder, but still fun. I also learned that a few people are going through the stage fright I used to when ever we performed a demo. I was so bad that I would black out during my performance and not even remember what I just did. I don't fear demos like I used to. I would not say I'm not nervous about doing a good job, but I can handle it a lot better and I know I can do any demo we do now with no fear.
I am no longer Randy Langner the shy, fearful, self-loathing, feel really sick at any social event(still kinda if it is really social stuff, but way better now). I'm Randy Langner the wears costumes, plays drums,want to help out, not fearful, some what confident( still working on this one:) ) self believing, wants to make myself and those around me better then they already are, person.
I May not be in the best of shape now but I know I will accomplish this goal of mine to become fit again. It will take time, but not impossible. I have lost weight once before I can do it again.
I also learned to appreciate the smallest of gestures, like having getting "1000" high fives, or simply getting someone water, or showing of a smile to brighten ones day. It was truly a great day. Hope everyone ahas a great day.
Sifu R. Langner
Sunday, 25 March 2018
Remember Myself
Hello everyone I am currently on the up and up path. I hope to stay in that way forever. I had a good talk about letting the wrong guy making the decisions. I once made a lot of good decisions and committed to those decisions. I was reminded that I can choose which guy drives my life. I am the master of my life and currently on a path of trying to appreciate, and except myself for who I really am.
I forgot that I was a guy who told others what he had planned to do then followed through with those plans. I forgot I was a guy who wanted to take the ordinary and make it extraordinary. I forgot I do have time for kung fu in my life. I say was but I am that guy and hope to stay as that guy.
I consider myself really lucky, because most people like me when they get depressed don't have an arsenal of tools and opportunity to get themselves out of that situation. I have Family, Friends, and the 2nd family at kung fu, and myself. I have all of these things to help me become the best person I can become. I also hope to return the favor someday.
Well that it for now hope to see you all next time.
Sifu R. Langner
I forgot that I was a guy who told others what he had planned to do then followed through with those plans. I forgot I was a guy who wanted to take the ordinary and make it extraordinary. I forgot I do have time for kung fu in my life. I say was but I am that guy and hope to stay as that guy.
I consider myself really lucky, because most people like me when they get depressed don't have an arsenal of tools and opportunity to get themselves out of that situation. I have Family, Friends, and the 2nd family at kung fu, and myself. I have all of these things to help me become the best person I can become. I also hope to return the favor someday.
Well that it for now hope to see you all next time.
Sifu R. Langner
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