Covid

I would say my minds a jumble right now. I am having a hard time putting thoughts into words and what to write. I know the cause of this though. It is my lack of engagement in blogging and kung fu. How do I become more engaged? It is not a question I don't know the answer to, but the follow through and consistent action I lack. i have been giving a lot of opportunities to act and better myself in my kung fu, but have not utilized to the best of my ability.
 I keep thinking this will all end soon enough and things will be back to normal, but it never will be and I am accepting of that now.
  Some people will now live with a new fear they were not aware of until covid came. I would say I am not afraid of it, but still understand it is not what it could do to me, but what it could do the people I care about the most. To me this concept has always been true. I may be more aware of it now, but does  not change the fact that disease and viruses still exist. Me possibly infecting the people i most care about has always been in my life, just now it is more feared.
  I should feel okay saying my opinion on this, but I don't. I am unsure on whether or not people will think I'm ignorant or right. I don't judge other for when they tell me they are full lockdown and not going to risk no matter what, or the other side where the still act like nothing has changed and they live there lives as usual. I am not talking about the extremes either, because I don't support the extreme measures some people might take. From buying 25 packages of toilet paper to coughing in your hands then just touching everything in the store.
 I have changed in my personal hygiene and trying to respect everyone's wishes of 6 feet.
  You know I was told how careless of me when I went to Jasper with my girlfriend and 6 kids. I took them out to see mountains then we drove home. I enjoyed this trip and so did the kids, because most of them never seen a mountain in person before. I ask how is this careless? I was around literally no one. But it is okay to go to walmart where you easily run into way more people than I encountered on my trip. So at the time the wide open spaces were irresponsible, but a walmart where you don't know if everyone is taking the clean your hands after you sneeze or cough seriously is responsible? I know people still need food and essentials to survive, but how was being easily 30km from anyone else considered irresponsible?
I am not looking for answers, because I know my stance, and I don't look to change anyone elses. This whole covid thing has been everyone own personal responsibility to act accordingly. Now what that may Intel might differ to one another, but the most important thing it what you did to react, for your loved ones, what you thought was best.
 On our trip we brought hand sanitizer, and gloves for me when I needed to fill up on gas. From what I have been reading about covid it seems like to stop from contracting it is to practice regular cleaning.
   I have read a lot about the covid and read a lot of stories. To me this seems more deadly, because it is being documented more and everyone right now could tell you how many have died and survived and are infected right now.
 For me I am still doing my part to respect everyone elses way of reacting to covid, but there is very little respect for what I am doing. It is not like I am going out and coughing on other, and trying to spread germs. I am simply adjusting to this new world where others are filled with fear. I am not filled with fear, but with what our alberta chief medical officer has said and the WHO organization. They say pretty much practice basic sanitary practices stay home whenever you can, and social distancing. I know I don't really do the last two all that much, but I practice the first one that will help prevent it. I try to do the 6 feet at grocery store, as best I can, not always possible.
  I was lucky that I was able to keep going to work, so staying home was not an option. I am not sure how this blog will do. I am sorry if this has upset anyone. Not my intent or goal. The only people I see are my girlfriend, my roommates, and my parents in person. Everyone that is in contact with me, we have already discussed the risks and what we do differently. I have some other friends as well I have not seen for awhile either because of there wish to not visit during theses times. I respect that. I am personally glad that they are re opening and maybe there could be a second wave, and maybe there could be a meteor to hit us tomorrow. I won't play the what may or may not happen game, because I could play that game with everything and apply the same rules. I could die driving to work tomorrow and kill a family and it was my fault because I was tired. It could happen, I can't predicted the future so I won't let that possible scenario tell me not to go to work and just go and hope for the best and do everything in my power to make sure that does not happen. I will control what I can do in my environment so that it does not infringe on other, but serves me and my loved ones.
   
Sifu Langner
 

Foggy Will

Hello it's been awhile since I have blogged. I also realized that I missed to write it yesterday; when I said I would. I am sorry for that. I have had great life accomplishments in my life as of this month. I have become officially a journeyman electrician and also have been getting closer to my girlfriend.
   I find myself right now with a foggy mind. A state of limbo. I find myself a bit lost with my kung fu this year. I really wanted a great year this year and it all came to a screeching halt when some random person wanted to fight me. I was making an attempt to not let my bad shoulders control me again, not let my attitude degrade again. I wanted to change.
  I believe this time I am better than last time and that I have been able to keep my very negative attitude down.
  I know for a fact I will still have an amazing year because I have to believe that I can achieve this. It really helps that my relationship is going good and that, my job is going very good, and I am not in a deep depression.
  I have always had an easy time believing in others and wanting them to succeed, but believing in myself was probably the hardest thing I have ever tried to achieve. It is easy to say I will try, because now I have gave myself a possible future excuse to fail. It is harder to say I will do, because now I have made a promise and breaking that promise carries a heavy weight; depending how much you value your word.
  I for one value my word quite highly and feel really bad when I don't come through with it. I have learned it is always easy to say I will or I can, but there must absolutely be a follow through with action. Not only do I have to believe in what I say, but follow through with what I say.
   It can get dangerous if I start saying I will do, but not following through, because now I won't be valuing my word and disregarding my life, and the feelings of others. I know I have faltered om my word sometimes, but I don't want that to be me I want to be the person who can say I will do and follow through. I will become that person. I will have a great kung fu year.

Sifu Langner      

Struggle vs. Attitude

Hello I have been struggling a lot lately ever since I lost the ability to do push ups and sit ups. ON top of these things I have a soar throat that makes it hurt to talk and breath. I feel as though I was on a high of being able to do push ups and sit ups again, and participating in kung fu again, yet most of it all got taken away in a blink of an eye(physically). Mentally kung fu has never left my side.
   It's certainly frustrating I have been through this song and dance before and it is no less frustrating now then when I first went through something like this. The only big difference this time is I know what to do and what to expect. I have a plan and I am executing it. I have been giving the go ahead to do these push ups called shoulder tap. It's where I go into a push up position and use one hand to touch one shoulder then switch. I can currently do 10 right now. I will be doing proper push ups again someday, just need to be smart about how I treat my shoulders and do my physio exercises to the best of my ability.
  It kinda feel like right now I ran a 100 km marathon to better shoulders and health, and as I was about to finish that run I was told there will be another 100 kms added here so deal with it. I know life will happen again it is just I was hoping to feel good physically longer then a short burst. But I could wish all I want it won't change the state I am in now. What I can do and I am doing is changing my attitude of how to deal with this situation. Writing and talking about what I am doing and what I am going to do and achieve helps me a lot in the keeping optimistic apartment.
  I will get through this again and this time enjoy the journey to get there. My life is going through major changes right now. I have my very first girlfriend and she makes me so happy, and starting next week I will become a journeyman electrician. I have a lot more responsibilities in life now and I am nervous, but at the same time enjoying the experience.


Sifu Langner 

Curve Ball

So this year I had planned to do better in my push ups and sit ups, and of course I get thrown a curve ball. I got into a fight defending myself against a person who made a poor decision. They decided that it was worth risking jail time for something so insignificant. I won't go into the details, but we grappled twice and he Sucker punch me twice.
 The after math of that fight is I got a bunch of scratches on my face and a sore shoulder. I can't really do push ups anymore, because it puts to much strain on my shoulder and it hurts a lot. Then I started to develop a sore neck. Then at work I did something to aggravate the sore neck to the point of me waking up the next day and I could barely move. So now I can't do sit ups or leg lifts, because it hurts my neck to much.
  So it all seems like it is going down hill from an early start into the new year. Already are my plans have been ruined. So as a wise person said it's about how you react to the Situation and how I am going to bounce back. I am not going to let this de-rail me. I have set my course and achieve my goal of doing better in my push ups and sit ups. I will still participate this Saturday in the 1000 lear year push ups and sit ups. I will have to do it differently, but it's better then choosing to do none. I don't know if my body the way it is now can handle doing a thousand of something, but I will do what I am cable of. 
  I won't be ashamed that if I can't do 1000, but I will give it my all until my body say done. It would be irresponsible of me if I did not listen to what my body is telling me right now. There is a difference between pushing yourself beyond your limits to achieve the extraordinary, and recklessly doing more damage to yourself to the point of irreversible damage. So I will come up with something to do a 1000 of  this saturday and achieve my goals. 



Sifu Langner 
  

So Tired

I have just started this new job in Drayton valley. This job is definitely gonna test my mental and physical state when it comes to my kung fu. I am the worst morning person ever. I really struggle to wake up even if I get enough sleep. I actually do really well with night shift. The only problem is with night is I no longer have a life.
  So the thing is I have to drive 1 hour and 15 mins to there everyday, and of course the same back. I know its not the longest anyone has had to travel to a job, but it is for me. Every morning once I gain any consciousness I feel so heavy and tired; moving at all is a chore. I wish I could just start drinking coffee, but I don't like the taste. I set two alarms for myself, because I am very good at turning off one of them in my sleep.
  Once I get to work it takes me at least an hour to finally get into the swing of things. The big test for me is going to have enough mental and physical fortitude to keep my promises with my numbers, and going to classes.
   I have no intention to miss. I just know myself well enough that I will be really exhausted after work. Its not that my job is insanely hard. I do work hard and enjoy it thoroughly. It's just the mix of knowing I wont get enough sleep  for the day, and the long drive, and still keeping up what I want to accomplish. This for me will be a challenge, but I am determined to keep up with my numbers, and to keep up with my kung fu. I WILL ACCOMPLISH THIS GOAL.


Sifu Langner 

Leap Year 1000

I am actually enjoying for the first time since I joined I Ho Chuan recording my number. It's not like I have not recorded them before, but I always found it to be quite laborious. I would put one more tick down and see just another tick. I would reach 5,000 or 10,000 and I would not care.
  This year seems different I look forward to adding whatever tick I can get and I really enjoy seeing the numbers go up. The different thing I doing this year is a different attitude and a different approach. I am approaching this year as I have a set schedule of accomplishing my push ups and sit ups, but not beating myself up whenever I miss a day. I just know I will keep going and not give up. Its super important to when I miss a day is that I get right back to my schedule push ups and sit ups right away. The world has not stopped because I missed a day, nor have I fallen behind. Everyday will not always be perfect for Getting my numbers in, but I don't stop just because I might not be on schedule anymore. I will keep going.
   Some days I might not get in all the numbers I wanted, but I fit what I can. If shoulders start to hurt, I do tricep push ups, or wall push ups. If my tail bone hurts, or I develop a rug burn on my back, I do leg lifts. There is always a way to accomplish my goals.
  I have certainly chained my altitude, from a chore to a useful tool to keep me motivated. I have had days where doing 10 push ups was my limit due to my shoulders, and that's okay because I am not giving up.
 Also for the title now I thought it would be cool if we could all do 1000 push ups and sit ups on the leap year this year. Even if all you can do is 10 it will be great if we all can participate in this. I Would love to know who wants to join me that day??? it falls on a Saturday :)

Sifu Langner

One Step

I am going to approach this year of I Ho Chuan one step at a time. I have been re-evaluating my life lately. I realized I have been trying to accomplish the end goal so fast I have been messing up on the journey to my goal. How I get to my goal is the most important step into achieving anything in life.
   Somewhere in my life I forgot this. I need to apply this way of thinking even into my daily way of living.
With work, relationships, personal growth, and of course kung fu.
 Step one Learn and absorb everything I can, listen and communicate, don't ignore how I feel, record everything and practice



Sifu Langner