Weird experience

I had a very poor week again of kung fu. I was having stomach issues where I could not keep food down and then one day it got weird for me. I was just ready to leave the bathroom and all of a sudden I got light headed, dizzy, and all numb in all limbs. I had to lie down on the bathroom floor.

 I was barely functional enough to get down to the floor, but once I got there I was on my side. I was going in and out of almost black out. I don’t know how long I was there on the floor, but I had no idea what happened to me. 

 Eventually I was finally not crashing out or anything and I could move again. To be fair I was not trying to move while I was on the ground, but eventually I was able to get up and like nothing happened. 

  I did go to bed right after and fell asleep. Since then I have been better and feeling better as well.  It was just weird experience I have never had before. 

  My week had the best of intentions of more kung fu, but intentions only get me so far. Action is what I need and to do. I’m currently in my cheer leading phase. I wish, I want, I hope, but I don’t do. I could say all the right things until I’m blue in the face; means nothing if I don’t do.

  I am my own worse enemy, sometime life takes my decisions out of my hands, but for most of it I block myself from making progress. Nothing is holding me back except me. I don’t write here right now that I will practice more, because I have broken that promise to many times. So now if I say it, it means nothing. 

  All I know is I need to start making better choices in my life. Thats all there is to it. No perfect moment, or right time, just me mentally and physically taking ownership and pride in who I want to be. I exist to breathe right now and that’s it. I have fun with my family once or twice a week then I stall. 

 

 Just do it. 

I have no numbers again. I am happy you are still reading my blogs that I write. I say I appreciate it and I really mean it. Every time I have said thank you on here I have always truly meant it. So thank you for reading

  

 

Trying Something New

   So I would say my kung fu has taken a bit of a backseat this past week. I decided to try a new possibility for myself. In the sense of career. I am still going to look and work electrical jobs when I can get them, but I’d figure I finally attempt something I have been hmmm and ahhhing about for the past 10 years. That is making a YouTube channel.

  I have been looking at YouTube for so long and learning how some channels succeed and how some fail, or even disappear. I would say I am not trying this as a get quick rich idea. I am doing this because, I have always wanted to try, but did not think I could actually succeed. I have seen so many rise and fall of so many YouTube channels and they all have the same pattern. 

  If the channel was disciplined in releasing often and putting the time and effort into editing, wether it be hired or done by the creator; they all became a bigger channel that more people wanted to see, and as soon as they pulled back and lost their discipline their channel died, or fell of for multiple other reasons.

  I never ever tried, because I always thought I don’t have the charisma that the successful one’s do, but I learned that you can still become successful through developing your charisma and the content you want to show. Passion.

  I found myself diving into all of this and really trying to learn how to edit and upload, thumbnail art. It consumed me entirely, and then I chose to ignore kung fu. Which is the wrong choice. I know for a successful channel it could possibly take me up to 3 years to finally start seeing results. 

  It does not mean I still can’t keep kung fu in my life. I planned my days poorly and filled my days with laziness. I did do a lot of research and poured a lot of time on starting my channel and learning right now how to do some basic editing, but I was not dedicate all day doing this. I rested and watched my YouTube I like to watch.

  I will for sure fail any type of YouTube career if I follow this path. Kung fu makes me a better person when I train and practice kung fu. When I make it apart of my life not only at work but on my down time especially. 

  I definitely made progress on my YouTube channel, but I fell off on my kung fu progress. I’m sorry I let you all down in that aspect and I am sorry to myself for depriving myself of the great  opportunities and experiences that kung fu offers me.

  As you might of already guessed but no real number change this week. So I will say thank you for being on this journey with me and reading my blogs week after week. I will start making better choices, but right now my words don’t mean much right now. Action is what will set me free.

Do It Especially When You Don’t Want To

 I need to establish a schedule that I can try to complete and sustain some sort of routine. I met someone who has a commitment to excellence especially when they don’t want to do it. This person was disciplined. I was showed examples of when he did not want to go and work out, and with a bit of a sigh he said I guess I will still go anyways.

 Having the mental fortitude to stay consistent on days you would rather do nothing is powerful. It is a muscle that needs working out as well. He has a busy life and he still manages to strive for excellence. 

 I believe it all comes down to his priorities. He has going to the gym high up on his list and will try and achieve it with the best of his situation. Prioritizing health and fitness over going home and simply lazing about. Being lazy is easy, but being highly engaged in your life and family is extraordinary.

 I thought about how I saw him and how his life seems pretty awesome. I had to hold myself back from starting a pity party for myself. He works hard for what he has and it is something to admire and learn from, not resent and bring in jealousy. 

 I will use my experience with him to help build me to become a better person. I have met a lot of amazing people in my life and for the short amount of time I met this man has changed my way of thinking. I saw a someone who did not settle for the easy route, but also it was not easy for him to pursue the extraordinary path. 

  Normally when I see people like him they are always high energy, or very positive for most of the time and they make it look easy to achieve what they have. I know these type of people work just as hard, but I rarely get to see the struggle. I normally get to see the surface of who they are then they disappear from my life.

I got the rarest of opportunities to see the mindset of I don’t want to go the gym at all, and then they went anyways. I have heard stories and have done it myself, but it has been a long time since an event like this has happened. 

 My kung fu engagement was low this week. I did do some gym stuff, but I was still lacking in kung fu. I have had some bumps in the road and family issue to take care of, but bumps in the road will always show. I just need to keep recovering from the bumps. 

Thank you all for reading this blurp once again. The mental fortitude you all have is a strong skill you all keep working on and developing. Anyways here are some numbers:

Acts of kindness: 900

Km: 1000

Sit ups: 6350

Push ups: 6350

Da mu hsing: 116

Drum stick form: 142

Spar: 108

Discipline Equals Freedom

  I was at the gym and normally places like this might have inspirational imagery or quotes and this place was no exception. The last great quote I saw that was motivational was “ even if all you can do is swim one lap, that’s more than the person on the couch did” I like this one but this new one really got me thinking about what those 3 little words mean “Discipline equals Freedom”

  Being disciplined in something you are trying to accomplish can yield results, but I never thought about what else it could offer. If I am disciplined in losing weight I will lose weight. It is the freedom that took me by surprise. I never really truly thought about how being disciplined in something can set you free.

  If I am disciplined in losing weight and accomplish that, I am free in the knowledge on how to live a healthier life style and feel better about myself. Having discipline also can bring knowledge about what you are trying to accomplish and eventually you will become more knowledgeable about said discipline. Which in turn set you free into more opportunities. 

I never really realized how much freedom you can get after the hard work and continued hardworking that the freedom that comes after. Having the knowledge and the know how thanks to being disciplined has unlimited potential.

  It is not like I never experienced being disciplined, it just never made me realize how powerful it can be after you remained disciplined to equal freedom. When I am disciplined I am happier, more motivated, more confident. Why? Because the discipline yielded me that freedom. 

  If I want change in my life I start by being honest with myself. Knowing that the key to my success is discipline seems like the magic pill I was waiting for. It seems weird that I always knew about the answer, but I was waiting to see the inspirational message.

 I have always noticed that sometime lots of people could be telling you, or advising you on what they think could help, or be the solution to your problems. As most people do including me I don’t hear it. I feel as though the reason why we don’t hear them yet, is because we are not ready to listen. 

 I know there has been moments in my life where I was told something to do and then did not do it, but then a friend said the same thing as this other person and now it makes sense. I was ready to listen.

  So even knowing I have learned the benefits in being disciplined, I was not listening yet. Now a simple 3 words on the wall I read has opened my eyes“Discipline Equals Freedom” 

  My Kung fu has been ok this passed week, but it will get better. The frequency in how much I practice is what will get better.

  Thanks you for reading my blog it actually means a lot to me that you all do this. Anyways here are some numbers.

Acts of kindness: 800

Km: 900

Sit ups: 6200

Push ups: 6200

Da mu hsing: 115

Drum stick form: 140

Spar: 108

Timing

 I need to pick better times to write my blogs. Leaving it to the end of day is not a responsible decision I did. I was getting ready to write my blog last night and I fell asleep thinking of what to write. It was late and I woke up today feeling bad I missed my day for blogging. I could not write anything until now on my lunch break. So I am sorry for not keeping my promise for writing at least once a week.

 Blogging will always be the greatest tool at my disposal. It helps me grow as a person. Blogging might not always be my favorite activity, but it will always be the most important to me. It is a time for me to think about me and what am I doing right now. Am I practicing kung fu? am I engaged in life? How am I doing in general?These are the questions I ask myself when I am getting ready to blog. Sometime I will have some plan of what type of blog I will write, but things change. 

I had no real plans yesterday for a blog idea, but I was determined to write before I sleep; Clearly sleep won . I woke up with a white screen staring back at me. 

  I will say as far as my mental and physical state goes I am in a really good place write now for kung fu. I am getting better numbers and making better progress. Normally kung fu starts to die off, but so far it is staying alive.

Unfortunately I am running out of time to blog, because my lunch break is almost over, but I had to write my blog today as soon I was able to. Another minute without writing my blog continues to build my guilt for not keeping my promise. So to get rid of some of my guilt I am writing one now. I still feel bad that I missed the deadline, but me just waiting until next Sunday is not an option.

Well I thank you all for reading this blog today. It is definitely not my best blog, but a wake up call for me to get my schedule under control for blogging. Anyways here are some numbers

Acts of kindness: 750

Km: 800

Sit ups: 5900

Push ups: 5900

Da mu hsing: 108

Drum stick form: 135

Source of Energy

     I have found when I go through lulls of inactivity in kung fu I become unmotivated in life. I could say simply being inactive causes that as well, but during my work schedule I was going to a gym and I was feeling slightly better, but still empty. When I practice kung fu it fills me with energy and motivation. Doing the forms brings me joy and participation in classes when I can brings me motivation for something better. 

  Going to a gym and simply working out is good for my health, but I’m usually super bored and just looking forward to when it ends. I do give it my all and try to do good in the gym, but it’s repetitiveness that does have value, but it is boring. I am not a huge music listener so it does not help me for gym work. I usually listen to something I like on YouTube. I find value in exercising often I just wish it was more fun to put it simply.

    When I participate in kung fu my eyes and mind are wide open and burning to learn as much as I can. I don’t remember ever having a class that was boring. I am always astonished for how long I have been doing kung fu and I am still learning new things about forms I have done many times. 

  Kung fu gives me renewed energy when I prioritize it in my life. I do have a bad habit of putting kung fu on the back burner, but that’s due to sheer laziness. I don’t need music or YouTube in the background to practice kung fu I just need kung fu. I need to sort out my priorities and put kung fu higher on my list again.

    Hard work and discipline would be so much better if it was fun to do. Kung fu gives me the experience of having that fun when I do it. I get to understand what gym goers always tell me that someday I will feel off if I miss a gym day. I have never once felt that in a gym. It could be maybe I have not gone long enough to be fair. The longest stint I ever did at a gym was 3 months continuous and I never got that feeling of wanting to go to the gym. 

  I only realized recently that kung fu gives me that feeling. When I am in it and going to all the classes I feel amazing, but if I miss some I feel as I missed out on something amazing. Which is most likely true. Kung fu for me is a source of truly extraordinary miracles. It’s like the saying “if you build it they will come” but for Kung fu” if you practice it you will grow”. Kung fu is an endless fountain of growing opportunities. 

     My kung fu has being a little better this past week. I’m still not doing zero, but my numbers are getting slightly better. I can do better and I will. I have to be happy that I’m not doing zero. That this has to be good news for me. I have to believe it to be a positive. I am simply trying to convince myself that I did good and it ok. I will do better but I’m trying to acknowledge the effort. I have a lot of negative things I want to say, but I’m not going to write it. I am trying to reinforce positivity. I know I can do better. Just a little bit at a time. 

    I may never be the most fit person ever, or the person who is the most talented, but I will be the person who always keeps trying. Doing 1 is better than 0 doing more than 1 is better. Doing something is always better.

   Thank you everyone again for reading my blog. It’s kinda funny I go into the blog with intentions of doing a shorter one, but it always ends up becoming a long one. Anyways here are some numbers: 

Acts of kindness: 650

Km: 700

Sit ups: 5500

Push ups: 5500

Da mu hsing: 93

Drum stick form: 125

Spar: 108

Late, Tired, Sleepy.

  All I want to do right now is sleep. It was a long day and as I lay my head to rest, I remembered it was Sunday; blogging time. 

 I have put in my life right now as blogging is a high priority for me. It is my life line to me and kung fu. If I miss a week, even if it was a reasonable excuse, I will fall off. Every time I started skipping or not writing my blogs is when my life and kung fu get worse.

 Blogging is the very tool that has changed my life. I don’t personally like writing these blogs all the time, but it keeps me engaged in life and more focused on kung fu. Blogging forces me to see my flaws and see my successes. I see the great value blogging has to offer me and I try to use it. 

  If I lived in my comfort zone I would not blog. It can be tedious, and sometimes keeping me awake before I go to bed. I still go to blogs because they are a source of extraordinary events and miracles. If I use the blog it will help me build a better person. 

  Even knowing I said some negative things about blogging. I would recommend anyone to start blogging if they are going through something. It might not fix, or will, but one thing for sure it will help. Not an instant fix, but a start.

 Blogging might be the greatest tool I was ever given. 

   My mind is a fuzzy right now and I’m not sure if I was coherent in my blog, but I hope you all had a great day and of course thank you for reading my fuzzy blog.

Anyways here are some numbers:

Acts of kindness: 600

Km: 600

Sit ups: 5150

Push ups: 5150

Da mu hsing: 85

Drum stick form: 119

Spar: 108