Kung fu and Life

 So integrating kung and life as one has always been a goal of mine. I have achieved it before and was successful doing so, but life can throw some curve balls at me and that tends to be the moment I put kung fu on the wayside. So instead of using the resources and lessons I have used from kung fu I tend to stop using them. Maybe not 100 percent , but normally drastically less.

  I tried using some kung fu to help me with my friend who now has lost a friend and now getting ready for putting my dog down. This Thursday will be the day I say goodbye to a very dear friend; my dog. 

 My dog Sammy is getting worse. He is no longer really eating and has been puking a lot. I am very sad the day is coming but it is indeed another way to look at taking care of him one last time. Thanks for the comment on last blog.

 I feel it would be crueler to keep him living longer while he suffers. Sammy has liver, kidney, and heart disease, also his front teeth hurt him. He is at a stage there is nothing we can do for him and being 16 no surgery is on the table. 

 I saw a post one time saying “there is only one bad day when you have an animal companion” and unfortunately for me that day is getting closer. I know it will be better for him, but it still hurts.

 Now the kung fu side of things I’m using it on. I have been trying to focus on keeping busy, by practicing my kung fu and doing my push ups and sit ups. Normally in situations like this I start pulling away and try to hide more. So less kung fu.

 I am trying to remain engaged with kung fu this time. I’m not breaking any records on how much I am doing, but I have not eliminated it. I do need to do more if I want to see progress quicker. In general I should be doing more anyways. I’m severely lacking in my numbers, but I know I’m hesitating to fully commit to much, because I have hurt myself before by doing more than what my body can handle.

  If I do more than what my body can handle, and hurt myself, then I will be back at doing zero. I have to make better attempts at doing more, but still being wise about how I do it. 

 It is really quite the balancing act. Too much and I fail, too little and I see nothing. I need to not attempt 100 in a day, but I need to work up to be able to do 100 or maybe more a day. For push ups and sit ups.

  Attempting 100 push for everyday for me leads to shoulder problems. I have throughly looked at how to do a proper push up to prevent strain on my shoulders. What hurts them still is high repetitions. I have no shoulder pain now, but I scare myself from attempting to reach 100 a day by doing so little. I am seeing some progress, but it is slow.

 Does not mean bad progress, but I do have my worries. I don’t want to be a t-Rex martial artist. It is funny, but it really throws me for a loop. My major car accident oddly enough gave me the time and opportunity to fix or heal my damaged shoulders. 

 Having full mobility of my arms and not feel pain is awesome. I feel now in this part of the blog is just trying to convince myself what I need to do. I do want to be able to do 100 a day or more, but I don’t want to go backwards.

 I don’t have a good way to end this blog. So it is done here. Thank you for reading this long one today and hopefully your day or week is going well.

Here are some numbers:

Acts of kindness: 180

Km: 200

Sit ups:450

Push ups: 300

Da mu hsing: 31

Drum stick form: 33

Spar: 0

Elliptical(minutes):600

Social outings:1

Family or Friends contacted:1

Mind Jumble

 So a lot on the mind at the moment. I know someone at the moment going through a MAID service. Which is not the cleaning type, but help you not live anymore type funded by the government. I’m not super knowledgeable about MAID , but I know someone about to use it. 

  It is a super complicated story and would take my whole blog to write the whole relationship this person is to me, but at the end of it, this person is mostly considered an acquaintance at most now.

  The main issue of this is how it will affect my friend who is really close to me and to them and have been through a lot. The friend knows it is happening, and is upset about it and I don’t blame them. 

 In keeping the MAID part short I’m just simply had been trying to come up with ways to support my friend.Me  Supporting the friend 1 who has a friend 2 that is using the MAID service.

 On other news my dog Sammy a little wiener dog. He does not have a date yet, but he will have to be put down. He is my parent’s dog, but I have spend a lot of time with him and care a lot about him. Sammy has lived a really great life and I think he is 15 or 16 years old now.

  My parents and I promised we would not make the same mistake we did with our first dog and that was not recognize the signs when the dog is no longer in good health. Sammy is still here now so all I can do is love him as much as I can before the day comes.

 With Sammy we were aware that any year could be his last, just looks like this is last year. Honestly we started to moving it down to months and now weeks. 

I’m sorry for not talking about any of my kung fu, but at the moment this is all I can think about. I did have a different topic in mind that was more kung fu related, but do to current events it got a little derailed.

If you read my blog thank you. It’s not a great one at all, but I appreciate the time you give me. Seems like it does not belong in this blog, but I have some numbers.

Acts of kindness: 100

Km: 100

Sit ups: 250

Push ups: 180

Da mu hsing: 25

Drum stick form: 25

Spar: 0

Elliptical(minutes):450

Social outings:0

Family or Friends contacted:1

Stiff

 So after last class or rather during I found myself feeling very stiff. Even after warm up my muscles were still not stretched out enough. After I stayed for some open training I really stretched my cavlves and shin area. I found after really stretching I was able to achieve better forms. 

  It is a very basic step, but shows me my training in my room is not sufficient space. I shorten my stances and not really committing to many moves, because space is limited. 

  I would also say it was the first time I was actually happy with how my form felt after some stretching and what I was trying t focus on. 

  I was just trying to focus on stance and how deep I was in them. I would say I need to build strength in my legs still, but also do more stretching. 

  I have been very light on myself as far as physicality goes. The push ups and sit ups have helped, but turns out I have just been turning out numbers for forms rather than quality. I know it is sometimes still important to get something on rather than zero.

 Doing zero is worse than doing 1 ok form. I think doing to many just get the numbers in forms can hurt me for the quality of forms I will produce, but it does serve a purpose of keeping how the form works and still connected to kung fu.

  I have done some more purposeful training with my forms and it feels way better. I still need to now bring stretches back into my life as well. I also noticed how being overweight really affects my movement and how I execute myself. I always knew being heavier plays into everything it just hit me harder for the class.

  So I have lots to reinforce and reinstate into my physical and mental being. I am always on the re learning cycle about who I am and how I work. So a road is before me to go on and I will certainly try to succeed on this path.

 Thank you for taking the time to read my blog and looking forward to seeing what else will come my way. Anyways here are some numbers

Acts of kindness: 90

Km: 80

Sit ups: 200

Push ups: 160

Da mu hsing: 20

Drum stick form: 20

Spar: 0

Elliptical(minutes):300

Social outings:0

Family or Friends contacted:1

Just A Small Update

 It has been quite the adjusting week for me. With this new job and now having the prospects of continuous work. It is a weird work schedule, but it set up to me having 6 months out of the year off. It’s all because of how the schedule is set up. I’m never working more than 4 days a week unless I do overtime. Every shift is a 12 hour shift, but not to bad.

  I figure I would run down on my personal requirements. I realized I did not give much info on them for last time so here are some bits.

  I am trying to achieve 13050 mins on my elliptical. I think it is a goal I am capable of doing and I know it will help with my cardio and weight. I have been struggling to get my time, but that is just me adjusting to my new schedule. I know I will do better for next week.

  I am trying to go to at least 20 outings in a social environment. These are the place I fear most and would rather stay home. Pushing myself out will help not be so timid to the outside world. I’m not expecting to become the master of social outings, but I would like to see progress in myself. The social outings also cannot contain my parents I see them normally every Friday and Saturday if available to me. It has to be with either other friends or just an opportunity to meet new friends 

  I will increase the number if it becomes to easy, but so far I’m still at 0 so will see.

One of the numbers I’m also keeping track of is keeping in touch with friends or family. I keep to myself and never think how is so and so doing. It never crosses my mind. So I will be attempting to contact others at least 50 times. Sounds like a small number , but when my number is still zero it’s another taunting task for me. If this also becomes to easy I will increase this number as well. 

  My kung fu was actually so far better. At least at me practicing or doing it. I still am not at the best numbers, but these are definitely not bad number for me so far. Once I realized I’m really lacking for how much practicing I do compared to others, I realized I had a lot to work on. Now this is not me taking it in a bad way, but as a way to do better for myself.

Thank you for reading my blog today, have a good day or night whenever you’re reading this.

 The numbers I have here are ok, but always looking for progress and better numbers: 

Acts of kindness: 50

Km: 30

Sit ups: 120

Push ups: 100

Da mu hsing: 10

Drum stick form: 10

Spar: 0

Elliptical(minutes):150

Social outings:0

Family or Friends contacted:0

2 Paths

 I really liked our first class. It was a real eye opener for me. It was a message for me to see so many high level teammates. I saw 2 paths I could take that class for me. The first path was doubt and fear and thinking that maybe I don’t belong here. The other path is to see an aw inspiring group of people and using their commitment to strive for success and striving for always doing better as inspiration for myself.

  I thought long and hard about these 2 paths before me. I was actually happy to find myself leaning towards the second path. I know I am very out of shape and it showed me even more about where I am in my training. I was actually happy I did 15 push ups. I did think about how pathetic of me, but it was not the ruling thought. 

  After the push ups and sit ups I was slowly feeling more and more like throwing up, but it never happened yay! My numbers are nothing to be of aww, but I also have not been going super hard either. I have been doing wall push ups and knee push ups, but toe push ups are the ones I tend to stay away from, because they can mess with my shoulders and cause continuous pain if I am not careful.

  I am still going to do toe push ups, I just need to be smart about it and not beat myself up if I have to go back to do some wall push ups to maintain my shoulders. I know I can achieve the goal of doing more toe push ups and sit ups. 

  I have lofty goals for myself this year and I want to make the team proud of what I accomplished and make myself happier in the process as well.  

  Thank you for reading my blog today and wish you best on your journey as well. Anyways here are some numbers:

Acts of kindness: 30

Km: 15

Sit ups: 80

Push ups: 60

Da mu hsing: 4

Drum stick form: 4

Spar: 0

Elliptical(minutes):100

Social outings:0

Family or Friends contacted:0

A New Start

  So I am looking forward to this year and how well it can develop me and help me more physically and mentally. I really enjoyed getting to participate in the banquet. It was already required for me to do so, but for me it has been a few years since I have been able to go. I enjoyed the set up and kitchen service and even the take down. I really enjoyed the opportunity to drum again. I have not really drummed for a few years. It was amazing. All the demos and candidates were a real joy to watch. 

  So now looking at this new start. I am starting a little bumpy with the blog already being late. I was celebrating with my parents for my Mom’s birthday/ Anniversary. It is not a good excuse for why the blog is late, but I should have been on top of this. 

  I will be trying again to achieve weight loss and try to achieving become more comfortable with being social. I can do well in situations where I need to be social, but I usually avoid it like the plague. I will try and create more opportunities for myself to be social because I created the opportunity, not just wait for something magical to happen.

  I am also trying to be in more contact with friends and family. I am so used to never contacting anyone I have become friends with or they’re my direct family. I just stay content on my small bubble and think of only me. I am trying to reconnect you could say with friends and family.

  I am also looking forward to starting my new job, that will be consistent with the hours available. They still might be some over time, but I have never had a schedule where I can see everyday I will be working for the year. The job is still electrical.

  I am grateful for those that are about to embark on this new journey with me and thank you for reading this blog of mine. I do have some number to put, but you will get to see a few things I have added for myself to accomplish.

Acts of kindness: 5

Km: 2

Sit ups: 20

Push ups: 20

Da mu hsing: 0

Drum stick form: 0

Spar: 0

Elliptical(minutes):0

Social outings:0

Family or Friends contacted:0

   

OMG

 Holy moly I can’t believe I missed my day for blogging. I was good for almost the whole year and then literally the last blog for the year I missed the day. I was having the strangest feeling like I forgot something and I could not put my finger on it till just now. 

  This year has had so many up and downs with my kung fu and a lot of it has been tied to my poor decision making, and the stress of working or not working.

  I would not say this year was a failure, but it also not an outstanding success. I have made some better choices in life for sure and still making plenty of mistakes, but I am moving forwards.

   I have a lot of what I have this year thanks to blogging. Even if I was not practicing kung fu physically, I was practicing some aspects of it mentally. 

  What I have failed for me personally was not going to as many classes as I would like to. I know sometimes work happens and ot shows up, but last year I had most of the year off and chose to stay home. I did not do as good as I could have on the physical side of kung fu. I was not able to lose weight. 

   I will say what I have accomplished. Kung fu is back in my life again instead of not at all. I have accomplished more tools to help me stay out of the negative save in my head. I have reached a better place with my drum stick form. I have learned a new time to practice kung fu is after bathroom times. I have wrote all the blogs technically, but I did miss my day. I did not give up on blogging which was my life line.

  What I plan to do moving forward is to take more accountability for what I do and how I move forwards. I have learned a lot about myself this year and what I want. I have a better more thought out plan for a better success for me next year. 

  Right now I am in the I can do this mode. The end of this year is actually just the beginning for me. I am going to strive and keep this momentum going for myself a long as I can and when I fall off I will try and find a way to get back on back quicker. I will fail in the future, but I will be way stronger because of it.

  Just in case I’m not trying to fail, I am trying to succeed. I’m just know who I am and I have been developing more and more tools to get me back to the success side faster. I have periods where I get super motivated, but then something happens and I fall off and never get back again. I am tying to develop way of staying on the better path in my life. It will always be a struggle, but I can always make it a little easier.

  Anyways for my last blog for this year I want to say the biggest of thank you to all of you who have read all or even just some of my blogs. I will always be very grateful for the time you gave me for reading my blogs. I do have some numbers to end the year off. 

Acts of kindness: 2200

Km: 1820

Sit ups: 8100

Push ups: 8100

Da mu hsing: 170

Drum stick form: 285

Spar: 108

Blogs:50