a little something

hello everyone i been having a nice relaxing time so these past few days. its been nice to see family and just do nothing for a few days. I guess i did not do absolutely nothing i have been doing my forms, and that was fun too. this was a super high and intense, and emotional year for me. from my school to my I Ho Chuan and going for my black belt. i have had so much fun this year and an experience i am sure to never forget. i am at a loss for words right now, but i know you guys will always stay extraordinary.


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extraordinary days

hello everyone i am almost done my first semester and right now for me this is exam week, and after that i will be all done until next semester in January. i must say with the black belt grading and the exams it sure has been pretty crazy for me. both are not done yet, but this for me is the most intense and crazy experience of my life. and its all awesome, I've already learned so much about myself and grown so much from this whole thing. this year so much has happened to me i have had highs and i have had lows, but through all of this i have had the support of my I Ho Chuan team. I will always remember my this year with this extraordinary I Ho Chuan team. Now we all practice for the big day to show off what we have accomplished. also i can't wait for next year and what extraordinary things that will happen. As usual stay extraordinary.   



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a confusing post

hello everyone i do not know what to say right now my mind is filled with so much right now. i think about school, i think about kung fu, and i think about how i live my life. i feel like i want to say something but i can't. i feel right now that my mind can't focus right now. i think that maybe i am approaching my situations all wrong, because i know i am not the first to feel the way i do or go through what i am going through. others have done just fine, but yet i struggle. it's probably my own fault, and i should just get over it. i realize i am being super vague about what i am going through, but it is the safest way i think. i am really sorry for making such a confusing blog right now, but that is basically how i feel right now. i guess all i can do for now is buck up and keep moving forward, until the next one guys, stay extraordinary.


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maybe i am a little to worried

hello everyone i am feeling so sick right now. my head feels light and dizzy, and i feel thirsty, but when i drink i feel worse. i feel hungry, but when i eat i feel sick to my stomach. also i am getting a stuffy nose and a soar throat. i think i might of worried myself literally sick, or the weather did it. either way, i am still going for my black belt, no stupid sickness will stop me. now i am not super sick that i can't move. i am just feeling slightly sick and the those feeling i mention early, i can still function, just it is going to suck a little more. |So right now i am doing everything in my power to combat this little sickness of mine. I feel super overwhelmed right now with school and kung fu, but it is just something i have to deal with. also i know that i am defiantly not the first person to feel this way before a black belt testing. I just have to get my emotions under control, and start thinking about this more positively. I should be trying to look at this grading day a rare opportunity, because you have to do a lot of work just for them to even say yes you can grade for your black belt. i have to start looking at this as this is my epic journey, whatever happens, happens, but i know after that day i will come out of it a better martial artist and a person. So if i think about it that way it does not seem so bad after all. so remember stay extraordinary.


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intense time

hello everyone well i guess you could say that writing this blog is kinda of a break for me right now from writing my essay and studying physics. the black belt grading is coming up, and i am also coming closer to the end of my first semester at university. off topic for a sec, i just want to explain that weird yell i made when i finally broke all my boards at once(for those who were there). Booyah. anyways it was me wanting to yell but at the same time i was trying to hold it in so it came out all weird like. anyways back on target, i always feel like i could do more and i know i could of and still can, but even when i do more i always feel like it was not enough. this generally goes for anything i do. whether it be for school or kung fu that is just how i always feel. If what i am writing here is hard to read i apologized explaining how i feel is still pretty hard to get across. Well time to get back to work so remember stay extraordinary.

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dealing with it

hello everyone i have been doing a little better with my schooling i have been managing my stress better. i have two midterms coming up and i am not super stressed about it. i have been studying a lot and keeping a more positive attitude about things. what helped me a bit was finally breaking all four boards. i know i could possibly might have to do them again, but for now it is done and i feel good about it. The thinking i went through that day when i broke my boards, was i have practice technique, and they are just pieces of wood nothing more. I constantly reminded myself that i can do this and i have nothing to fear, i can do this. that day i started to say to myself if i can do that for board breaking why not school, and as soon as i started to do that i became less stressed and more calm about it. Anyways i have not much else to say right now so remember stay extraordinary.



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shout out

hello everyone i would just like to take this blogging time to give a big THANK YOU to all of the active blog reader who also comment on other peoples blog. Reading those comments really helps me sometimes and let me know that i am not alone. Some comments sympathize, relate, calm down, another perspective, support, but most of all help. I know those comment do more than what i have listed; i just could not not think of more words. Most of the time when i see any comment on my blog i just become so happy that someone took the time out of there day and read my blog. I know i don't post as much as i should on other peoples blogs, but maybe i should because if it makes me feel this god when other people comment on my blogs. Then it would make sense that other people will feel the same joy as i do if i made more of an effort to post on other peoples blogs.
      on a side note i made a personal requirement to myself to post my weight on here so i always keep myself in check. right now i feel horrible that this happen to me again, but i gained weight again and i can only blame myself. it is not that i am eating a lot of food or bad food, i am just not eating 3 times a day, with little snacks in between. With school and kung fu i have had poor time management skills with all the stress i have been going through. during a chem quiz i was having a hard time writing it because i was shaking so bad. but then after it i felt better and i did not do the best in my quiz, but rather i learned a lot about what they look for in a test. and i only got some of the questions wrong do to grammar and adding mistake. if i had those nailed down for the test i would of done really well. I am kicking myself right now to get back on the band wagon of success. All i have to do is try harder and make a new structure for myself. i have done it before i can do it again. also clearly you are all staying extraordinary; now its my turn to take my own advice.


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stress

hello every one i am sorry for not posting my blog last week. i have been having a lot of trouble with balancing university work. I feel like i am always just barely making my deadlines and for my homework. also i have not been going to kung fu lately and i miss it so much. But i have Saturday kung fu; that is all mine and i trade nothing for it. so i guess i will enjoy Saturday, but i am still struggling with school work right now. I feel like i am trying as hard as i can but getting nowhere sometimes. I have to try remain as positive as i can because right now this is all i have to keep me going knowing eventually this will start making sense to me and i will get it . That is all i have to say for now. So remember stat extraordinary.


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balancing act

hello every one  i have really learned a lot about how to balance your life these past couple of days. it turns out it takes a lot of effort to do such a thing. some people have organized chaos and mine where i run better if everything is in order i know i will be doing something at this certain time. I finally had 1 good day at school where for once i did not feel  like i was lost, i was able to participate in class and get my homework done on time. on top of all that the balancing of kung fu i can't forget right i have been able to work in more time where i can just focus on kung fu. I always thought that doing exercise to help you do school work seemed insane to me. actually for me it really works i did not have a good day at university until i went to my san sao class and after that i felt so good. The final thing i can't forget is spending time with my family on top of all of this. it may be the lowest thing on my list of things to do right now, but i love my folks and i actually have fun when i spend time with them. so yeah that is me this week. remember every one stay extraordinary.


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Crazy days

hello everyone i had quite a few crazy days here and i don't see that slowing down anytime soon. i have to be honest my push ups and sit ups have been put slightly on the side right now. mainly because i hurt my back. it has been getting better and i already feel stronger to start doing push ups and sit ups again. university is exactly what everyone has been telling me it was going to be like. They have high standards and like to overwhelm you with lots of stuff to do. i am still trying to adjust my life to this right now, but i get there eventually. my weight seems to be not going up or down at the moment. i assume it is because right now my life is out of balance right now.  Before all i had was work and kung fu; now i have kung fu and university. my balanced scales are all over the place right now, but i am slowly trying to get everything organized and back in balance. also i have not been eating that well either. when i say that i mean i have not been eating three meals a day and that  is throwing me off. anyways i hope all of you have a great day and remember stay extraordinary.


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breakthrough

hello everyone i am having a pretty breakthrough week. In our requirements we are supposed to mend a relationship. Boy did i ever it was an emotionally exhausting night. I feel so much better now and we have become so much closer because of it. i was not looking for a relationship mend at that moment in my life, if anything it found me. right now i feel like this huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders.  also right now i am becoming more and more nervous as my university start date approaches, this will be the biggest thing i have ever done and i am scared of failing. but i know you only fail if you don't try and exhaust every possible option of outside help. i guess i am afraid of walking into a class day and being the only person who is lost. anyways i guess that is all i have for now so see you guys for now and remember stay extraordinary.


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fun weekend

hello everyone what a great weekend for me this week. I got to go to form seminar and learned a lot about myself and about a form i have been doing for awhile. I think that is one of the things that is so cool about martial art is that no matter how many time you can do a particular form you can always learn something new from it and about yourself. This time at the end when we all had to perform in front of everyone i felt like i was able to calm myself down way faster than before. i was still scared of doing, but i felt like  i was more in control than usual. Also i saw some other people do there forms in front of others for the first time. For me it was thinking how far i have come since i used to be like that, but at the same time giving me the inspiration to continue to moving forward and excited that there are people like me trying to conquer the same fear i have. And they have started there journey to more confidence. for me that is so awesome.

   The next day i just spent the whole day with my family and how good that was. we did not do much but we had fun together, and i would not trade that for anything in the world. anyways remember stay extraordinary.


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vaction

hello everyone  my grandma has a computer and I get to blog yeah. on my vacation I have met up with a lot of relatives who I have not seen the for over 14 years so I am super happy right now. Also I get to eat my grandmothers cooking again; which is so good. I made a pizza for my grandparents and they loved it. I am just so happy right now. I have not forgotten about my push ups and sit ups though it is kind of hard to get them in but I am doing not so bad. doing my forms even harder but when I can't do forms I try to go through every motion in my mind;  I have done some though. this blog will have no weight on it because my grandparents have no scale here so yeah. anyways I am having an awesome time. spending lots of time with family, but can't wait to get back to more kung fu. remember everyone remain extraordinary.


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Boot Camp sucess

hello everyone i just have to say wow what a boot camp. I learned so much that day and i was so sore afterwards. I loved the whole day, but the highlight of the day for me was when we did some kickboxing with sifu leets and doing some bone density on those trees. i can easily say the tree whooped my butt, but sifu leets taught the tree he was hitting a lesson. Also another highlight for me was the fan part with sifu platter especially when i got hit in the ear. i was definitely not expecting that and i was surprised and dazed for 2 seconds, but i guess that just means that the technique is a solid technique and would surprise any attacker that might be going for you. either way i had fun when that happen. And the last highlight for me was the running at the end of it all. I was able to contentiously run the full 2 kms without stopping once. I was so happy that i did that. Of course there were many other times during the day i had lost of fun as well, those are just some of the things that come to mind to me right now. sifu brinker always talks about how it is a miracle how we all meet at a certain place at a certain time with a certain random group of people. he breaks it down to everything. Like everything in our life lead up to that  exact moment, but when you think about it; it really is a miracle. for instance I was born in Victoria, my dad was in the navy. then he transferred to the army, which made us move to Edmonton. we only lived there for a short while, but then we moved to parkland village. where i started going to this school where i met my first best friend. Who then had grandparents who said they put him in kung fu; so of course i had to join to. Just to find out later that his grandparents messed the name up and actually my friend joined Tae Kwon do . i remained in kung fu and never quit because i was to polite, but my mom started going to kung fu. and when i got to sihing level i quit for three years. then my mom got her black belt; then i wanted to do the same for myself so i re joined kung fu, then a couple of years later i found myself at keephills school doing a boot camp. So all of this had to happen  all of these thing is they did not happen i would not of been at that bootcamp that day. So if that is what i had to do; to be there on that specific day and at that specific time i could only imagine what every body else had to do to be there at that exact day. It really is a miracle and i just think that is the coolest.


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Pre bootcamp

hello everyone i can't wait till boot camp starts. I am really looking forward to it. A day where i push myself past my limits and then i go father. Also i can't wait to learn all of the things that they will be teaching and showing at the boot camp. for what i know there will be there tonfa' (i know i did not spell that right at all) fans, judo, san sao and that is just some of the thing that i know that are going to be there. there is still so much more and i can't wait to see it all. The one thing that i really can't wait for is the fitness test; just because this is where you can see how far you have come or what needs to be worked on. either way you always get something positive out of it. You may feel at the end of the day like a zombie and you just don't want to move anymore (or at least that is how i feel) but i know no matter how hard that day is i know i have learned something that day and become better for it. Boot camp only happens once a year so i attend to enjoy it, boot camp for me is a one of a kind day. there will be other boot camps, but none of them will ever be the same experience. So remember guy remain extraordinary.


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small update on me

Hello everyone well i guess this one will be an info one. I have a lot on the go right now i am am preparing for university, and filling out a lot of forms for student loans. Also preparing to go see some family i have not seen in 10 years in Saskatchewan; can't wait for that. of course lot of kung fu practicing, but i am still having fun doing it. it is kind of interesting doing a form and then discovering new things about a form that you have done millions of times or a technique you thought was pretty good then finding out it was actually supposed to be done another way it is all fascinating. Also one more thing i have been working lots and i can officially say i am debt free for 2 months. Which i am  super happy about the only unfortunate thing is though i will be back in debt in like 2 months because of school and all, but easy come easy go. well that is all that is happening with me for now so have a wonderful day or night whenever some people read this.


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read this one

 (i could not think of a better title name)
hello everyone some of the stuff in this blog i was planing to say in the meeting, but i did not make and i am so sorry for that. I was going to talk a little about my journey on coming back to kung fu, because i think it is a good one and some people may get something out of it, if not that is okay to.

when i first join kung fu i joined for all the wrong reasons; i joined because my friend was joining. it turned out later that he never joined kung fu he went into Tae Kwon Do; his grandparents got the name wrong. But there i was in kung fu, now not wanting to be there. i never quit kung fu early because i was to polite and shy. i thought if i quit kung fu i would hurt peoples feelings, but that was not the case at all. I was a bad student and i never tried or applied myself to hard. I was just coasting, being lazy. I was a classical never going to get his black belt, because i was barely sihing material. then one day i eventually did quit and i thought i would never look back, but year after year of being out of kung fu i began to devolve a negative void inside of me. i was not enjoying life, i was just living it. when i first quit kung fu i really was happy no more responsibility, no more pressure to do a form better, just me. 

by the third year of not doing kung fu i was not happy at all i was just blah. then my mo got her black belt that year. And to see what she had to do to get the black belt was grueling. but it was how she treated the black belt that got me to thinking. she did not do all of this hard work just for the black belt (well some of it of course) but the sheer persistence she had into getting her belt. she was always happy at kung  fu and always working on something to improve upon. She truly was on a amazing journey. I thought to myself on the day she was handed her black belt. I want that for myself as well. i want to have an extraordinary journey as well. i wanted back in kung fu but his time it was for me. 

what wonders kung fu has done for since then i have grown leaps and bounds from where i used to be in life, and kung fu gave that to me. that negative i had while i was gone from kung was not going to kung fu. Yes sometimes it is demanding, and sometimes really hard, but is anything worth doing easy to get;was it easy to get your wife or husband? was it easy to get your dream job? i would say most of the time no, but it is normally worth it.  when i was younger i thought kung fu held me back and took up all my time, but in reality our kung fu is not mainly in the business of building awesome black belt ( but of course we have lots of those) it is in the business of changing who you are as a person for the better. if there is one thing for sure that kung fu has showed me it is not to focus on the negativity, but rather the positivity. stuff in life will go wrong, but it what you do that makes the difference. I admit i have not always made the right choice when it comes to negativity, i am sometimes silent or i say the wrong thing, but we are all human we can all learn from our mistakes. if we had none how would we know when something was wrong? 

well i guess i will leave off of that and remember remain extraordinary.      


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Apologies

Hello everyone this blog is to simply say that i am sorry for what my last blog caused. I am sorry that some people misinterpreted what i was trying to say, which was none of there faults, but mine alone. I was unable to clearly express and communicate myself properly. I was just trying to express how i was feeling, but i clearly failed to do so. I do not have any doubts about anybody nor anyone, i will try and make this perfectly clear as possible i am very happy and proud of this team we have, I am also ecstatic about the accomplishment we have succeeded in and i would not change a thing about our team. I will take it upon myself to improve my verbal an writing communication skills so this never happens again. As soon as i found out about what i had caused i immediately regretted it. At the time i was merely trying to say how i personally feel and not call anyone out, but i know in my blog now how it might have been seen that way, and i am truly sorry for that. I will again make sure that i do a better job of saying how i feel in a more private manner if need be or better explaining myself next time. I assure you i will never sound that negative again, because all it got me was more negativity. If anything I Ho Chuan is the best thing that has every happened to me. Before I Ho Chuan i had little to no friends at kung fu, because i was shy and distant, but I Ho Chuan helped me make  a lot more friends and come out of my shell. So i will always try to remember that the next time i ever feel negative again.  


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Crazy week and demo stuff

I did a lot this week but nothing to out of the ordinary, other than getting my first aid and taking care of the house for a week while my parents were gone and helping my aunt debbie. I had to take care of a dog who refused to eat and drink, and never asked to be let out; i had to let him out on purpose just to make sure he never had an accident in the house, but he did of course. My dog always asks my parent to go outside but never me, even if i am the only one. Also i have had to help my aunt twice this week. First was transporting a bbq from my place to her place; then i had to help transport a fridge onto her place, which was all good. The neat part of my week was learning first aid with two of my fellow classmates from kung fu. I got to learn a little bit more about them and felt like it bonded us a little bit closer together, which was neat. out of the three of us i got the lowest score it was 100% , 90 something%, and me 90%. I felt like i could of done better, but it was my first time ever learning that stuff. i just want to mention that this year for demo practice and putting together a demo for a function seems a little more forced and a little unnatural. so instead of people doing it because they want to, and of course because we have to do a least 3 of them. It feels like people might be doing it because they are being forced to or guilted into doing it rather then being inspired to to it and maybe change themselves in the process. I am not saying this is everyone, but rather some. I understand that sometimes to get stuff done or to push someone beyond there limits, some of this tough love has to be done. but is there another way to do it?...... I personally don't know. I know we have to cram into a demo really quick right now because we have a very limited time before the demo actually has to be done an it has to look good. But for maybe afterwards or next time, is there a better way to put a demo together? Is it time? Is it leadership? Or is it the people themselves? I know last year felt very natural and even not so forced. Maybe we had the leadership? the time? and the people in the right frame of mind, but that was last year, and we even started it late. So we must focus on this year, I think we are doing amazing this year to build demos in as little time as we are doing, is amazing, but it just feel like we are missing something and i can honestly say that i can't tell what that is. The people are still awesome, the people are dedicated, the only difference is that we are doing it on so short of time, but should that really effect the atmosphere of the demo? I don't know, i am just asking. this is only my second year in doing this but i still truly believe that i will get that feeling back, maybe it is the time or whatever else it might be, because if there is a least one thing that the I ho Chuan has taught me from last year is to keep being perseveres. Even knowing when times feel tough it always gets better without the bad there would be no good. So i guess that is my little rant for now and sorry if it is a little hard to understand what i wrote here, i really suck at where to put the proper punctuations and all that.


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Small Recap

hello everyone i am just going to do a quick recap on what has happened to me and some of you. I started the year with lots of optimism and ambition. they was a calm period for a little while, but then we needed demos and someone who surprised me, took control of forming up a demo, who took leadership, because they push themselves out of there comfort level. This person of course was Miss. Gibbons she inspires me to want to break out of my shell even more, not just at kung fu but outside of it as well. Also she helped me try and go for my breaking boards, i was probably going to try and avoid it this year and try and do something private, which obviously would not of cut it, but miss Gibbons help me do it. She did not help me in training or in practicing, but she helped me through her courage's spirit, by going out of her comfort level, i was able to try and go out of mine. Also i failed at breaking the boards twice, i can easily break three boards no problem, but i am still learning my errors and trying not to condemn myself for them. Before this year started i was actually afraid of not breaking boards, now that fear is completely gone, now i just worry if i am going to break all of them, which i think i will, i know i will, i just have to keep at it. My forms for my twin hooks this year started out pretty well, but now that i have finished my twin hook form i like it a little less as if there were to many errors and i am having a hard time in trying to fix them. Now the errors i speak of are not crazy bad they just annoy me, like my form goes in a straight line, and whenever i try to change direction if feels forced and not meant to be there. But i continue working on it still learning something different about them which is always fun. Now lets talk about push ups, at the begging of the year i was doing pretty good, but then i sorta stopped doing them for a little bit, and every day that i skip the worse i felt, but i constantly came up with an excuse for myself to justify what i was doing. Then i started to realize there are no excuse the greatest enemy to accomplishing my goals is me, i am holding myself back. So i started doing them again and no excuse, i never had any the first time. So right now i am still a little bit behind, but not for long with the extra push ups i have been doing i have been catching up day by day. I started the year with lots of optimism and ambition and i am darn well going to keep it that way, because only good can come out of it. So remember guys stay extraordinary.



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good night

hello everyone i had a great class and dragon practice. In san sao we practice inside fighting which i know is a little bit of a weaker area for me, but actually so much fun. Also the dragon practice was awesome and lots of people showed up. It was a great night. I can now say that i have officially been in every position on the dragon 1 through 9. I tend to like the front a bit more ,but the back is definitely  a whole new experience; it is a whole new way of moving and thinking back there in the front not so bad, but in the back any little mess up in front of you and you see it automatically. sorry this is a little short but this is all i have for now.Now i am going to have some fish, hash browns and brussel sprouts with my dad so remember stay extraordinary.



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trying to remain positive

Hello everyone you know always keeping a positive attitude gets hard some times. I always try, but some times things will just throw you down over and over again and you get tired of it. Also being positive for all of it just to have the same thing happen again. Mainly my job gets my positivity down i work super hard  and always thinking of the best for my day. then something always happens to me i go to a store and the last person who was there did a horrible job, and now i have to spend extra time to clean it up, just so they can mess it up the next day. To tell you the truth i would probably be really be depressed if it wasn't for kung fu. For me it is like a gas station for positivity. once i start to run low i go to kung fu to filler back up. if anything i know i will not have to work this dead end job for to much longer, but for now i guess i have to suck it up, and keep going to my kung fu, because kung fu and the people there is what inspires me to try better in life.



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long weekend

hello everyone what a awesome long weekend i had, my dad was home for two days and he smoked some mouthwatering burgers and some delectable pork loin wrapped in bacon with three different rubs, and of course sihing donnuhues (sorry for misspell) fight to the death fudge. Also i had my friends come over and we played two epic game nights, its just a long game. I even got started on my speech it still needs a lot of work, but it is a least started. The only sucky thing is on Saturday i landed on my knee wrong when i was doing flying kicks. It feels pretty good now but u have not been using it for anything for three days now, so i will still try to take it easy on the knee but i feel like i am making a fast recover. I guess this is all i have to say for now so stay extraordinary.


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Writing

hello everyone my mind draws a blank when it comes to writing stuff. for example i have the valedictorian speech i have to write and say in front of people on may 24th. They basically told me to right something inspirational and a minimum of 2 mins. I always have writers block almost every time i have to write something; on top of this i also have to speak in front of people are you kidding me. When i went through English and i had to write an essay i would always just put whatever blibbty blop that came to mind and i tried making correct sentences. Which i relied heavily on the word program to correct my spelling or make the capitals for me; as you have obviously seen through my blogs. The hard part for this though is all they said was make it inspiring and maybe a little funny as well. I have never written something like this before. I can't just write whatever blibbty blop that comes to mind, because when i wrote that for essays i never believed in it, but i wrote what i knew what the teachers wanted to see. In order to be inspiring you must believe in it too, not just write it down for the sake of writing and of course lets not forget about the public speaking my stomach  crinch every time i think about it. anyways i have to go to bed now so i will finish it here so stay inspiring.


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Pandamodium

hello everyone pandamodium was crazy good. i was able to stay for the full 24 hrs and even two days later i am so sore and working right now hurts so bad. lucky though i did not have to do the full 24 without help sihing chelsal did the 24 hrs as well and i have to again thank his mom for driving me home that night because i did not think about who was going to drive me after a crazy day like that. I personally thought there was going to be a little more participation in the pandamodium, because there was a few time where we had lots of people but only four people were inside doing the actual contentious motion. Or maybe that is how it usually is, because i have only been to one other, and it was later in the day. Don't get me wrong i know there had to be people outside to help with the set up and doing all the cooking that is reasonable. it was more when nothing had to be done accept continuous motion and quit a few time for 10 mins here and there it was just me practicing my stick because i was do much in pain to really do anything else. if it sound like i am resenting or anything like that im really not trying to be; i still think that the day was an awesome day and  a lot got done and  a lot was accomplished and awareness for our charity's was raised. So you just can't go wrong with that. Also a quick note i am not trying to call anyone out, maybe on that day it was just the way it worked out that day everybody has there own reason why, maybe work or supporting someone or something whatever it was it does not matter all that matters that even if you there for an hour or less or even more you helped with doing the 24 hr pandamodium. every time i re read my blog it always looks like it is coming out negative or resentful, but that is not the case at all it was merely just an observation. I had a good day and fun with all the people that showed up.

 
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injury's

Hello everyone sorry for the late post, anyways i am beginning to wonder if we are supposed to get injury's as a part of kung fu, because every time i here some one getting injured they need to refocus on every thing because it hurts to much if you do it the wrong way which ends up helping  you in the long run. I think injury's help because it is a time when you must truly focus your mind on the six harmony's if you don't you will hurt. Now i am not saying go get yourself hurt or anything, or that all injury's actually help you get better, it is just that your so used to using that one part of body for so long then one injury takes it away and now you must re invent your way of moving and thinking or basically your going to be poked with a red hot poker. You fix it right away because nobody want to intentionally inflict pain on themselves unless they are doing bone density stuff or other things. A very good example of someone who got an injury and improved upon it, was my mom sifu Langner she was driving a pallet jack when all of  a sudden she lost control and smashed her knee into the wall. Just the slightest of movements made her cry out in pain. As she got better and was able to got back to kung fu she said all of her stances and kicks felt different, because when she would throw a kick that was slightly off or go into any stance just a little wrong her knee told her right away noo that is wrong it should be exactly like this. which would suck, but she had to really focus on how her body moved to prevent it from happening again. Now i would definitely not want to go through what my mom had to go through, but the injury in the long run ended helping her out. i never really know how to end theses thing probaly so for now have a good day or a good night for whenever your reading this.


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my weight

hello everyone i was thinking about what some people were saying about my scale, that maybe i should throw it out, or switch to measuring or just use the mirror only to see how my progress is going. To tell you the truth they all sound like great ideas and i think i will use all of them except throw out my scale. I may not be able to tell weather i am gaining weight because of fat or because of muscle, but i can tell you i will not give power to the number i post on here anymore. I will still post them the only difference would be is that i will take measurements as well, and judge myself in the mirror, does it look like i got smaller or do the numbers reflect. I am still going to try and lose weight of course i just won't be as bummed anymore if it goes slightly up or down then back up again, because i know i will eventually get to my goal.


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Breathing

hello everyone i have recently found out that i pulled my lower abdomen from the doctor. It turns out that when i did 50 lengths of swimming it really worked my breathing muscles and because i did not know i worked them out so hard that day i did no stretches that could of probably prevented me from pulling my lower abdomen muscle. Since i did not the next day i was going through say chein (sorry for not able to spell that correct for now) I went for a backward shoulder roll and that is when i first felt the excruciating pain in my stomach. Everybody knows if you really work  out your muscles you should always do a lot of stretching to prevent what happen to me, but in my case i did not even know that just breathing could be such a work out.


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game day

hello every one, today i go for my consultation at the tattoo place. Also i will be playing a be board game with  some friends. Today i will be losing my mind into another world. there is actual benefits to gaming you know, like it can improve your memory, and your strategic thinking, and some teamwork and leadership ability depending on the board game. Also it can relieve stress depending on the player; if your to crazy competitive and making the game real, when it is just a game, and nothing more it defeats the purpose of playing a board game and other people might not to play with you after words. It is all good if you get into a game and it becomes real to you; which i think it actually might make the game funner, but always remember it is just a game, losing in there will not affect anything in your life. Anyways for some weird reason i hurt my bottom two muscles on my abs.but not from doing lots of sit ups, normally i get a little sore more in the mid section, but that is not bad. I was just wondering can you have a work out just by breathing, because ever since the day i swam 50 lengths with sihing Krebs my lower two abs have been hurting and i am wondering is it possible to have a good work out my breathing?



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pushing your self

Hello everyone i had a really neat day today. Me and sihing Krebs went out to the tri in spruce grove and did some training. I think we trained on kung fu for 1 or 2 hours. Then we went into the pool to swim, sihing Krebs said he has to do 750 lengths of swimming in one year so i try and get him out to swimming when ever i can in support of his goal. When we first started the swimming he told me he was always panicked and ran out of breath after the first length. So after a little bit i figured out that the way he was swimming was with his arms. yeah i know that is how you swim. But what i told him is to swim with your lungs, because without air your arms are pretty useless, and he seemed to swim better after that. Also for me it gets me thinking about the six harmony's; everything moves as one. Anyways today since i find swimming easy sihing Krebs challenged me to go for 50 lengths to his 25, which he ended up doing 30. So i took on that challenge and it was awesome. Now these lengths are not done all at once we take a quick breathers and continue. So to pay back the challenge he offered me we suggested that when we do or 2 km run that he do 5 km, because running comes easy to him so he needed more of a challenge. Today we pushed each other i swam extra lengths and he jogged extra kms; today was a great day. Thank you sihing Krebs.



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sick

Hello everyone as you guessed by my title i am sick, or you already knew. Anyways last time i was sick i did the worst thing every i became completely disengaged with all off my UBBT requirements this time i am still doing them, but in less numbers, so instead of 200 push up and sit up i did just 50; it was all i could handle for the time being. so if anyone ever gets sick still try and do something, maybe 1 push up at least for that moment you were thinking about Your UBBT promise that we all made. Always keep engaged no matter how small it might be. Well I hope to feel better soon and be 100% back in action.


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What up

Hello everyone, i am drawing a blank on to what i should write about, i guess i will say that i have a busy month ahead of me. I have my dad's birthday, then my aunt's get together, then i also have to go to the university for a registration seminar and also pick up a financial aid forms. Also I have going into the first six day of the next month i have to wait on April 4 at 10:00 am to click the enroll button so i make sure i get the class i want, then two days later  will be going to my tattoo appointment, just so they can design it not to get it done yet. I am thinking of getting a tattoo of a white tiger wearing some battle torn armor in a wintery theme and black and grey. So yup that is what is going on with me right now.


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University

Hello everyone university is super crazy, I just spend an hour and a half just trying to set up the classes for the ones i need. You have to pick when you are going to start with each class and then you have to somehow co-mingle all of them. I did it finally, but the worse part i after all this hard work of getting a schedule that will work it is not even guaranteed that i will get those times i have applied for. I have to enroll on April 4 at 10:00 a.m. If i am late then i could have done all that work for nothing then i would have to repeat the process again. So guess what i am doing on April 4 At 10:00 a.m. All of this got me thinking of mastery everything in my life seems to be turning extraordinary. I no longer expect others to plan my life and things will just happen; now i must take control, because if i don't i could become ordinary. I must lose the weight, I must pick my classes that will further my education, and i must keep trying to get my black belt; this is all on me. I will accomplish these things while not forgetting that there will be others to help me, if  i need it. And one last thing.


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good day

Hello everybody nothing much happen to me today other than i just really enjoyed my whole day. It is like i took control this day and I was really aware of everything that i did. I started with sleeping in then i ate some fruit and some left overs. I spent a little time with my mom. The i went to kung fu as this was the cherry on top for me. Not a crazy day but a nice day. Then i watched an episode of King of the Nerds; while doing my last 100 push ups and sit ups for the day. I guess  it just feels nice once in awhile to not be responsible for anything for a day. Today was a perfect kung fu day for me. Other than this that is all i have to say for now, except for this.....


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The new start

Hello, well the new I Ho Chaun has finally started officially. I cannot believe how many new weapons that we have this year. Also i am doing the twin hooks this year and i was surprised to find out that there will be three other people that will be doing the same thing as me, i can't wait. I would of listed all the new weapons that i have never seen silent river kung fu used before, but i can't really spell out the proper names or i do not know them, but i will say one The Broom. This year we will all face new challenges, failures, success and we will do it together. We just have to remember to ask for help when we need it. Feed ourselves some humble pie and ask someone, or get the courage to ask someone if you are like me and have some social phobias. But i have learned to conquer so many of my social phobias thanks to the I ho chuan team last year. I still have a lot to go in conquering my fears, but performing at the banquet did more good for me then hurting me. I just watch the video that was posted and astonished that i even was able to go on stage that night. after words i felt 100 times better, all the pressure and stomach twisting i was feeling that night all went away to a ting of my sai's hitting Sifu Masterson's  sai's. For me it was the announcing of the end of our dragon year, but at the same time a chime for our next year of the snake; the year i was born and the year i will be training even harder than last year. Also i am extremely thankful for being in a place like our kung fu and surrounding myself with people who i know that will make this year even more awesome than last year, which is pretty awesome.
This last entry is going to be hard for me, but i said i would do it for my personal requirements.

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This would be my weight I will publicly be posting this info on all my blogs, because i believe this will help me realize what weight i am at and to keep me responsible and accountable for my action in the goal to lose 40lbs. Oh god this is hard, but i must do it here goes nothing.


Sihing Langner

stomach pains

Hello everyone the big day of the banquet has got my stomach twisting and turning in so many different directions. I know it is not even my black belt day and i am sure the candidates are feeling more pressure than i am, but my social phobia is starting to kick into high gear. I know most likely my demo vision will kick in when i finally do the performances and forms, but the worst part is the waiting for the actual day to come. To tell you the truth i will probably have to watch the recording, because eventually my demo vision will kick in and I won't even really remember want happened. One second i want to puke, the next, it is time to clean up and go home. I am even finding it harder to socialize just with some of my teammates, i will have something to add to the conversation and i won't say a word, because i am frozen in place. I do know the candidates are actually going to be the people who have to say there speeches, which takes a lot of bravery and courage i think. I know i would need some of that to do what they are doing, and someday i really do want to do what there are doing and maybe the pain i feel now might be ten times worse or i will try to conquer my fears. I prefer the second option, but it will  be super hard, but anything easy isn't worth doing. If everything was easy no one would every need to evolve as a human being or as a person. I will get my stomach issues under control, but this is just another stepping stone i will be taking to get passed my social phobia fear.


Sihing Langner 

Birthdays

Hello every one today is my birthday Feb 7. Birthdays have always been a weird thing for me, i know it is probably like this for most people. In my eyes birthdays have always been for the young and when you get older you just stop celebrating it all together. After a certain age like 12 for me they just stop, most of the times it was because i had no friends to invite or we were no longer interested in the same things any more, so i would just skip it. Also the only birthdays i have ever had were kinda of kiddy, as most birthday party's are at a younger age, but as i got older most of the people i knew were throwing these big crazy get drunk party's. I have never liked any alcohol, so i never had the same kinda of party nor attended, and i never tried to throw any type of party, because of how bad my social phobia was.  I must say having that social phobia at a young age sure warped my growing up. I may have stayed out of some bad crowds, but for just living my life i basically failed. I know i have a lot more to go, but this is just some of the tings i think about sometimes. I know today is completely different then when i was in my teens. Now i don't have as bad of a social phobia, but now and then when something as simple as going to lunch with friends i start to panic, but today i will be meeting some friends for a lunch, and now i feel a little nauseous, but i will never improve until i try harder in life. I still do not like any alcohol and believe me i have tried to like it, but never any success. I have only been drunk twice and both of the times were forced because everybody told me it gets better the more you drink. I found out it still sucks after the 8th beverage, it never got better. Anyways now i do have more friends that have common interest like i do and that makes me happy.


Sihing Langner

Super Happy

Hello everybody, i am super happy because i have received a letter that states that i have been accepted into University of Alberta to study Geology. I can't believe i actually did, i will be the first in my fathers side of the family to get into University. Now that what i have been working so hard for, for so long. I am at a lost into what to do next. I will be trying to contact the university to ask what will my next step be, but either way i can not wait to begin. On another note though in San sou ( not sure i am spelling it right) I am actually really enjoying the new way of learning and all the bone density training we are doing, that is my favorite part. When i started the class i was still pretty new to it, but for me most of the class just seem really fun, which most of my other classes are, but before the new way, that's all i felt like what i was having, fun, i personally, did not feel like i was actually learning or gaining anything of value, other then some more socializing. But this new way of training i feel like we are actually learning a lot about what we can do and a new way of fighting that i was not entirely used to and of course bone density training. Although i was not their long enough in the class when the other way was being taught, to properly judge it. Anyways i find new San sou super fun and a great learning experience. Also i have also just received my new weapons i will be using for my next year of I Ho Chaun my twin hooks. I can't wait to start practicing with them, but not till after this year with my sais are done first.

Sihing Langner

so tired

Hey everybody i am just so darn tired. my job requires me to get up around six in the morning, and  know other people can do it just fine, but i am not a morning person. I try every time to go to bed early, but i always have troubles sleeping so i always end up with about five hours of sleep or less. There is something i have always said that i know that i am my parents kid for sure. My dad when he goes to sleep he has a hard time fallen asleep just like i do, but when he finally falls asleep he can be woken up by a pin dropping in someone else home. My mom on the other hand can fall asleep on a dime, she could just start thinking about going to sleep and she could. My mom works night and work mornings, i could head off to bed and my mom who has to go to work could still fall asleep ten time faster than me, and my dad and she is the big coffee drinker. But my mom once she is asleep loud noises are not an issue, we have a dog that always sleeps with her, and a lot of the time he will bark and random noises and she will not hear a thing, she may as well be dead to the world. I am the exact same way once i fall asleep i sleep super heavy, the only thing that wakes me up is a well hidden alarm clock that eventually wakes me, sometimes it will wake my dad up before it wakes me and he is on the opposite side of the house. Anyways i fall asleep like my dad it takes a few hours, but i sleep like my mom where i will hear nothing. well that is my sleep story, and if your not already sleeping by now, then welcome to the club :)

Sihing Langner

A wierd new year

This year feels weird to me i am going from lots of school and homework to none. I guess i am one of those people who like school, because when i am at school i know i am trying to better myself and trying to get a career that i want, but now that i am done upgrading i miss it. Now i go to a job where i do mindless work or so i believe. My job is easy enough i go to store to store and fill up the shelves with pop and condense the pallets. But as in any job their is always people who find it hard, and are lazy,  and making a bigger mess for me to clean up. This job i have really puts me in a down mood, just because it is a job full of people who have settled for this for the rest of their life and want to make other peoples life worse. I do not care if someone want's to or has to work at a job like mine. I have a friend who has already decided that this will be his first and last job, but it works for him. At my job i tend to go to stores where the managers of the store are not happy with what is happening and they are mad at me as if it was my fault, when it is the first time i work the store. I know why i get sent to these store, because i am the one who does all the hard work and makes them happy again. I hate my job, but  at least i know i will not be their for the rest of my life. If anything the silver lining about all of this, is it drives me harder wanting to escape this type of world; making me push myself to become a better person, knowing i never want my life to ever be dull and you know what as i am writing this blog right now i just realize why i am at a job like this, it is because it make me strive for something better. To tell you the truth it is hard to find the benefit of a bad situation, but blogging about it right now just made me realize it. Their is a technique i would like to perfect, finding that small little tiny silver line that does surround most bad things. Funny i learned a lesson blogging never saw that one coming. Well see ya and have a good day.



Sihing Langner

My I Ho Chuan Year

Hello everyone what a year this was. My year in the i ho chuan for me was quite a rocky ride. I started the year so great then somewhere along the road i fell off the wagon a bit, but it was not all bad.

My accomplishment is that i have completed the acts of kindness, the 1609 kms, the sparring, my sai form, and a few of my upgrading personal goals, I got 80's or higher in almost all my courses, Math 31, Phys 30, Math 30 Pure, Bio 30, the only two i did not get higher than 80 , and that was English 30-1, and chem 30. they were below 80, but not by much, only by 1 or 2 percent. Those were the toughest course for me and i study and did so much tutoring for those two course and i still did not get over 80. I also blogged one healthy recipe every month, and i was able to  keep up with my blogging. For the mending the relationship part I do not know if this count's but it was all that was in my life. I became closer with my Dad, and i confronted a friend about an issue that was making him angry and resolved it. The biggest thing is that i have conquered a lot of my fears of performing in public, and socializing with others. I still have a long way to go, because i feel awkward and shy and anti social just when i go see my family. It is not because they are horrible people it  is because i have never know how to socialized with my own family that sometimes i do not feel like i belong. I feel more comfortable at my job or Kung Fu compared to my family. When i say family i mean uncles aunts and grandparents, an cousins, not my parents i get along with them just find.

Where i failed was the little thing the most important thing, Push ups  and sit ups. This was the most single thing that was the most important, not because you had to do 50,000 in one year, but because this is one of the more important tools that keeps you engaged in kung fu and what put you in the right mind set for the rest of the day. I started to miss one day then two then it got bigger and bigger until i just stop doing them and that was the biggest mistake i did in the UBBT program. Also i was unable to complete my Lao gar 1000 times, i kept putting it off when i should  of took it on, just like i did my sai's. But i stop the push up and sit ups which made me less engaged. I also did not lose any weight i wanted to lose 40 lbs, and i did not. I have no excuses, i just did not put my mind to lose the weight i have done it before, yet i have failed.

What i have learned is that i should never stop the little things, even when i get sick, just reduce the numbers. And this year i will accomplish my goals this year all of them. Also i will put the mind set of losing weight it will be hard, but i believe i can do it. And if any of you out there had some of the same problems or just joining, If i can do it so can you. You just got to remember never stop the little things which would include, acts of kindness, push ups, sit ups, 1609km, and of course blogging, because it is what sets your mind set if you do not of it then you become ordinary, but if you do all of it you become a little bit more extraordinary.


Sihing Langner

Healthy Meal #12

so this will be my last healthy meal for 2012 so enjoy :)

Salmon with Mushrooms and Red Pepper Sauce
2 large red bell peppers
3 tablespoons fresh lemon juice
½ teaspoon sea salt
2 tablespoons extr virgin olive oil
1 small onion, diced
6 ounces shiitake mushrooms, sliced ( If an not find regular mushrooms will do)
4 salmon fillets, 6 ounces each

Pepper Puree

1. Place peppers in a baking dish in the oven at 350°
2. Roast for 10-20 minutes, until skin begins to shrivel
3. Allow peppers to cool, remove stems, then slit open and remove seeds
4. Place peppers, lemon juice and puree until smooth
5. Transfer pepper mixture to a small sauce pan and warm slightly

Really good so enjoy and happy new year!!!



Sihing Langner