getting closer

hello everyone so the day is getting closer. the day we all show how far we have come and how much we have grown, and of course the black belt candidates. There are quite a few things i have learned when preparing for and actually doing the demo. For me it is the waiting and approaching day that is the worst, because normally i am always becoming my worst enemy. I always think i can't do this, i won't be good enough, i am going to let them down.  but that is how i used to think, now of course i am still worried, but now i think i can do this, i can get through this, we are doing this as a team, we are all trying are hardest to make sure that we have an awesome demo. there is no secret that i have found to help me get over my fear, it is just merely stepping out of my comfort zone, with lots of support and a little of my own strength. Performing in front of people is scary, but it is one of the only times you can show off to others what you have become. I'm worried, but i will never back down because i know if i ever do i will fall backwards. lucky for me though i have so many people to push me back forwards. when i think of this it makes me just so happy. we are surrounded by extraordinary people and always given the greatest of opportunity's. I am so glad that i get to share this experience with all of you and remember everyone always stay who you all are(extraordinary).


231 lbs


Sihing Langner

moment of happiness

hello everyone right now i feel really happy. I am do not full understand why but i do. I am going to university, going to lots of kung fu, and doing lots of training, trying to collect donations for my mustard seed charity. All this and i just feel happy. I must say i really am enjoying everything right now. I am always surrounded by such positive people and everyone is always having a such good time. For some strange reason i am happy but it feels foreign, like is this allowed for me? is this okay? to tell you the truth i don't know why this happiness i am feeling right now feels good, but at the same time guilty. I don't know why i would second guest being happy right now. but i guess i will enjoy it right now for the most of it, and hope i can continue the great feeling. Anyways i know what i write sometime makes no sense whatsoever, but maybe through writing this i can maybe figure it out. well remember to stay extraordinary.


230lbs


Sihing Langner

sick, vent, calm, happy

hello everyone i am having a feeling right now that i haven't felt since my first year in I Ho Chuan. I feel sick, i am not actually sick, but in my own mind i become my own worse enemy. with the banquet coming up my social phobia is kicking into overdrive. I know i can't succumb back to who i used to be. i did not like who that person was, that person was always scared and super shy. i am no longer like that. i know i still have some way to go, but i can't be like that anymore. it's not me anymore. i now actively try and create conversations, i now try to be more open, and now i try to actually make myself a better person. and i have all of you to thank for that you all inspired me to try and make myself a better person, you have all have made me so happy, without I Ho Chuan or kung fu, i would be no where right now. Also i would like to say one of my personal requirements i have for myself next year. i say this one before this year end because i owe all my courage to you guy, and i thought just in case some might not be returning i thought i say it now. i have always been to shy and too hesitant to ever actually ask out a girl and henceforth i have never had a girlfriend. but this year my personal requirement, my personal goal is to get myself my first girlfriend. I always feel a lot more calmer after i write a blog, reveling my stress to the world. remember everyone stay extraordinary.  



229lbs



Sihing Langner