hello everyone i am having a feeling right now that i haven't felt since my first year in I Ho Chuan. I feel sick, i am not actually sick, but in my own mind i become my own worse enemy. with the banquet coming up my social phobia is kicking into overdrive. I know i can't succumb back to who i used to be. i did not like who that person was, that person was always scared and super shy. i am no longer like that. i know i still have some way to go, but i can't be like that anymore. it's not me anymore. i now actively try and create conversations, i now try to be more open, and now i try to actually make myself a better person. and i have all of you to thank for that you all inspired me to try and make myself a better person, you have all have made me so happy, without I Ho Chuan or kung fu, i would be no where right now. Also i would like to say one of my personal requirements i have for myself next year. i say this one before this year end because i owe all my courage to you guy, and i thought just in case some might not be returning i thought i say it now. i have always been to shy and too hesitant to ever actually ask out a girl and henceforth i have never had a girlfriend. but this year my personal requirement, my personal goal is to get myself my first girlfriend. I always feel a lot more calmer after i write a blog, reveling my stress to the world. remember everyone stay extraordinary.
229lbs
Sihing Langner
I'm sure you will be doing great. You have to remember that everyone that are going to be there know you already. If if they don't then you are just going to impress them. I know you can do it and do it well.
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