Step 2

So this week went a little better but not perfect. I had some help to accomplish more this week. I got to go to kung fu and it all started from a little help from a simple text and everyone's support. What I have learned is that now that I have a plan and a way to enact the plan; it is time for some follow through, action, execution. No plan will succeed if you don't start trying to do something.
  I am still trying and struggling a bit, but it does not seem as hard before. It is still going to be a long journey for me to try become more active and more motivated in my life, but I guess in life your journey is always growing and evolving.
  Also I just finished a school learning test that is done by a psychologist. So I learned that 100 means your average, but kinda smart, and 120 means your a genius. So my scores were for math 108 and 113 so pretty good there. I had one kinda low score at 84 for pronouncing fake words. Apparently there is a system to say words correctly even if it is made up. What surprised me the most was the essay I wrote in 10 minutes(essay was about kung fu); the score I got for that was 148. Shocked the heck out of me, but what the psychologist found out is that I have a low level of ADHD. I have been diagnose this before, but last time they diagnose me they said I had full blown ADHD. Which I did not believe and proved them wrong. Apparently though even low levels of ADHD can have a huge impact on my life. Like for example if I am really interested in something and motivated to accomplish it I will do so very easily, but if I show no motivation or even not a lot of interest like my own well being I will struggle with trying to focus on it and be easily distracted and become unmotivated. Also found out that is effects my short term memory. So basically I found out why it is so easy for me sometimes to make the bad decision verses the right decision.
  I am not gonna blame everything that has happen to me on this low level of ADHD, but it does help knowing why I make some of the choices I have made in life.
 Anyways I will see you all next time so remember everyone ordinary people extraordinary actions.

Sifu R. Langner