It seems weird to me right now. I am 30 soon to become 31 and I feel like I am starting my life right now. I been happy in life before, but I don't think I have ever been this happy. I feel overjoyed, excited, ecstatic, and can't wait for the next day. I went on quite the roller coaster of emotions last week. I lost a very important cousin, I got laid off, but I don't feel in despair.
I knew my cousin was the type of guy who lived life to the best of his capabilities and always tried his hardest to provide for his family. He was extraordinary person trying to live a normal life. I am certainly still sad about his passing, but he gave me a new way to look at life. Life can end at any moment and you may not know the reason why. So I must live to the fullest, and honor the memory's of people who were not afraid to live their life, but were cut short. I have always been scared to live mine. I want to continue to live my life to become a person of change and extraordinary experiences.
I believe so far in my life everything happens for a reason.When I had anger issues in school I Kung fu found me and unknowingly to me at the time, helped me control my anger. When I did not know what I wanted to do for a career I met Dan who inspired me to become an electrician. When I wanted to move out and lose weight again and learn Japanese, I found a landlord ( through the help of my friends) who helps people with weight loss and teaches Japanese. When I finally gave up on ever having hope of finding someone that would show genuine romantic interested in me I find her at work. She actually gave me great advice which lead me to asking her out. "A close mouth never gets fed". A passing cousin who I took for granted and thought would always be there. He showed me how important it is to really appreciate the time I have and those I share it with.
I will truly miss him. Thank you I will never forget you. I wish we had more time. I promise to live my life to the fullest I can.
Sifu Langner
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