No Sleep January

 Hello I am sorry for not posting for awhile or attending meetings, or class. I should of at least sent a message. I was having a really rough January. In the sense of I had no clue of what time of day, or what day I was even on. I was getting very little sleep. The most sleep I got was 4 hours. For me I don't even remember to much happening in January. I was experiencing bad headaches, neck pain, and facial pain. The face one was because whenever I yawn it hurts a lot. So with me being tired it happened a lot. Oddly enough during those times when I tried to sleep, I was not tired at all.

  I have improved, and I no longer have sleep issues, and my neck and face is a bit sore, but I don't yawn as much anymore. That month for me was actually harder for me then when I spent time in the hospital. 

  Good news though I have been working on my balance I have 2 exercises. One is heel to toe, and I have to hold it for 30 secs. The other one is I have to hold one foot up for 30 secs. I have not accomplished these yet, but My best is 18 sec for first one and 13 for the second. My body just loses balance and it feels like I cant stop it, but that is why I practice. I know my balance in getting better, because I don't need a cane anymore when I walk. I never really needed it badly, but when I used to get headaches and dizzy, and would need something to lean on so I did not fall.

 I used to hold the cane most of the time floating. I would swing it where the cane would be if I needed it. I remember in the beginning that I could not walk even half way across the lagoon, without then needing my dad to help me back home. Now I am up to 4 full laps. Ironically enough more times I ever walked around that lagoon even when I was not injure.

 I may have hiccups in my never ending journey, but one thing for sure is that I refuse to give up. I know I will have more lows in my future and I cannot stop it, but I do know is that I can always learn and grow. 

One thing I have learned about life is that there is always opportunitys made available to me. I just need to create, accept, or look for them.

 Sifu Langner