Sleep

 My sleep has been very erratic since my grandpa's passing. I go to bed around 10 or 9:30 every night, but I am not tired always. I sometimes stay up till 2 or 3 in the morning; not by choice.  I will be in bed getting tired as I read. Then I say alright time to sleep, then immediately feel wide awake again. I always wake up no matter the amount of sleep I got around 7:30 or 8. Usually my normal sleep routine would be I go to bed read then sleep. Now I am up and down then up again. At home I find myself falling asleep in the afternoon now. Not always, but sometimes I get so sleepy and I can't stay up to try and fix my schedule. 

I have not tried anything yet to try and help my sleep yet. I feel as though I am not staying up, or having these erratic sleep behaviors because of the loss of my grandpa. I do feel at peace with how he went. A long happy life in the comfort of his bed. Since that day my sleep has been erratic though. I am hoping I get my sleep under control before I possibly get the go ahead to return to work. 

During the day I feel as if I am on a constant time of drowsiness; even when I am in kung fu or at the gym. I swear I am ok now about the passing. It is sad, but I took a lot of great life lessons from it. I have never been so connected with my family. I am currently having a hard time trying to make sense of this blog. This time I am getting a wave of super sleepy, but I know as soon as I get comfy I will wake up again. 

I do believe I will get a hold of this sleep soon enough. Just one day at a time.

Sifu Langner