I need to change my current environment. I live with my parents right now. I did live on my own before, but I had to move back in with my parents. I got into a major car accident a few years ago. I had to go under one year of physical therapy and I had very little income. I would be in financial despair if my parents did not let me move back. They also really helped me during those hard times. They also helped me save up some money to start looking into my first home.
I love and really appreciate what my parents did for me, but living here is in my comfort and mediocrity box. It has a little bit to do with them and all to do with me. I found my mental and physical state became better after I left my home the first time. I know there is nothing to prevent me to achieve better things for me now, they are just convenient excuses.
It feels like I have a heavy weight of bad habits and laziness that feel like they get encouragement and reinforcement when I live at home. I love them and they love me. So not to much to be upset about. I do have full confidence once I move out into the struggles of real life with bills and debt; seems to be something I am chasing for. Not just those things, but more importantly for me independence.
The responsibility of taking care of everything about myself drove me. Motivated me to become better. So I am currently looking at houses. I am just waiting for some info from my employer to see what kinda mortgage I can get.
For me living at with my parents is to easy. I thank my parents for giving me the opportunity to have a comfortable life. I yearn for a bit of complications. Hopefully not to big of complications, but life will give and take and hopefully I get to see another great journey ahead.
Sihing Langner
We all have to sacrifice a bit of our mastery journey out of necessity. Financial security is a big stressor that can force us into less than ideal situations and environments. You need to recognize, however, that while your living situation is having a negative effect on your motivation and clarity, your training situation, which you have absolute control over, is not being used to offset that negativity. Train. Train. Train.
ReplyDeleteWe talk about being in the right place at the right time. Nothing made that more obvious than the IHC class last Thursday that you and another team member missed. It was one of the most eye-opening experiences of my life. We talked about it in class and recognized how fortunate we all were to have witnessed the most creative, motivating, inspiring, jaw-dropping holy moly moments ever.
Too bad you missed it.
Good luck with the house.
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