Hello everyone it has been awhile since I wrote a blog. I literally put writing this blog as late as possible. For me writing this blog is the beginning of a at least 1 year commitment to myself and those around me. This is my 1st blog in a very long time represents a huge step for me. It is the start to my betterment of myself, and that freaks me out. I will be responsible for what I do and what I do not do again. Kung fu for me has always been a pain in my side when I make it so, but it has also been my saving grace to become the best me.
In the meeting we had I wanted to participate in it and at least say my name, or even show up in person and say what is weird about myself, but my fear won that day. I have been living a hermit lifestyle for quite a few years now and my social game was not great to begin with, but my social phobia has creeped its way back. I have conquered it before and I plan to do it again.
Right now I fear not the unknown, but the sense of failure. I know the path on how to fail; It is clear as day for me, but I also see the path to success as clear as well. Right now what I need from me is consistency in my actions. When I achieve that I achieve my goals.
So my goals are to increase my presence at kung fu, and to lose weight. I want to make kung fu apart of my life again and to not fear it anymore. I have lost weight before and this is my third time doing it. I successfully did both time before. The reason I got big again was because of my car accident. Doing nothing for almost a year put some weight back on me, but that was 5 years ago and I have maintained this overweight state I am in ever since.
If you made it this far in my blog my weird thing about me is I can drive in my car from spruce grove to Falkland BC a 9 hour drive in complete silence. No music, no nothing just me and the road.
I see everyone is putting there numbers on their blog. Mine are easy right now to fill out 0 across the board. I will be increasing these numbers by next blog.
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