Finding my Center

  My center has been a literal roller coaster through the time I started doing Kung fu, till present day. It has been a journey that constantly has re-taught me over and over again where I am  mentally and physically. Talking about it now I can see it more clearly now the ups and downs of my center finding.

  I started kung fu like most men do and I had my center higher in my chest area. It was a time in my life where I was younger and thought I knew so much more than my teachers. I was more rigid and had a to big of an ego. (Side note: I did not join kung fu with the right attitude or intentions. That is a whole other story) 

   I inevitably quit kung fu for 3 years; my attitude and physicality were on the decline. My center was nonexistent. I was a student who did not care and only stayed for a long time, because I was too polite to quit. I thought they would be upset or mad with me if I quit, or thought I was being rude. 

 Then after my 3 years hiatus I came back to kung fu. I was  more mentally and physically healthier. I was motivated and humbled. I started to learn what my center was and learned how greatly it affected everything. I was less tense, but my center was a lot more defined and I was finally making progress to having a consistent center. My center at this point was around my belly button. I still had so much to learn and I was looking forward to it.

  Unfortunately the next thing that happened to me was that I got into a pretty bad car accident. I physically lost my center. I could no longer even just stand up straight without losing my balance and falling over. I had to do a years worth of physio just to find my balance again and standing for long periods of time again. I learned a lot of good things about myself on my road to recovery. So obviously I have found my balance again( for the most part) and my center. I got the opportunity to re-learn what is my center and how to find it. I unfortunately was going down a negative attitude path and started to pull away from kung fu again, but this time I did not quit, but I was running away. It freaked me out to show my vulnerability publicly. I started to dive into work and then I was gone for another 2.5 years this time. 

 Finally I came back and brought kung fu back into my life and this time I have the better attitude and my experience in re-establishing my center. Last class got me to define my center and how to control it. I re-learned about the more tense I am and mentally not focused the more my center rises. The more calm I am and relaxed the better my center feels closer to my core or belly button. I learned that I have to rebuild some muscles that I have lost so I can maintain my center through my forms and simply walking. 

I have done this journey multiple times in finding and maintaining my center. It is a journey I tend to have fun on and look forward to re-establishing my center and love for kung fu. Don’t get me wrong there was plenty of frustration in trying to find and maintain my center, but I am just trying to maintain the positive outlook and always finding that silver lining. 

Ok lots of rabble today I always want to say thank you after you read my blogs, just because I know the effort you took out of your day to read my blog and I really appreciate that. It is a solid skill that I am still working on and exercising to read all of your guys blogs as well. Anyways hear some numbers.

Acts of kindness: 160

Km: 138

Sit ups: 1800

Push ups: 1800

Da mu hsing: 35

Drum stick form: 45

Spar: 55