Weird experience

I had a very poor week again of kung fu. I was having stomach issues where I could not keep food down and then one day it got weird for me. I was just ready to leave the bathroom and all of a sudden I got light headed, dizzy, and all numb in all limbs. I had to lie down on the bathroom floor.

 I was barely functional enough to get down to the floor, but once I got there I was on my side. I was going in and out of almost black out. I don’t know how long I was there on the floor, but I had no idea what happened to me. 

 Eventually I was finally not crashing out or anything and I could move again. To be fair I was not trying to move while I was on the ground, but eventually I was able to get up and like nothing happened. 

  I did go to bed right after and fell asleep. Since then I have been better and feeling better as well.  It was just weird experience I have never had before. 

  My week had the best of intentions of more kung fu, but intentions only get me so far. Action is what I need and to do. I’m currently in my cheer leading phase. I wish, I want, I hope, but I don’t do. I could say all the right things until I’m blue in the face; means nothing if I don’t do.

  I am my own worse enemy, sometime life takes my decisions out of my hands, but for most of it I block myself from making progress. Nothing is holding me back except me. I don’t write here right now that I will practice more, because I have broken that promise to many times. So now if I say it, it means nothing. 

  All I know is I need to start making better choices in my life. Thats all there is to it. No perfect moment, or right time, just me mentally and physically taking ownership and pride in who I want to be. I exist to breathe right now and that’s it. I have fun with my family once or twice a week then I stall. 

 

 Just do it. 

I have no numbers again. I am happy you are still reading my blogs that I write. I say I appreciate it and I really mean it. Every time I have said thank you on here I have always truly meant it. So thank you for reading

  

 

Trying Something New

   So I would say my kung fu has taken a bit of a backseat this past week. I decided to try a new possibility for myself. In the sense of career. I am still going to look and work electrical jobs when I can get them, but I’d figure I finally attempt something I have been hmmm and ahhhing about for the past 10 years. That is making a YouTube channel.

  I have been looking at YouTube for so long and learning how some channels succeed and how some fail, or even disappear. I would say I am not trying this as a get quick rich idea. I am doing this because, I have always wanted to try, but did not think I could actually succeed. I have seen so many rise and fall of so many YouTube channels and they all have the same pattern. 

  If the channel was disciplined in releasing often and putting the time and effort into editing, wether it be hired or done by the creator; they all became a bigger channel that more people wanted to see, and as soon as they pulled back and lost their discipline their channel died, or fell of for multiple other reasons.

  I never ever tried, because I always thought I don’t have the charisma that the successful one’s do, but I learned that you can still become successful through developing your charisma and the content you want to show. Passion.

  I found myself diving into all of this and really trying to learn how to edit and upload, thumbnail art. It consumed me entirely, and then I chose to ignore kung fu. Which is the wrong choice. I know for a successful channel it could possibly take me up to 3 years to finally start seeing results. 

  It does not mean I still can’t keep kung fu in my life. I planned my days poorly and filled my days with laziness. I did do a lot of research and poured a lot of time on starting my channel and learning right now how to do some basic editing, but I was not dedicate all day doing this. I rested and watched my YouTube I like to watch.

  I will for sure fail any type of YouTube career if I follow this path. Kung fu makes me a better person when I train and practice kung fu. When I make it apart of my life not only at work but on my down time especially. 

  I definitely made progress on my YouTube channel, but I fell off on my kung fu progress. I’m sorry I let you all down in that aspect and I am sorry to myself for depriving myself of the great  opportunities and experiences that kung fu offers me.

  As you might of already guessed but no real number change this week. So I will say thank you for being on this journey with me and reading my blogs week after week. I will start making better choices, but right now my words don’t mean much right now. Action is what will set me free.

Do It Especially When You Don’t Want To

 I need to establish a schedule that I can try to complete and sustain some sort of routine. I met someone who has a commitment to excellence especially when they don’t want to do it. This person was disciplined. I was showed examples of when he did not want to go and work out, and with a bit of a sigh he said I guess I will still go anyways.

 Having the mental fortitude to stay consistent on days you would rather do nothing is powerful. It is a muscle that needs working out as well. He has a busy life and he still manages to strive for excellence. 

 I believe it all comes down to his priorities. He has going to the gym high up on his list and will try and achieve it with the best of his situation. Prioritizing health and fitness over going home and simply lazing about. Being lazy is easy, but being highly engaged in your life and family is extraordinary.

 I thought about how I saw him and how his life seems pretty awesome. I had to hold myself back from starting a pity party for myself. He works hard for what he has and it is something to admire and learn from, not resent and bring in jealousy. 

 I will use my experience with him to help build me to become a better person. I have met a lot of amazing people in my life and for the short amount of time I met this man has changed my way of thinking. I saw a someone who did not settle for the easy route, but also it was not easy for him to pursue the extraordinary path. 

  Normally when I see people like him they are always high energy, or very positive for most of the time and they make it look easy to achieve what they have. I know these type of people work just as hard, but I rarely get to see the struggle. I normally get to see the surface of who they are then they disappear from my life.

I got the rarest of opportunities to see the mindset of I don’t want to go the gym at all, and then they went anyways. I have heard stories and have done it myself, but it has been a long time since an event like this has happened. 

 My kung fu engagement was low this week. I did do some gym stuff, but I was still lacking in kung fu. I have had some bumps in the road and family issue to take care of, but bumps in the road will always show. I just need to keep recovering from the bumps. 

Thank you all for reading this blurp once again. The mental fortitude you all have is a strong skill you all keep working on and developing. Anyways here are some numbers:

Acts of kindness: 900

Km: 1000

Sit ups: 6350

Push ups: 6350

Da mu hsing: 116

Drum stick form: 142

Spar: 108

Discipline Equals Freedom

  I was at the gym and normally places like this might have inspirational imagery or quotes and this place was no exception. The last great quote I saw that was motivational was “ even if all you can do is swim one lap, that’s more than the person on the couch did” I like this one but this new one really got me thinking about what those 3 little words mean “Discipline equals Freedom”

  Being disciplined in something you are trying to accomplish can yield results, but I never thought about what else it could offer. If I am disciplined in losing weight I will lose weight. It is the freedom that took me by surprise. I never really truly thought about how being disciplined in something can set you free.

  If I am disciplined in losing weight and accomplish that, I am free in the knowledge on how to live a healthier life style and feel better about myself. Having discipline also can bring knowledge about what you are trying to accomplish and eventually you will become more knowledgeable about said discipline. Which in turn set you free into more opportunities. 

I never really realized how much freedom you can get after the hard work and continued hardworking that the freedom that comes after. Having the knowledge and the know how thanks to being disciplined has unlimited potential.

  It is not like I never experienced being disciplined, it just never made me realize how powerful it can be after you remained disciplined to equal freedom. When I am disciplined I am happier, more motivated, more confident. Why? Because the discipline yielded me that freedom. 

  If I want change in my life I start by being honest with myself. Knowing that the key to my success is discipline seems like the magic pill I was waiting for. It seems weird that I always knew about the answer, but I was waiting to see the inspirational message.

 I have always noticed that sometime lots of people could be telling you, or advising you on what they think could help, or be the solution to your problems. As most people do including me I don’t hear it. I feel as though the reason why we don’t hear them yet, is because we are not ready to listen. 

 I know there has been moments in my life where I was told something to do and then did not do it, but then a friend said the same thing as this other person and now it makes sense. I was ready to listen.

  So even knowing I have learned the benefits in being disciplined, I was not listening yet. Now a simple 3 words on the wall I read has opened my eyes“Discipline Equals Freedom” 

  My Kung fu has been ok this passed week, but it will get better. The frequency in how much I practice is what will get better.

  Thanks you for reading my blog it actually means a lot to me that you all do this. Anyways here are some numbers.

Acts of kindness: 800

Km: 900

Sit ups: 6200

Push ups: 6200

Da mu hsing: 115

Drum stick form: 140

Spar: 108