Right Direction

 You know I never really realized how crazy it is to see when I look at all my blogs that I have and almost all of them say zero comments, but seeing there are comments to go back and read feels really good. Powerful stuff.

 I read the comments on the app as well, but it does disappear forever and I will never remember the possibly good advice that was given to me. Super side tracked for what I wanted to talk about I just wanted to say commenting  on someone’s blog carries heavier in a good way. 

  Ok on task here. I had a not bad kung fu week for practicing. It easily could have been better, but doing zero is way worse. I am always trying to take the more positive approach about my progress. I know I would cycle down into some harsh depression if I go with what I know best; negativity.

 I am trying to keep what little I do accomplished as a positive, rather than focus on how more of could have done. I am not ignoring that I could have been better, but I am also not drowning myself in self loathing, or at least attempting. 

  Being positive is a muscle I am super weak in mentally. It can be easy to be positive for others, but harder than Mount Everest for me. I don’t like looking at what little I did as a good thing, because I can twist it. I wrote a lot of negative things after twist it, but I deleted it. 

  I know I can be better while not being ignorant of my short comings. How I word it and present it matters to me. Repeating lots of negative aspects of me, gets me no where. I know them already, so I don’t have to keep focusing on it. I strive for the positive, so I can start feeling and acting positive in my life.

   I’m still working on my aspect of being more social. It has not been successful as well, but I get close sometimes on almost leaving my hobbit hole. I don’t count visiting my parents, because they are well within my comfort zone. 

 For everything that has happened even if it was just a little bit. It was moving forwards in the right directions. 

  Anyways thanks for reading my blogs and commenting. It definitely has an amazing impact. Here are some numbers:

Acts of kindness: 1200

Km: 1210

Sit ups: 6850

Push ups: 6850

Da mu hsing: 123

Drum stick form: 170

Spar: 108