Life and Value

Ok so two things happening here we will talk about the first one life. Life has been going haywire for me and is getting out of control. I need to become engaged in my life again and become more active and make more of an effort to my commitments. 

  I have been taking a path well traveled to the more worse version of myself. I am needing to do not only kung fu at home, but more importantly go to classes. I don’t want to continuously feeling horrified. I know my route to success begins with kung fu. 

  Not just simply the classes and practices, but the lesson and mastery taught by our school to take and apply it to my life. I know when I do this my life becomes so much better, because I have done it before. This time I have new challenges to deal with, but it’s still doable. 

 I would say at the moment I’m at a certain rock bottom feeling. I know my life could be worse, but I am just barely making a blip in my life and choices I am making. 

 I would like to start by saying  I will be going to my black belt class this Tuesday. I am going to start telling people on my blog that I am going to put more accountability on myself, and make me feel really bad if I decide not to go to class, because lazy.

  So beside feeling I’m in crisis there is good happening. That would be the value part of this blog. It relates to how work is going for me at the moment. It is going well and enjoying more than I thought I would.

   I learned for the first time to value my knowledge and my capabilities to work fast and efficiently and effectively in my electrical trade. I have as some might know always have kept a very low opinion of myself. I tend to think the sludge on the bottom of your shoe has more value than me. 

  I am always so negative when it comes to me, but like I said for the first time I finally see my value. It made me surprised and happy. 

I did a task at my job with another colleague  of mine and both had the same task to accomplish. The only difference was I had one cable that had to be re-pulled, because it was to short. So the task for both of us was to terminate (connect) seven 3 pair cables to the panel and ignore the cable with 19 wires and for me the cable that needed to be re-pulled. 

  I found the job to be easy, because for me it was. I completed the seven 3 pair cables, then the cable with 19 wires. Then finally the re-pulled and  terminate the cable on both sides with some time to spare. So I finished the panel to completion. 

 It was a decent amount of work, but nothing to challenging in my opinion. I have done this type of work before and there was more to the job then just terminating, but I have already explained maybe to much that is needed, for what I learned.

 At the end of the day my colleague was still  preparing the 7 cables to be terminated at the end of the day. The lead hand told me that he did not expect me to be so fast, or that I would complete the panel today. 

 My colleague is a good person and has their own learning curve that they are doing. I just finally valued my skill as an electrician. I finally for the first time found value in me when it comes to being an electrician.

 I never thought I was any good or not great by any means, but I have come a long way since I started the trade. I still have lots to learn, but I am good at it as well.

 So really long blog today, but I need to wake up and change my life. I will continue getting worse if I do nothing or start appreciating myself more. Life can be hard or hard with accomplishment. I want accomplishment. 

 This is not the first blog I have done the whole ra ra ra let’s go, so this blog sort of falls flat on me for the moment. Until I actually do the ra ra stuff this is simply a blog to please the people and hide  behind a mask until it falls off again. 

 So I have a lot of mixed feelings right now. I want to succeed, but let’s see what the next few blogs say and see if I followed through or just another empty ra ra blog.

  Thank you for reading a long one today here are some numbers:

Acts of kindness: 700

Km: 700

Sit ups: 1250

Push ups: 850

Da mu hsing: 71

Drum stick form: 75

Spar: 10

Elliptical(minutes):12900

Social outings:2

Family or Friends contacted:2

Blogs:18