The Good, the Bad and the Ugly Part 3

Hello well this is the final installment to this blog series.

The Good

   Well now that your all caught up with what has been happening to me it's about time to hear what I'm doing now. I had a long talk with my aunt, my Dad, my mom, Sharida Csillag, and most recently Jeff Brinker. They all had some great words to say to me and I thank all the people that took the time to talk to me. During all that depressed time the one thing that kept me going was my Friday night kung fu sessions. My black belt class, Sihing class, I Ho Chuan, and even San Sao; this day was my only anchor in life at the moment. 

   I had some talks that gave me a kick in the butt and others that got me to start thinking differently. I am no longer consumed by wanting a girlfriend; I still want one but it will happen when it happens. I still feel a little bad about what happened with my university, but I can move passed it now. Now thanks to my Dad I'm considering becoming a cop; so I have a goal in life again. Also I'm beginning to live life again it's no longer passing me by anymore. To be completely honest I'm still working through this depression of mine, but I'm no where near where I was a week ago; I'm definitely in a better mental state right now. Also I know my family would ever judge me harshly, because that is not the type of people you all are. It was just me overreacting and over thinking. 

    Also now I know that all depression has merit to everyone own problems, and should be treated seriously. Seeking help and dealing with it is better then saying that your depression is not as important as others; as I did. When I first got really depressed I was silent for far to long, but as soon as I started to talk with others I was becoming mentally and emotionally healed. Again I thank those that lent a listening ear and some encouraging advice.

   My aunt is doing well my life seem to be getting back on track again. I'm no longer have the feelings I described in part 2. I have been planning over a week on how to write this blog and now that I have, I feel even lighter. With ever talk I went through I have been feeling lighter and lighter and with this blog series even lighter now. I only have up to go from here now. I thank all of you who took the time to read this little series and if there is one thing that I have learned in this month is that talking about it truly is the best way to get better. You might not feel the need to go public like I did, but for me this was the best way to let everyone know what is happening with me. I started with the private talks first and now this blog. I can tell you for sure a month ago I would not even been able to write any of this down. So with everything said this is the end of  "The Good, the Bad and the Ugly" blog series and I hope we can all stay extraordinary.

Sifu R. Langner