Hello I think I understand now why some people are happy when they find out there are not gonna live for a long time anymore. I have heard of a few stories where people find out they are gonna die, but then realize everything in life they used to be worrying about goes away, because they don't have to deal with life anymore. They find what truly makes them happy and go for it, because what is the worst that could happen when you already know what's the worst thing is going to be.
It got me thinking about what are things do I worry about and what have I done to change them. I worry about my health, I worry of never meeting anyone, and being alone for the rest of my life, I worry about how well my family is doing. I worry how I will be able to react when two of my best friends leave me to pursue there wildest dreams.
What have I done so far is I am taking better care of myself and more conscious of my well being and nutrition. I haven't really been looking to hard for someone else to share my life with, I am good at finding very great woman that are already spoken for; so a no go. I am unsure if I should interfere with my parents problems. I fully support my friends chose in moving and would not them to do anything different. I just want them to be happy forever. I will deal and make new friends. I believe it is a skill we all have, some better at it than most.
It was a lesson in I should not wait to be told I am only going to live for so much longer and just embrace living the best I can now.
I think I know why some were happy, because it is easier to die and much harder to live.
Sifu Langner
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