Source of Energy

     I have found when I go through lulls of inactivity in kung fu I become unmotivated in life. I could say simply being inactive causes that as well, but during my work schedule I was going to a gym and I was feeling slightly better, but still empty. When I practice kung fu it fills me with energy and motivation. Doing the forms brings me joy and participation in classes when I can brings me motivation for something better. 

  Going to a gym and simply working out is good for my health, but I’m usually super bored and just looking forward to when it ends. I do give it my all and try to do good in the gym, but it’s repetitiveness that does have value, but it is boring. I am not a huge music listener so it does not help me for gym work. I usually listen to something I like on YouTube. I find value in exercising often I just wish it was more fun to put it simply.

    When I participate in kung fu my eyes and mind are wide open and burning to learn as much as I can. I don’t remember ever having a class that was boring. I am always astonished for how long I have been doing kung fu and I am still learning new things about forms I have done many times. 

  Kung fu gives me renewed energy when I prioritize it in my life. I do have a bad habit of putting kung fu on the back burner, but that’s due to sheer laziness. I don’t need music or YouTube in the background to practice kung fu I just need kung fu. I need to sort out my priorities and put kung fu higher on my list again.

    Hard work and discipline would be so much better if it was fun to do. Kung fu gives me the experience of having that fun when I do it. I get to understand what gym goers always tell me that someday I will feel off if I miss a gym day. I have never once felt that in a gym. It could be maybe I have not gone long enough to be fair. The longest stint I ever did at a gym was 3 months continuous and I never got that feeling of wanting to go to the gym. 

  I only realized recently that kung fu gives me that feeling. When I am in it and going to all the classes I feel amazing, but if I miss some I feel as I missed out on something amazing. Which is most likely true. Kung fu for me is a source of truly extraordinary miracles. It’s like the saying “if you build it they will come” but for Kung fu” if you practice it you will grow”. Kung fu is an endless fountain of growing opportunities. 

     My kung fu has being a little better this past week. I’m still not doing zero, but my numbers are getting slightly better. I can do better and I will. I have to be happy that I’m not doing zero. That this has to be good news for me. I have to believe it to be a positive. I am simply trying to convince myself that I did good and it ok. I will do better but I’m trying to acknowledge the effort. I have a lot of negative things I want to say, but I’m not going to write it. I am trying to reinforce positivity. I know I can do better. Just a little bit at a time. 

    I may never be the most fit person ever, or the person who is the most talented, but I will be the person who always keeps trying. Doing 1 is better than 0 doing more than 1 is better. Doing something is always better.

   Thank you everyone again for reading my blog. It’s kinda funny I go into the blog with intentions of doing a shorter one, but it always ends up becoming a long one. Anyways here are some numbers: 

Acts of kindness: 650

Km: 700

Sit ups: 5500

Push ups: 5500

Da mu hsing: 93

Drum stick form: 125

Spar: 108