Hardwork

   Hard work is something that I have mostly lost in my everyday life. When I am at a job I work my butt off and try to achieve and do the best possible job I can do and always striving to be better. When I stop work I fall into a slump. I may as well be a robot put on the charger until next job starts.

  I willing make choices that slowly make my life harder. I want to achieve all these goals in my life with none of the effort. These unrealistic ideas hurt me more. I stay home and do nothing except watch YouTube and eat food. Every Friday I visit my parents to play board games. That’s my current life.

  I don’t think there is anything wrong with spending time with family and having a time of rest at home. I am very grateful that I have such a good and close relationship with my parents and I do love just chilling out at home, but someone like me who wants to achieve more things in his life I need to put the hard work into achieving these goals.  I need to start adapting the attitude, again in my life, of even if I don’t feel like doing something, I should do it anyways. 

  It is so easy to not do the right thing in my life. When I do get work my kung fu gets derailed. Then when I lose work I pick the wrong path and choose to do nothing more with kung fu for months then I eventually disappear. Then one day I get a small spark and do Kung fu again, then my life gets better, because I re-introduce hard work into my life again. Then the cycle begins again.

  On this cycle for me the big difference compared to other times is my blogs used to be full of very negative and depressing words that eventually makes me disappear. It’s not bad to have negative emotions, but I let the negativity feed me and grow worse. Then I would eventually stop blogging. That is the time for me if I stop blogging I am shouting at the top of my lungs I need help, but in silence.

 This time for me I have been trying to show my hard times and struggles while also looking for positives and even cheerleading myself in my blog. “Go Randy Go” I could write all the good stuff here and still not take action, but I need to still keep saying it, because once I stop I will start down a worse path.

 I need to keep pointing out when I fail, but not let it rule me. I need to learn from my mistakes and let it improve me. I need to put in the hard work in life, because I know where my life will head if I don’t start putting the hard work in. I have seen many people in my life who achieved peak mediocracy. I did not like what I saw and that’s the way my life is currently heading. 

  I am still learning a lot about this editing thing for videos. I have been enjoying at least learning more about the videos I have been making and uploading to YouTube. If YouTube ever worked out for me I would be really happy, but for now it’s a fun hobby.

 As you might have already guessed but no numbers this week. You all reading my blogs are true legends in my books, because I know you also read others as well and I will always be grateful to you all who do so. So thank you for being legendary and hopefully I start making better choice this week and continue to make better choices.