Timing

  I would like to say I am talking about timing in kung fu, but I am not. I tried to think when I had good or bad timing in my life when I tried to achieve something. The results are absolutely chaotic.

   I went and did 9 months of heavy duty mechanics school(1st, 2nd year) then when I got out a huge recession hit the trade. When I lost a lot of weight and was in a good head space my Mother earned her black belt and inspired me to go back to kung fu. I got into electrical and was able to solidly have a job throughout my whole apprenticeship years, and actually get to learn while working, but at the same time the trade took a $8.00 cut to there wages.

     I decide to attempt a YouTube channel that would have a better chance of becoming big 10 years ago. Now I am finally giving it a go, but it will be harder now, than it was back then. 

    I feel as if when I try to better myself the opportunity’s become more abundant, or I finally opens my eyes and started using the opportunities that have always been available to me. As for attempting making a solid living money wise. I would not say I am hurting for money, but I feel as if I am in a limbo state. 

   That is probably because for the past almost year or more the amount of work I have done is very little. It has been really good money, but short term. I am consistently not struggling with financially, but also not growing either. It’s great that I have been able to not struggle financially and I am really grateful for it, but I have not been able to make progress in having my own place someday.

  I do know right now for work B.C is booming with work, but I am afraid if I try to move there and look for work, I will be in the same place here, just in B.C paying higher taxes.

  I got asked the other day, why don’t I move to B.C? What is keeping me here? I could not really say family, because I enjoy their company, but I am also ok with being far away from them for a long time. I grew up with my parents always gone for work to support my upbringing. I will always love and respect my parents for it. Being an only child and no siblings I got used to being alone. I had some friends, but most of the time I was alone.

   Anyways back on track for B.C question. I thought of kung fu.  It has been a huge part of my life and shaped me who I am today. I know I can still do kung fu if I moved, but I already know I wouldn’t. Maybe a little bit at first, but then it would die down to nothing. I don’t feel comfortable with that.

  I would like to keep pursuing this YouTube thing, because it is fun and I am learning a lot about editing and how I want to shape my channel. I also know right now the YouTube thing can only consider a hobby at the moment, because I make zero dollars from it and it could take years until it actually becomes something.

  So realistically I still need to pursue my actual career right now, but I am having issues finding work. Because I am from a union, non union places don’t even give me a call or message me. I assume it is because they might think because I am a union worker I must be lazy, and it might be true for some , but not for me. Unfortunately I can only prove it if they hire me, but they play the odds that I won’t be good and I have met a lot of union workers who are really bad. That’s all assumption based, but it could be close. 

   Also a lot of places I am trying to looking into are wanting electricians, but you must pretty much be close to retirement age who has worked the trade all your life and no longer needs training. I can say with confidence if you have been doing the trade for over 40 plus years they are in high demand right now. 

  This has been a long rant on some stresses I have been having and frustration. I realize things could be worse for me and they are not. So I can find some happiness in that. I will say I was able to do a little kung fu this week. So I have some numbers to report.

  I will say thank you so much for reading my rant. This is a lot, but the fact you got to the end makes me really appreciate you all. Anyways here are some numbers:

Acts of kindness: 1000

Km: 1100

Sit ups: 6400

Push ups: 6400

Da mu hsing: 117

Drum stick form: 150

Spar: 108