Moving Forwards

  I have been thinking about why is progress never a straight line. Why must there be speed bump, pot holes, twist and turns, and even getting lost or making a wrong turn. Why must I struggle to become better or accomplish anything?

 I think the answer for me is all of it is necessary. It’s the highs the lows and the good times and the hard times. It all gets jumbled together and can become progress. I think it only becomes progress if I don’t give up. If I continue to push forward or write another blog. I keep moving forwards.

 I will trip and fall many times, but keeping myself in an environment of extraordinary individuals. I can become better. I might not always be doing well, but I will be moving forward even if it’s only a centimetre.

  I will write more blogs in the future where I might not be doing well mentally or physically, but I will be moving forwards. 

  I want to change my life for the better and it all starts with me. I can stop blogging and quit Kung fu and I already know for me I would be heading to the darkest timeline for me. So that’s not an option.

  I will be again someday in the better head space and maybe even healthier, but I have to start moving forwards and accept my faults and do better. I cannot change the past, but I can start living in the present and strive for a better future.

  I have a YouTube channel I am enjoying making and I have parents that are willing to go to the ends of the earth for me and I have friends who are willing to reach out to me when I am struggling. Now it’s time for me to wake up and take all these beautiful things I do have in my life and start doing something. 

  I need to keep all of that in the fore front of my mind and stop feeding my negative instincts and start developing more often my positive instincts.

 It’s time to move forwards 

I have done some kung fu this week. It was not a lot, but I am doing something which is still progress. I will be better, but I will strive to always try to increase my numbers. Anyways here are some numbers:

Acts of kindness: 1700

Km: 1450

Sit ups: 7300

Push ups: 7300

Da mu hsing: 150

Drum stick form: 250

Spar: 108