One Bad Day

  So it has been official for 4 days since I had to put down my dog. I have lost a dog before; his name was Adam. I was hurt when I lost him too, but for some reason losing Sammy has hit me differently. 

I think the big difference was I knew Sammy when he was just a pup. I knew Adam when he was around 10. Losing both of them still hurt, but it just feels different. 

 Another big difference was with Adam he was hit by a car. ( clean hit not messy) and with Sammy we made the decision to take his life, but he was not really living to well. Sammy was no longer eating or drinking water. He was in pain and we had to help him. 

Sammy had a long life 16 years and my first dog Adam was 18 years old. I’m not sad we made the decision to put Sammy down, I’m just not happy that we had to do that.

 Every time I remember moments with Sammy I almost start crying, but I hold it back, because it would be weird at work. I do remember the good times with him and how much joy he brought our family. Sammy was able to assign all of us with who is his human for what job.

 I was his human for play, and food and car rides. My dad was for sun bathing and sleeping. My mom his main human mainly for almost all purpose’s.

Sammy will always have a special place in my heart. Right next to Adam.

I would say as far as my kung fu goes it was not great. I have no plans to stay in these sad times, but I need to keep moving forwards and eventually get to experience another one bad day.

Thank you for reading this blog.

I do have some numbers to add but not much.

Acts of kindness: 210

Km: 260

Sit ups:550

Push ups: 360

Da mu hsing: 37

Drum stick form: 40

Spar: 0

Elliptical(minutes):600

Social outings:1

Family or Friends contacted:1

Just a pup photo and a few day before we had to put him down

Kung fu and Life

 So integrating kung and life as one has always been a goal of mine. I have achieved it before and was successful doing so, but life can throw some curve balls at me and that tends to be the moment I put kung fu on the wayside. So instead of using the resources and lessons I have used from kung fu I tend to stop using them. Maybe not 100 percent , but normally drastically less.

  I tried using some kung fu to help me with my friend who now has lost a friend and now getting ready for putting my dog down. This Thursday will be the day I say goodbye to a very dear friend; my dog. 

 My dog Sammy is getting worse. He is no longer really eating and has been puking a lot. I am very sad the day is coming but it is indeed another way to look at taking care of him one last time. Thanks for the comment on last blog.

 I feel it would be crueler to keep him living longer while he suffers. Sammy has liver, kidney, and heart disease, also his front teeth hurt him. He is at a stage there is nothing we can do for him and being 16 no surgery is on the table. 

 I saw a post one time saying “there is only one bad day when you have an animal companion” and unfortunately for me that day is getting closer. I know it will be better for him, but it still hurts.

 Now the kung fu side of things I’m using it on. I have been trying to focus on keeping busy, by practicing my kung fu and doing my push ups and sit ups. Normally in situations like this I start pulling away and try to hide more. So less kung fu.

 I am trying to remain engaged with kung fu this time. I’m not breaking any records on how much I am doing, but I have not eliminated it. I do need to do more if I want to see progress quicker. In general I should be doing more anyways. I’m severely lacking in my numbers, but I know I’m hesitating to fully commit to much, because I have hurt myself before by doing more than what my body can handle.

  If I do more than what my body can handle, and hurt myself, then I will be back at doing zero. I have to make better attempts at doing more, but still being wise about how I do it. 

 It is really quite the balancing act. Too much and I fail, too little and I see nothing. I need to not attempt 100 in a day, but I need to work up to be able to do 100 or maybe more a day. For push ups and sit ups.

  Attempting 100 push for everyday for me leads to shoulder problems. I have throughly looked at how to do a proper push up to prevent strain on my shoulders. What hurts them still is high repetitions. I have no shoulder pain now, but I scare myself from attempting to reach 100 a day by doing so little. I am seeing some progress, but it is slow.

 Does not mean bad progress, but I do have my worries. I don’t want to be a t-Rex martial artist. It is funny, but it really throws me for a loop. My major car accident oddly enough gave me the time and opportunity to fix or heal my damaged shoulders. 

 Having full mobility of my arms and not feel pain is awesome. I feel now in this part of the blog is just trying to convince myself what I need to do. I do want to be able to do 100 a day or more, but I don’t want to go backwards.

 I don’t have a good way to end this blog. So it is done here. Thank you for reading this long one today and hopefully your day or week is going well.

Here are some numbers:

Acts of kindness: 180

Km: 200

Sit ups:450

Push ups: 300

Da mu hsing: 31

Drum stick form: 33

Spar: 0

Elliptical(minutes):600

Social outings:1

Family or Friends contacted:1

Mind Jumble

 So a lot on the mind at the moment. I know someone at the moment going through a MAID service. Which is not the cleaning type, but help you not live anymore type funded by the government. I’m not super knowledgeable about MAID , but I know someone about to use it. 

  It is a super complicated story and would take my whole blog to write the whole relationship this person is to me, but at the end of it, this person is mostly considered an acquaintance at most now.

  The main issue of this is how it will affect my friend who is really close to me and to them and have been through a lot. The friend knows it is happening, and is upset about it and I don’t blame them. 

 In keeping the MAID part short I’m just simply had been trying to come up with ways to support my friend.Me  Supporting the friend 1 who has a friend 2 that is using the MAID service.

 On other news my dog Sammy a little wiener dog. He does not have a date yet, but he will have to be put down. He is my parent’s dog, but I have spend a lot of time with him and care a lot about him. Sammy has lived a really great life and I think he is 15 or 16 years old now.

  My parents and I promised we would not make the same mistake we did with our first dog and that was not recognize the signs when the dog is no longer in good health. Sammy is still here now so all I can do is love him as much as I can before the day comes.

 With Sammy we were aware that any year could be his last, just looks like this is last year. Honestly we started to moving it down to months and now weeks. 

I’m sorry for not talking about any of my kung fu, but at the moment this is all I can think about. I did have a different topic in mind that was more kung fu related, but do to current events it got a little derailed.

If you read my blog thank you. It’s not a great one at all, but I appreciate the time you give me. Seems like it does not belong in this blog, but I have some numbers.

Acts of kindness: 100

Km: 100

Sit ups: 250

Push ups: 180

Da mu hsing: 25

Drum stick form: 25

Spar: 0

Elliptical(minutes):450

Social outings:0

Family or Friends contacted:1

Stiff

 So after last class or rather during I found myself feeling very stiff. Even after warm up my muscles were still not stretched out enough. After I stayed for some open training I really stretched my cavlves and shin area. I found after really stretching I was able to achieve better forms. 

  It is a very basic step, but shows me my training in my room is not sufficient space. I shorten my stances and not really committing to many moves, because space is limited. 

  I would also say it was the first time I was actually happy with how my form felt after some stretching and what I was trying t focus on. 

  I was just trying to focus on stance and how deep I was in them. I would say I need to build strength in my legs still, but also do more stretching. 

  I have been very light on myself as far as physicality goes. The push ups and sit ups have helped, but turns out I have just been turning out numbers for forms rather than quality. I know it is sometimes still important to get something on rather than zero.

 Doing zero is worse than doing 1 ok form. I think doing to many just get the numbers in forms can hurt me for the quality of forms I will produce, but it does serve a purpose of keeping how the form works and still connected to kung fu.

  I have done some more purposeful training with my forms and it feels way better. I still need to now bring stretches back into my life as well. I also noticed how being overweight really affects my movement and how I execute myself. I always knew being heavier plays into everything it just hit me harder for the class.

  So I have lots to reinforce and reinstate into my physical and mental being. I am always on the re learning cycle about who I am and how I work. So a road is before me to go on and I will certainly try to succeed on this path.

 Thank you for taking the time to read my blog and looking forward to seeing what else will come my way. Anyways here are some numbers

Acts of kindness: 90

Km: 80

Sit ups: 200

Push ups: 160

Da mu hsing: 20

Drum stick form: 20

Spar: 0

Elliptical(minutes):300

Social outings:0

Family or Friends contacted:1

Just A Small Update

 It has been quite the adjusting week for me. With this new job and now having the prospects of continuous work. It is a weird work schedule, but it set up to me having 6 months out of the year off. It’s all because of how the schedule is set up. I’m never working more than 4 days a week unless I do overtime. Every shift is a 12 hour shift, but not to bad.

  I figure I would run down on my personal requirements. I realized I did not give much info on them for last time so here are some bits.

  I am trying to achieve 13050 mins on my elliptical. I think it is a goal I am capable of doing and I know it will help with my cardio and weight. I have been struggling to get my time, but that is just me adjusting to my new schedule. I know I will do better for next week.

  I am trying to go to at least 20 outings in a social environment. These are the place I fear most and would rather stay home. Pushing myself out will help not be so timid to the outside world. I’m not expecting to become the master of social outings, but I would like to see progress in myself. The social outings also cannot contain my parents I see them normally every Friday and Saturday if available to me. It has to be with either other friends or just an opportunity to meet new friends 

  I will increase the number if it becomes to easy, but so far I’m still at 0 so will see.

One of the numbers I’m also keeping track of is keeping in touch with friends or family. I keep to myself and never think how is so and so doing. It never crosses my mind. So I will be attempting to contact others at least 50 times. Sounds like a small number , but when my number is still zero it’s another taunting task for me. If this also becomes to easy I will increase this number as well. 

  My kung fu was actually so far better. At least at me practicing or doing it. I still am not at the best numbers, but these are definitely not bad number for me so far. Once I realized I’m really lacking for how much practicing I do compared to others, I realized I had a lot to work on. Now this is not me taking it in a bad way, but as a way to do better for myself.

Thank you for reading my blog today, have a good day or night whenever you’re reading this.

 The numbers I have here are ok, but always looking for progress and better numbers: 

Acts of kindness: 50

Km: 30

Sit ups: 120

Push ups: 100

Da mu hsing: 10

Drum stick form: 10

Spar: 0

Elliptical(minutes):150

Social outings:0

Family or Friends contacted:0

2 Paths

 I really liked our first class. It was a real eye opener for me. It was a message for me to see so many high level teammates. I saw 2 paths I could take that class for me. The first path was doubt and fear and thinking that maybe I don’t belong here. The other path is to see an aw inspiring group of people and using their commitment to strive for success and striving for always doing better as inspiration for myself.

  I thought long and hard about these 2 paths before me. I was actually happy to find myself leaning towards the second path. I know I am very out of shape and it showed me even more about where I am in my training. I was actually happy I did 15 push ups. I did think about how pathetic of me, but it was not the ruling thought. 

  After the push ups and sit ups I was slowly feeling more and more like throwing up, but it never happened yay! My numbers are nothing to be of aww, but I also have not been going super hard either. I have been doing wall push ups and knee push ups, but toe push ups are the ones I tend to stay away from, because they can mess with my shoulders and cause continuous pain if I am not careful.

  I am still going to do toe push ups, I just need to be smart about it and not beat myself up if I have to go back to do some wall push ups to maintain my shoulders. I know I can achieve the goal of doing more toe push ups and sit ups. 

  I have lofty goals for myself this year and I want to make the team proud of what I accomplished and make myself happier in the process as well.  

  Thank you for reading my blog today and wish you best on your journey as well. Anyways here are some numbers:

Acts of kindness: 30

Km: 15

Sit ups: 80

Push ups: 60

Da mu hsing: 4

Drum stick form: 4

Spar: 0

Elliptical(minutes):100

Social outings:0

Family or Friends contacted:0

A New Start

  So I am looking forward to this year and how well it can develop me and help me more physically and mentally. I really enjoyed getting to participate in the banquet. It was already required for me to do so, but for me it has been a few years since I have been able to go. I enjoyed the set up and kitchen service and even the take down. I really enjoyed the opportunity to drum again. I have not really drummed for a few years. It was amazing. All the demos and candidates were a real joy to watch. 

  So now looking at this new start. I am starting a little bumpy with the blog already being late. I was celebrating with my parents for my Mom’s birthday/ Anniversary. It is not a good excuse for why the blog is late, but I should have been on top of this. 

  I will be trying again to achieve weight loss and try to achieving become more comfortable with being social. I can do well in situations where I need to be social, but I usually avoid it like the plague. I will try and create more opportunities for myself to be social because I created the opportunity, not just wait for something magical to happen.

  I am also trying to be in more contact with friends and family. I am so used to never contacting anyone I have become friends with or they’re my direct family. I just stay content on my small bubble and think of only me. I am trying to reconnect you could say with friends and family.

  I am also looking forward to starting my new job, that will be consistent with the hours available. They still might be some over time, but I have never had a schedule where I can see everyday I will be working for the year. The job is still electrical.

  I am grateful for those that are about to embark on this new journey with me and thank you for reading this blog of mine. I do have some number to put, but you will get to see a few things I have added for myself to accomplish.

Acts of kindness: 5

Km: 2

Sit ups: 20

Push ups: 20

Da mu hsing: 0

Drum stick form: 0

Spar: 0

Elliptical(minutes):0

Social outings:0

Family or Friends contacted:0

   

OMG

 Holy moly I can’t believe I missed my day for blogging. I was good for almost the whole year and then literally the last blog for the year I missed the day. I was having the strangest feeling like I forgot something and I could not put my finger on it till just now. 

  This year has had so many up and downs with my kung fu and a lot of it has been tied to my poor decision making, and the stress of working or not working.

  I would not say this year was a failure, but it also not an outstanding success. I have made some better choices in life for sure and still making plenty of mistakes, but I am moving forwards.

   I have a lot of what I have this year thanks to blogging. Even if I was not practicing kung fu physically, I was practicing some aspects of it mentally. 

  What I have failed for me personally was not going to as many classes as I would like to. I know sometimes work happens and ot shows up, but last year I had most of the year off and chose to stay home. I did not do as good as I could have on the physical side of kung fu. I was not able to lose weight. 

   I will say what I have accomplished. Kung fu is back in my life again instead of not at all. I have accomplished more tools to help me stay out of the negative save in my head. I have reached a better place with my drum stick form. I have learned a new time to practice kung fu is after bathroom times. I have wrote all the blogs technically, but I did miss my day. I did not give up on blogging which was my life line.

  What I plan to do moving forward is to take more accountability for what I do and how I move forwards. I have learned a lot about myself this year and what I want. I have a better more thought out plan for a better success for me next year. 

  Right now I am in the I can do this mode. The end of this year is actually just the beginning for me. I am going to strive and keep this momentum going for myself a long as I can and when I fall off I will try and find a way to get back on back quicker. I will fail in the future, but I will be way stronger because of it.

  Just in case I’m not trying to fail, I am trying to succeed. I’m just know who I am and I have been developing more and more tools to get me back to the success side faster. I have periods where I get super motivated, but then something happens and I fall off and never get back again. I am tying to develop way of staying on the better path in my life. It will always be a struggle, but I can always make it a little easier.

  Anyways for my last blog for this year I want to say the biggest of thank you to all of you who have read all or even just some of my blogs. I will always be very grateful for the time you gave me for reading my blogs. I do have some numbers to end the year off. 

Acts of kindness: 2200

Km: 1820

Sit ups: 8100

Push ups: 8100

Da mu hsing: 170

Drum stick form: 285

Spar: 108

Blogs:50

Change

 I have had Multiple times gone through change. Good and bad. Change is something in life that is a guaranteed. I have reacted multiple times in my life very negatively towards change. The best examples I have is Kung fu.

 When I joined Kung fu it was all for the wrong reasons and I stayed in it for the wrong ones as well. I started with a different school than Master Brinker’s. I started with another teacher that had connections to Master Brinker. My first instructor eventually sent me to Master Brinker’s school as a permanent. I was now in a new environment.

 I was an orange belt with 4 green stripes which meant at the time in the different school that I was almost ready for green belt. I just came to the new school and right away they cut off my green stripes and I had to start orange belt over.

  As a kid I was furious and resentful for them throwing away my “hard work”, but in reality they were making me apart of their school and had to re evaluate me to learn silent river kung fu way and go from there. 

 I was ignorant and kept that new attitude for the rest of my stay until 2nd degree brown belt. I took everything they did to me as an attack an unfair and making me try and jump through hoops to get what I want.

 They made Lao Gar (sorry if misspelled) now a new requirement to get your black belt. Before the only taught that form in a special class you could sign up for, but I did not and became even more resistant to them now forcing me to learn a new form I don’t know to get my black belt.

  I took the change as another negative and hoop, when it was designed to help me become a better martial artist. I took everything they through at me as “how dare they hold me back for my promotion to blue or green belt. How dare they. I know I am better and ready”I was not 

  All the instructors had nothing but my best interest for me and were offering me more tools to become better, not hoops. I eventually quit kung fu for 3 years. I thought of it as a scam and thought my life was better. It was mediocre.

  My mom was also a part of kung fu and I thought every year she failed the black belt test proved me right. I thought she would never get it because they rigged the system. Then one year she finally got it. She failed multiple times, but never gave up. She was sad, Sure when she failed, but it made her try even harder. It always made her reevaluate and try again.

  I finally saw what silent river kung fu was doing they made my mom not only a black belt, but a better person too. It’s not like she was horrible before, but she had better skills at coping with failure and taught me how to get back up.

 I came back to kung fu a changed person and saw now all the changes they made and continue doing so has always been them offering more tools at my disposal to become a better martial artist and a better human being. It was my choice to use the tools they offered and my choice to not use them. 

 I found using the tools offered helped me greatly and my goals changed in life and kung fu. I learned to evaluate change more often as an opportunity to improve or learn why the change was made. Most of the time change at kung fu is made to make all of us better martial artist or people in the long run. Kung fu has lots of repetition, but is also a living organism that grows and adapts with us as time goes on.

  Change can suck sometimes, but its not the end of the world. Maybe some change in the world or work, might be the wrong direction, but sometimes you got to ride the process out and see what the results might be, could be positive and so much better.

  In life change can be chaotic, but sometimes change is good and for all my experiences at kung fu I have yet to have a truly negative change at kung fu. If anything was negative it was because I had the wrong attitude and was closed off to new beginnings. Changes at the kung fu have always been better for the long run of things.

  Kung fu will change again and more tools will be given or altered to help us all. Change can be scary, but in reality it’s one of the few absolutes we have in life. 

 Anyways a really long blog today. Thank you for reading it. I do have numbers today.

Acts of kindness: 2150

Km: 1800

Sit ups: 8000

Push ups: 8000

Da mu hsing: 165

Drum stick form: 280

Spar: 108

Inevitable

 So I have been struggling with practicing kung fu, but it has gotten better. Simply put whenever I go to the bathroom I do a little bit of kung fu. 

  Now I will say it’s not like I’m doing full forms in the bathroom, but after I go I practice some forms or do some push ups or sit ups. The bathroom is simply an alarm for me to remind me of practice. 

No matter what, everyday I will be going to the bathroom; it’s inevitable. So I took the advice given to me and made the bathroom time also a little bit of kung fu time. Making my practice some kung fu inevitable.

 Now the bathroom trick mainly only works at home, but doing more kung fu again is always a good path for me. 

A short blog today, but I like this one. Thank you for reading my blog and I have numbers.

Acts of kindness: 2100

Km: 1700

Sit ups: 7800

Push ups: 7800

Da mu hsing: 163

Drum stick form: 275

Spar: 108

Imbalance

 My engagement must be low since I have a hard time of thinking of what to blog. When I am unsure of what to blog it can be a sign of lack of engagement in life for me. I have been working in the extremes. If I don’t work I do nothing. If I work I work hard. No middle ground.

  I found this Sunday to be one of my laziest. I pretty much almost slept all day and I’m still a little tired. Sunday has always been a rest day to refocus, but to sleep almost all day is a bit much. I have been working non stop for awhile now, but 2 days off is good.

 Down side of this sleep all day is now my sleep schedule for a little bit is going to be thrown off. That’s the consequence of my actions though or rather inaction. 

 I need to establish a better routine in my life where it’s more sustainable and more positive for me. Working is good to make money, but not living life at all is bad. I always thinks it’s funny to me that when I work or not in both scenarios I did not really live life. When I had time I stayed at home, and now that I don’t have time I have a better excuse for not living life.

  I don’t like being proficient in mediocrity. It is the skill I have a Doctorate in. I am good at calling myself out( mainly just the negative things , not the positive side), but then it’s the next step that I have issues with. It’s the apply a solution step. It acquires me to stop being mediocre. 

 Step one in always in getting better is acknowledging your faults so you can learn and grow from them. If I were to say I don’t know why I am so mediocre then that’s a lie to myself. I can’t start fixing my problems if I can’t even acknowledge what I am doing to sabotage myself. 

Acknowledging the problem is easy for me, but it’s literally just the beginning of a great change. It’s the action step that take a lot of willpower and determination and motivation to accomplish.

  I’m always up and down mentally. I have more time in the down side of things mentally, but I know what the good side is like. Blogging has been my core anchor for me this year. It has helped me not stay in the darkest side of my mind. Blogging has helped me not stay there.

 I don’t have any new numbers. I thank you for reading this blog of mine

Stay Awake

I am having a hard time writing this blog tonight. I am literally trying to fight off me sleeping. I think it’s interesting that I went from an unlimited schedule to be doing anything, to be non stop working.  I have been working non stop with crazy hours. 

It’s kinda funny how when I had al the time in the world I did not do much kung fu, but now that I am super busy with work, I am trying harder to keep kung fu in my life 

 I almost dozed off to bed and realized I had not written a blog. These Blogs are important to me. They have kept me afloat for the whole year. I feel as if I had missed a blog I would have already fallen off the wagon completely.

  My kung fu journey is a never ending one. I’m at least happy to say kung fu is a part of my life, even if it’s only a little right now. 

 Thank you for reading short blog today. I do have some numbers this time:

Acts of kindness: 2050

Km: 1650

Sit ups: 7600

Push ups: 7600

Da mu hsing: 160

Drum stick form: 270

The Power of Poke

   I have been poked a few times. It can really work for some or a complete miss for others, but I find I fall into the category of it works. I sometimes get a poke about how am I doing mentally or if I’m going to kung fu. It is a simple gesture that carries no ill will and simply tosses the ball into my court.

  I have had days where I was simply exhausted from work and getting ready for bed, then a little poke happens and says Kung fu maybe? Maybe not exactly like that, but it is the jist. I know whatever answer I put it would not be looked down upon. 

 It is a simple poke that just wants the best for me. If I am working sure, if I am about to make a lazy decision maybe not anymore. 

  Being able to do a good poke has a bit of finesse to it as well. The best ones are normally simple for me, but it changes for everyone to what they respond to. 

 The other poke for my mental was simply asking what anime or manga I’m into or if I’m practicing . Not asking if I’m mentally stable, because I was quite wobbly, but simply starting a conversation. Eventually Maybe making a new friend. 

  The poke did not feel like any pressure and simply made me feel responsible for my actions and wanting more for myself. It all helped a lot.

 The art of being a good poker is like walking on a tight rope it’s a very effective tool, but poke to hard and it completely collapses. This again depends on the person. Everyone is different. I have just be lucky enough to have good pokers in my life. 

  I want to thank the people who have poked me to maybe make better decisions on my life and still every now then send me a poke. It’s the smallest gesture with grand impact.

Also thank you everyone for reading this blog. The skill for doing so is always admired by me. Anyways I have some new numbers to put:

Acts of kindness: 2010

Km: 1620

Sit ups: 7570

Push ups: 7570

Da mu hsing: 160

Drum stick form: 269

Spar: 108

Reflection

  My year in I Ho Chaun has been one heck of a roller coaster. The highs and lows were very educational about myself and how kung fu serves me and me to it. This year was about bringing aspects of kung fu back into my life. Training and the mental side of things as well.

  Hiding from responsibilities is easy, procrastinating is easy, thinking negatively is also easy for me. I certainly did not accomplish everything I wanted to accomplish, but I did get to see some results out of this year.

   Blogging every week kept me from giving up and just going into hiding. It kept my issues I had at the forefront to let me know what I need to continuously work on. It helped me stay engaged not only in kung fu, but my life as well. I can confidently say I have not missed my blogs this year ( maybe some a little late) blogging has been one of the most important tools I could use this year. MVP

  The acts of kindness were the easiest thing in the world for me to accomplish. I have always tried to be kind when I can, but what I like about the challenge is it helps me see who else in my life is kind as well, and acknowledge when someone else is being kind to me. It’s very easy to become absorbed into what I am doing for others, but then miss what others are doing as well. I feel lucky that I have a lot of kind people in my life.

   The fitness aspect of it has always been a challenge. I have had better years with the fitness aspect of it, but it helps me feel some sense of accomplishment even if I was not able to complete the fitness. I will and can do better. I did learn to be proud of not zero, but still knowing I can do better. I am not trying to justify to put in bare minimum effort, but instead try to reinforce the aspect of I can do better, but I did not do zero. 

  I have had to many years of zero, and  the years where I had low numbers I used it as fuel to be a showcase of how big of a failure I am and deserve the worst things because of it. I re-introduced of looking at it as more positive and saying I can do better and not give up.

  The forms have always been a lot of fun to do and sometimes the biggest frustrations. I have been enjoying Da mu hsing as for me it was the first form I got to learn. You would think I am an expert at this form now, but I’m not. That is probably the best part. I get to keep learning about Da mu hsing even knowing it’s the oldest form I know. There will always be more to learn and I love it.

  The weapon form I have this year is my drum stick form. It has  been my little project for quite a few years. It has brought me more than enough frustrations, but also a sense of pride for how far this form has come for me. It is a form that helped me define every beat in the drumming sequence and make my moves and the drum one. When I am able to have a drum beat and my form together it makes me extremely happy when I can pull it off.

    I would not say this year for me was a huge success, but at least a step in the right direction. If I’m looking at just that then this was a successful year. I will continue to make poor decisions, but I will also be more active about doing the good ones as well. Me specifically trying to focus more on the positive has always been one of my biggest hurdles in life, but I have been practicing.

  Anyways thank you all for joining me on my I ho chuan journey. It has been a crazy ride and this years I ho chuan is coming closer to the end. I do have some numbers:

Acts of kindness: 2000

Km: 1600

Sit ups: 7550

Push ups: 7550

Da mu hsing: 159

Drum stick form: 264

Spar: 108