Progress

I have been making really good progress with my physio. I was able to do heel raises with little issue. Before when I started physio I lost my balance a lot and had a hard time doing them; I shook a lot. Now I can do 10 with relatively little to no issues. I have learned better where my limits are. Every time I go beyond my limits I get a dizzy feeling and have to rest for the rest of the day. The room is not spinning, but I lose balance and, my memory gets foggy during these moments.

 I used to do to much physio, but now I have them spaced out better through out the day. I do notice I get the dizzy feeling after a thought provoking conversation, where I do a lot of the talking. I am still learning me again, but I feel I am doing better for sure now. I know slow and steady is the way to do it. I will become a better me. No matter what I go through I know I will become a better me. It is inevitable, because I will always strive for the best me I can be.

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Involuntary Swaying

Hello so I have been still having some issues with memory, and dizziness. I Actually thought March 3, but It is March 17. I keep thinking I just did my blog, but now realizing I have not. I have some memory games that they gave me. They are all apps on the phone. I will say I know I am still making improvements. My memory is getting better just slowly.

    I still get a very unbalance feeling after doing my physio exercises. Also I can do 30 mins of an elliptical machine, but if I do 31 mins I get unbalanced feeling again. It is so weird to experience all over again how to keep my balance. When I had my balance I would take it for granted that I had practice for so long to achieve it that I forgot just how much mechanics go into balancing. I have to try and find my center then fight against my own brain that throws me off. It feels like I am trying to balance on a ship sometimes. My body will naturally sway when I stand on two feet and close my eyes. Nothing crazy, but it is involuntary swaying hahaha. (I just thought it was funny and wanted you all to know I laughed at that sentence). Both of my ankles still feel pain when doing the balance exercises. More in the left than the right. 

  I would say a lot of things went bad for me, but right now I feel as though a lot of things have been going really good for me.

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Ups and Downs then Up again

Hello. Finally going through some proper physio it's started to take it's toll. After some sessions I feel very unbalanced, and sore. Which is a common outcome. I feel like I worked out really hard at the gym, but all I did was some stretches and butt lifts, and my legs are killing me.

 I do worry a lot. I mainly worry about whether I can go back to work, or if work will even higher me back and accommodate me. I am in a weird position right now. They have no obligation to take me back, other then the fact that the foreman said he would. He said that to me when I was in the hospital still, but now that I am thinking more clearly. I am officially not an employee; so they have every right to not hire me back. My only hope to go back is that he keeps his word. Then the other thing I worry is can I physically and mentally do it. I feel after a physio that if I have this much trouble in 40 mins how would I last in 8 hours.

  I would say I am still in the head space of I will not give up and I will eventually be working again. I know that the only thing I can control is me. I know I developed the bad habit of worrying about the what ifs? but I know they lead most of the time to no where. Thinking about the possibilities is not a bad skill to have, but sometimes why worry about how will I solve all of the worlds problems when I just need to focus on how am I gonna walk today. I need to live in the now and what is available and the actions I do now will help me for the future and maybe even those around me.

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