Hello. Finally going through some proper physio it's started to take it's toll. After some sessions I feel very unbalanced, and sore. Which is a common outcome. I feel like I worked out really hard at the gym, but all I did was some stretches and butt lifts, and my legs are killing me.
I do worry a lot. I mainly worry about whether I can go back to work, or if work will even higher me back and accommodate me. I am in a weird position right now. They have no obligation to take me back, other then the fact that the foreman said he would. He said that to me when I was in the hospital still, but now that I am thinking more clearly. I am officially not an employee; so they have every right to not hire me back. My only hope to go back is that he keeps his word. Then the other thing I worry is can I physically and mentally do it. I feel after a physio that if I have this much trouble in 40 mins how would I last in 8 hours.
I would say I am still in the head space of I will not give up and I will eventually be working again. I know that the only thing I can control is me. I know I developed the bad habit of worrying about the what ifs? but I know they lead most of the time to no where. Thinking about the possibilities is not a bad skill to have, but sometimes why worry about how will I solve all of the worlds problems when I just need to focus on how am I gonna walk today. I need to live in the now and what is available and the actions I do now will help me for the future and maybe even those around me.
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