I noticed a pattern with each of my blogs. Normally I start kinda nervous, then evolves into confidence, then eventually a negative tone will take over, then eventually ends up with me no longer writing blogs. Then of course rinse repeat once I get back into blogging.
I think me confronting and writing my flaws in my blog is a good thing, but then I let it take control. I let mediocracy get back into my life over and over again. I know not every blog will be a 10 out of 10, life is good and I am pumped for life, but life is better when I focus more on it. I definitely do not ignore what is wrong, or struggles in my life, but I tend to forget easily about what is good.
I’m still avoiding the world and choosing to use a water bottle to hammer a nail in. I guess you could say I am getting closer on making that jump into connecting with others outside my hobbit hole. For me getting closer to going out is actively making it a possibility. I keep failing, but I am trying to keep making progress. I slowly pick up the hammer then at the last second water bottle.
So relationship with the outside still sucks, but not all things suck. I have been making some headway on my drumstick form. It used to feel always kinda off, but now it is clicking. It is a form I am becoming more proud of. There still feels like there is still some kinks, but I’m moving forwards.
My push ups have turn into on the wall and physio stretchy band. I was making progress for push ups on the ground, but my shoulder started acting up. I am in no pain right now, but whenever I start doing ground push ups my shoulders tell me “not yet, Will let you do some, but if you keep this up we will bring pain”. Sit ups are going good though. Those have always been the old faithful for me.
Sparring is normally a lot of shadow boxing for me. I do tend to forget this one, but it is something that I have been bring back into my life. I used to be very nervous, now I’m just out of shape. I find sparring the best time to practice technique. Being quick or having longer limbs makes some sparring easier, but methodically making a plan of attack and executing it is a whole other ball game. I am not quick right now, but I remember when I was in better shape I used my limbs and surprise quickness to my advantage.
The power of throwing a proper round house was my favourite, because if you use proper technique most of the time people do not see it coming, because at the last second it changes. It could be a front thrust kick then last second round house head shot.
One of the requirements I tend to never blog about is kind acts. I find them the easiest to do out of all the requirements, next to kms. For kind acts I find every little minute thing and count it. I washed and clean the dishes. I helped clean the floors. I said hello to a roommate. I believe acknowledging someone’s existence to be a kind jester, rather then walking passed them and ignoring them completely. I do things that would make me happy if others did that for me. I have bigger kind acts I have also done.
It has been a long time, but I used to pay for the person behind me in drive through. Definitely not all the time, but no matter the cost I paid it. One was over $100.00 one time. I saw it was a big vehicle with lots of people and decided to buy their lunch. I will never know if they were happy or even if they did it for someone else. I just felt good that maybe I put a good permanent memory for them.
Doing acts of kindness can be more complicated or something as small as giving a smile to a stranger. Not all acts of kindness will land for others, but it might hit someone someday and change the rest of their day or life for the better.
Anyways that’s me blog for today. Thank you for your time and effort in reading my blog. Here’s some numbers.
Acts of kindness: 370
Km: 256
Sit ups: 4400
Push ups: 4400
Da mu hsing: 72
Drum stick form: 99
Spar: 108
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