Stances + Sporadic

 Getting deeper into a stance for da mu hsing has been a struggle. My drum stick form does not have to many deep stances. The thing right now making it hard to go into deep stances is a lack of deep stances practices and my weight. Also since I started this new job I do stand a lot in one spot so my knees and legs get sore.  I can feel my heart beating in my knees.

  Getting into a nice solid stance and making a smooth transition feels amazing and I have not really been there for awhile.

   With everything going on in my life I have put kung fu lower on the totem pole. When it should be higher and would actually help me more mentally and physically if I put kung fu higher. I have a bad habit I need to break. Whenever I hit a bump in the road I disconnect, disappear. All I try to do is hide. 

   Nothing can hurt me if I am by myself and comfortable resting in my bed. Unfortunately for me when I do that I deteriorate mentally and physically. I have a harder time to connect with people and reaching out, because I put myself in a bubble.

  Anyways back to stances. When my stances feel good my form feels good. Stances are a literal foundation. My foundation is a bit crumbled at the moment.

 You know after re reading my blog it perfectly matches my thought process in real time; it’s all over the place. It’s all connected yet sporadic. I could make multiple and separate blogs about these topics rather then lump them into one, but some of the things said in this blog I did not think of until I started writing.

  I’m sorry for the sporadic blog, but I am going to end this one here. I am not sure on how to continue or wrap up this one. So thank you for reading this blog and I have some numbers:

Acts of kindness: 300

Km: 380

Sit ups:650

Push ups: 450

Da mu hsing: 50

Drum stick form: 53

Spar: 0

Elliptical(minutes):810

Social outings:1

Family or Friends contacted:1