Oh boy

 So I am unfortunately realizing once again I missed my blog day. I will say what has been happening to me. I have been recently very busy with hurting my lower back. 

  I have been at the moment have only seen the work site paramedic and doctor. So far they say it is most likely a strain muscle and all that can be done is put some heat on it and take it easy. 

  For the first time ever in the trades I have been offered modified duty’s that are easy on my back. Qa/Qc (quality assurance/ quality control). I have done the job here before and it is a very simple job and zero ways to use my back.

   So besides the back I don’t want to continue to miss my blog day. It has great importance in my life now. It has become a direct reflection of how life and my kung fu is doing. The more often I miss the blog the more I pull away. 

  I’m a little paper boat slowing sailing into an open drain. I have done that path before and it does not end well for me.

 So more unfortunately I don’t have any new numbers to add. The lower back problems pretty much started on Monday. So I have done zero kung fu and apparently not very engaged enough to be on time for my blog.

  I know sometime in life things can happen out of your control, but I have done plenty of other things or lack there of in my control.  I have been curious lately about why do we self sabotage sometimes or a lot of the times.

 I know I do it to myself a lot and think back why did I make a choice that would hurt me more on the long run. Bluntly put lazy, procrastination, easy way out. 

 At least that why I think I have self sabotage so much. I know what are my limitations and I keep myself to far in them. It smart to not go so far to break yourself, but not great if zero change happens as well.

 I have been extra jumbled this week because of my, back, but my mind clearly was not on kung fu when there was opportunity to do so.

 Well thank you for your time and hopefully I smarten up.